I was sitting at my kitchen table, mouth agape, the packet of papers unstapled and spread out before me. He had said this was a basic work handbook. I should have known...
My schedule was Monday-Friday, 7AM-7PM. I was on call all day, every day. "Punishment will be dealt out for any and all tardiness." It read. And, on Friday nights, it said I was expected to be at his house, no later than 9PM, to prepare for the following week. I would stay all night. On these nights, I was allowed to wear whatever I was comfortable in. For the rest of the week, he had laid out a strict dress code:
1. You will wear skirts, every day, no exception.
2. Skirts will be accompanied by stockings unless otherwise instructed. Not panty-hose, not tights, not socks—stockings.
3. Heels are required, at least two inches.
4. You will wear nice lingerie. Or you will wear nothing underneath. What I saw of what you had on today will suffice. Nothing of lower quality.
5. Your hair will remain down, or will be easy to let down.
6. Dark makeup or lipstick is not allowed in the office. It is encouraged on our Friday night meetings.
7. All shirts, blouses, or dresses must have a zipper or buttons, or be low cut to reveal cleavage.
I read and reread the instructions, realizing he wanted to dress me up like a doll. I glanced at my wardrobe. I had a few things that would suffice. But I would have to go shopping soon. Especially if I was going to wear my nicer lingerie every day.
The NDR was straight forward; don't speak of anything to do with the company, your job, or about the innerworkings of James Sinn's life. Ever. Period.
The waiver, though, was what had gotten to me. Signing it would sign away my body, my time—my life. It stated that I was agreeing to anything and everything Mr. Sinn would ask of me, on penalty of punishment or termination. It stated, "Ms. Evelyn Raleigh agrees to be a willing tool for use by James Sinn, in however he sees fit to use her." I knew what that meant; I had read enough smutty literature to understand. He was asking me to sign away my right to limits. He was asking me to give up my right to say no. It also stated I agreed to be slotted for his personal use alone, unless he gave a say-so otherwise. He wanted me to be his exclusively—although I wasn't sure what that second part was—he would order me to have sex with someone else? He didn't seem like the sharing type to me, though. The rest of the packet was fairly standard; it spoke of pay rate—which nearly stopped my heart when I read it—about notifying the receptionist in the main lobby whenever I arrived or left, whenever I would be away from the phones or off the clock, about my sick days and vacation time, and their benefits package—which was amazing, I noticed.
This was a dream job.
I just had to sign away my body and soul. The pen hovered over the paper for a full minute, my hand shaking. Then I sucked in a breath, squeezed my eyes shut, and signed the waiver. I let out the air in a sigh, signing the NDR next. Then I looked down at the papers. Had I done the right thing? Was I really able to do what he was asking? To be what he wanted? I glanced at the clock. It was 7:30 now. And Friday. I knew I was expected at his home tonight; he had left me the address. He lived in a gated house on the far side of town. I would need to live in about a half hour to make it there on time.
I found myself trying to decide what to wear that he would like the best as I stood and made myself a sandwich. But, it took me so long to eat that I didn't really have time to change. I threw together a bag with some toiletries, and grabbed something to wear as pajamas—a sheer black satin robe that fell to my mid-thigh and tied with a sash around my waist, hanging open to my naval. It would look great with my underwear and pumps. I head out quickly, and drove as fast as I could through traffic.