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FRANKL
Gwen was reading when Joseph tapped on her door and entered. She sat up with her legs crossed under the sheets.
He sat and tapped the book. "What do you think?"
"I finished it last night. I'm reading it again. It's very appropriate." Joseph merely nodded. "I have some requests. If you can't fulfill them it's fine, but if I don't ask I'll never know." She continued as Joseph nodded again. "A pen or a pencil and a notebook. Spiral is fine. Whatever you have. I'll need tampons." Joseph nodded.
"We'll start you on birth control a few days into your period."
She nodded and he waited knowing there was more, "A chair? Something other than the commode to sit on." Joseph smiled.
"I'll see what I can do."
"Joseph?"
"There's more?" She smiled at his playfulness before growing serious.
"I appreciate that you didn't react to my anger yesterday."
He shook his head, "Everyone is angry when they come here."
"But maybe it isn't your fault."
"You believe me?"
"I don't know, but I'm willing to accept it as a possibility. I need a friend. I'm not very good at trust though."
Joseph nodded, "It's more than I expected."
"How much control can I have over my training?"
"As much as I am willing to give you."
"Can I see the checklist?"
Joseph looked at her a moment pondering. "I'm not sure you want to."
"There are things I have to face. I do better if I can prepare mentally first."
"I didn't want to take you to see the girl yesterday. It was protocol."
Gwen shrugged. "Okay." She watched him a moment longer. "I want to meet everyone. I want to get to know everyone. I would appreciate it if you could give me input on what they are like. I would like to volunteer to work in addition to my training. I would like to work everywhere I can, the laundry, the kitchen, housekeeping, the infirmary, the spa. I would like to learn how to give massages. Everywhere except the torture area, but I could clean there I think." She saw the surprise as Joseph nodded. "Is there any sort of counseling service here? Or any sort of formal support groups for the things that people go through?"
"No. People talk informally. There are a few books in the training library on dealing with sexual trauma. I talk to John that you met in the library. He is good at keeping confidences."
Gwen nodded.
"I may be required to read what you write in your notebook."
"I can accept that. Can I read what you write about me?"
Joseph shrugged with a little grin. "Most of it. If you want."
Gwen nodded and crawled from under the blankets stooping to pick up an item from the flat of water bottles. She handed Joseph the stud as she sat next to him. He studied it in his hand for a moment before putting it in the coin pocket in his shorts. "Can I ask you another question?" He nodded. "You don't have to answer if you don't want to."
"Okay."
"Do you have any extra-curricular sex?"
He looked at his hands for a moment before he answered. That little sigh came first. "No." Gwen waited as he paused. "I have always only done what I was required to do." He glanced at her sideways. She nodded. Her next question she spoke in a whisper.
"Do you think I'm a slut?"
Joseph put his arm around her shoulders quickly pulling her close and put his forehead against her temple whispering in her ear. "I think you loved Brian. I think you loved being with him and had no intention of being with anyone else. I think that you never intended for those pictures and videos to become so available. I think that you were under the influence of the Ecstasy at the bar. The Tylenol Julia gave you had some in it as well. It probably affected your actions here with Adam. I think maybe you made some bad choices, but everyone does that. I don't think you are a slut. I'm sorry you are here." He backed off to look at her, but Gwen just stared at her hands in her lap, overcome with the power of his words. She didn't know why they were so important to her. Finally she nodded and heaved her own little sigh.
"What are we doing today?"
He slapped his hands to his thighs and stood. "The pool first, shower, and then breakfast. Then I can show you the list if you're sure."
Gwen pushed herself in the pool. Her arms gave out, but she kicked on her back and stroked when she could. Joseph did laps in the adjacent lane and then rested with his back to the wall at one end until she finished finally, exhausted. Other people passed through the room, but no one joined them in the pool. He had taken his shorts off. He said no one was allowed to wear clothes in the pool. When she was done he led her to a public shower between the gym and pool. The water pressure was ample, but there was no privacy at all. Not even to use the toilets. Joseph shrugged in apology and she turned her back as he sat. He returned to the shower when he was done and washed himself without speaking.
"We can eat in your room if you want."
"I'll eat in the cafeteria. I'm going to have to get used to it. I might as well start."
"Good. You can start meeting people."
"Okay."
"Let's stop by Rachel's and get that stud put in on the way."
"Okay. Does Adam come often?"
"Once or twice a week."
"How many people are in his 'order'?"
"Forty-two. All women. You'll see the pecking order as you see the studs. Right now you are number one. The girl you displaced is Colleen. She wears a pearl. She won't be happy. You'll have to watch out for her also. The word is already out that Adam has another member, but Rachel is told never to reveal the stud until the girl comes out of her room. The rest of the girls have smaller gems of various colors. He has one remaining stud that is reserved for a virgin. He will name her Eve."