"Here we go. Confirm order, aaaannd done. No going back now."
I was so nervous but so excited. I've known I was submissive for years. From the very first time I saw a thumbnail for femdom porn, I didn't know why I was so drawn to it, but I was hooked. What started with tease and denial went on to chastity, then pegging, then forced cum eating, and even forced bi.
The thing is, I'm the most vanilla guy I know. I never take any risks, I go the traditional route... but for some reason I've wanted to be that submissive guy I see in videos for so long I can hardly stand it anymore. Here I am, 25 now, married to a beautiful, sweet wife, and I'm happy, but I want more. She's the classic good girl too, just like I'm the guy who always plays it safe and follows the rules... so she'd never understand.
My birthday's coming up in a few weeks, though, and I'm pulling the trigger. This year, I decided to get myself an early birthday present: a chastity cage and a dildo. It might be kind of tricky hiding them from Rebecca, but that's part of the thrill, isn't it?
A couple of weeks went by and I must have checked my shipping status every day. I didn't want my packages to get home before I did.... Rebecca might get to them first. I nearly jumped out of my skin at work when my friend Keith caught me.
"Whatcha tracking there Brady?"
"Oh! Don't sneak up on me like that man! It's nothing... just a birthday present for myself."
"Yeah? Honestly I love getting presents for myself. No one else really gets me anything I want. So what did you get?"
"Well, uhh, actually right now I've gotta get going. Our mail should be coming in soon, and I don't really want Rebecca to get to it first. I wouldn't want her to think I don't like her gifts, ya know?"
"Yeah I totally get that. Well I'll be seeing you, and hope you enjoy! We should get together and do something for your birthday now that you've reminded me!"
"For sure! Sounds great! See you later Keith!"
I just made it out to my car when I got the notification, "Your package has been delivered!" I had to hurry. Rebecca would be home soon.
My heart was racing the whole way. I didn't want to speed and get pulled over, but I didn't want to take all day either. About halfway to the house, though, my heart sunk. The phone rang, which is always worse than a text, and I answered it.
"Hey baby, I made it home a little early. When do you think you'll be home?"
"Umm, I don't know Becca, I'm not too far from the house now. Why?"
"When you come in, let's talk, okay? I love you!"
This can't be happening! She definitely sounded like something was up. I finished the drive home, in less of a hurry now, and I checked the mail on the way in. Sure enough, empty mailbox. As I walked through the door, Rebecca met me there, held my hand and kissed me, but I didn't see the usual happiness in her eyes.
"Come on Brady. Sit down."
She sat across from me and there they were, my chastity cage and dildo sitting on the table.
"Baby, did you order these?"
I couldn't even catch my breath. Somehow I managed to squeak out, "Yes honey."
"Why'd you get these? Is the cage for you and the dildo for me?"
I sat there in silence, trying to think of what to say.
"Brady?"
"I'm sorry you had to find these. Look, they're still in their boxes... I'll return them right away. It's not worth upsetting you."
"Baby I'm not angry; I'm hurt. This is out of nowhere, and I've only ever heard about these things," she said as she held up the chastity cage. "I thought we could tell each other anything, and now I feel like you don't even trust me to keep you happy."
I saw a tear start to fall from her eye. I had never thought of it that way. I don't want to hurt my wife. I love her.
"Of course I trust you Rebecca. I was just being insecure and stupid I guess. Listen, I got them as an early birthday present. The truth is, I've always fantasized about chastity and being submissive, and I was wrong for not being honest with you. I'll return these and then no more secrets from now on, okay?"
"I don't want you to return anything if it's what you want, especially if it's for your birthday. You're hard enough to shop for as it is. Hold on... did you say you got both of these for yourself?? The dildo too?"
"Yes," I said quietly.
"What did you plan on doing with the dildo?"
"I'm telling you because I trust you, okay? I... I was going to suck it and ride it and pretend you were pegging me with it..."
"Oh wow, really?" Her mouth hung open in disbelief. "Surprised... isn't even the word for me right now. Where's all this coming from?"
"My head. Fantasies I guess."
"Brady, look at me. I've been a good wife haven't I? You trust me don't you? We can go to each other for anything, right?"
"That's right."
"Then listen. We'll keep these, but you're going to tell me what all your fantasy involves."
I took a deep breath. "Well, I kinda told you some of it by now. My cock being locked up, me taking a dildo in my throat and ass, you already know I like my nipples played with, maybe some spanking and humiliation. Really the loss of control and humiliation is most of it I guess. I... I guess I'd even do stuff with another guy if I was forced to." Gosh I hated to admit all that, but I just want a happy wife.
"Huh? You mean, do you think you might by bi? When you say another guy, are you picturing like a stranger or someone we know?"
"Rebecca please, you can't go telling your girlfriends this or anything... I've sorta always checked my friends out. Just a little. I mean, it's more like I wish I looked like them... my friends have always been more fit and more confident than me, and they're objectively good looking dudes. Shoot, even your brother's a good looking dude... he looks just like you after all."