I open my email and see a message from you and immediately click on it.
To: Abby
From: Al
March 21, 2013 9:00am
Subject: Service
Your services are required at the Adolphus Hotel room 2014. You'll be there on your knees waiting for me at noon during your lunch hour. Make arrangements that you'll be having a long lunch and will be late returning to the office. Dress appropriately.
I stare at the monitor for a moment and can't believe how bold you're being. We've been teasing each other in email, innocent touches, and flirty little looks for the past month, but nothing this serious. This must be a joke.
I look up and notice you standing near the break room with your morning cup of coffee. Your eyes bore into mine as you tip your mug to me in acknowledgment and then you walk off toward your office. I stand up, on slightly unsteady legs, and head in your direction following you to your office.
From behind your desk, you look up to see me hesitating in your doorway. "Did you need something?" you ask.
"I got your email..." I drift off, not sure what to say. My eyes fall to the floor.
"Was I unclear?"
"Umm.. No. You were quite specific. I guess I just wanted to know if you were serious," I answer.
You don't respond. The silence is palpable and when I look up you catch me with your stare. Tick Tick Tick. Your finger taps the lip of your coffee mug as you leer at me with an intensity I wasn't prepared for. You trap me with your eyes, a rabbit looking into the eyes of a wolf before he pounces. I am helpless, naked and vulnerable under your scrutiny. And like the rabbit I feel the urge to run.
"Yes, well. Ok then. I guess I'll see you at noon." I start to babble in my nervousness and dig my nails into my palms to keep from rambling. After several long, pregnant seconds without a response, I nod once and turn to walk back to my cube. My legs no less wobbly on the return trip.
I sink into my desk chair, exhausted, like I'd just gone ten rounds. I flick the mouse with a finger and the screen brightens to display your email again. I reread your word focusing on the last line. Dress appropriately.
I wish that I didn't know what you meant, but I do. I remember you once mentioned that we should go back to business attire here in the office. "How can anyone take us seriously when we're dressed like we're still in college."
I glance down at my jeans and t-shirt. In my mind I calculate the time it would take me to drive home, change into something appropriate and be back downtown to the hotel. "Fuck," I say under my breath. This will be longer than just a "long lunch."
I tell my boss that there's an emergency and am leaving for the day. I grab my purse and dart to my car.
I stand in front of my closet at a complete loss. My bedroom looks like a tornado whipped through it spewing dresses and lingerie all over. "Appropriate," I mutter. "What the fuck is appropriate?!?"
I am wearing two different stockings and two different high heels. A pair of mint green panties and a red bra. I can't even decide on the "appropriate" underwear. This is hopeless. I sink down onto the corner of my bed and drop my head into my hands.
I am not going to cry. I'm not.
I glance at my bedside clock and I try to reign in my tumultuous emotions. Kicking off the mismatched shoes, I pad into the bathroom to fix my makeup and hair. I'm a minimalist when it comes to cosmetics. I hate the feeling of all that goop on my face all day. Even when I do wear it, it's with a light hand. A bit of powder, a swipe of mascara and pink lipstick with a hint of gloss.
Now that my lips are a pretty pink, it will be easier to deal with my closet. A limited menu is best for me. I keep gravitating toward one particular dress. It's not what I'd call business or professional, it's more soft and pretty. I want to mold myself into the sexy secretary look, but it isn't really me.
I take the dress off its hanger and hold it up to my body. It's a white dress with bright pink and purple flowers that swirl around the sides leaving a white patch down the center and back, as if the flowers are hugging me. Wide shoulder straps leave my arms bare and it has a high neck and back. But because it hugs my body, it's not exactly demure. The hem is just above the knee and falls in waves. When I spin it flares out and reminds me of spring. And since it's the 2nd day of spring I feel this is "appropriate" even if it isn't typically business. At least it's a dress and not jeans and a t-shirt.
I peel off the one black and one blue stocking and pull out a pair of white ones, and then dismiss the idea of stockings altogether. This dress screams for bare legs. Now that I have the dress picked out, the shoes aren't a hard decision. When I bought the dress, I planned on wearing open toe spring wedges, but that really wasn't quite sexy enough for this engagement. I slip on strappy high heeled sandals instead.
I arrive at the hotel at 11:45. I walk toward the front desk and realize I have no clue what to say. Your email indicated you'd made a reservation, but under whose name? All I have is a time and room number, but I know that there's no way I'm getting a key without providing an ID.
"I have a reservation under Abby Grace Barnet," I say to the front desk clerk.
Thankfully I didn't have any issues. After providing my driver's license and a quick signature, the woman at the desk gave me directions to the room. I congratulated myself on conducting this transaction professionally and without any nervous hiccups, and then she asked if I'd need assistance with my bags.
"Oh, my bags. Umm. No, I won't need any help with my bags." I managed to get out and I knew I was blushing furiously. But did manage to pick up the door key without my hand shaking.
My heels clicked on the polished marble floor as I walked to the elevator. I could feel the desk clerk's eyes on me the entire way. I knew what she was thinking. I'd be thinking it too. Maybe next time I'd just wear a nametag that read "By The Hour."
When the door to the room shut behind me it was 11:55. In some ways this is probably a good thing. The longer I have to sit in here the more nervous I'd be. Hell, scratch that.. I'm already shaking I'm so nervous.
I head for the bathroom to do a last minute check of my appearance. I run my fingers through my hair and freshen up my lipstick. Hopefully I'm appropriate enough. I glance around the room and toss my purse onto the dresser. I turn to look at the door and walk toward it. There's a patch of tile in front of the door, but if I knelt there the door would hit me when it opened. I ended up on the carpet to the side.
11:57. These are going to be a very long three minutes. I can see myself in the mirror from the sliding glass doors of the closet. Kneeling on the floor in a hotel room waiting for a man so I can service him. I feel and see my cheeks redden and the nervousness is building into a swarm of butterflies in my stomach. I press my hands against my belly in an effort to calm my nerves.
11:58. Each second is feeling like hours. I look into the mirror at my submissive position and my flushed cheeks and suddenly the nervousness is at war with my arousal. I feel how wet I'm getting. I press my thighs a little closer together to ease the pressure inside my pussy. I can't believe I'm going through with this. Actually I can. I've been wanting you for months now. Imagining what it would be like to have your cock in my mouth. I wonder how you knew that this is what I needed and wanted and craved.
11:59. I close my eyes. I can't look at myself anymore and I can't look at the clock either. I'm just going to kneel here and close my eyes. I've done this plenty of times before.. granted at church. This is just going to be a different kind of worship.
I hear the slide of a card key in the lock outside the door and my eyes fly open. It feels like my breath is caught, like right before the roller coaster climbs the first big hill, those few seconds that seem to last forever before it crests and drops and you're being pulled hard and fast toward the ground.
The door opens and I look up and watch you step inside the room and flinch as the door swings shut with a loud crash the way hotel doors do as they automatically lock. Kneeling so close to the door I feel it resonate from my knees up through my body.
You lean back against the door and look at me with your penetrating gaze that sears into my soul. I fidget as you stare at me, lowering my head and run my hands along the skirt of my dress smoothing out invisible wrinkles. Desperately hoping you don't notice how hands are trembling.
Your shoes click along the tile and I glance up to see you walk past me. You toss a bag onto the bed and return to circle me. I keep my head bowed while you're inspecting me. I feel like I'm on display at a meat market before realizing that's exactly what I am: on display. For you.
Your hand caresses down my cheek to cup my chin, and you tilt my head until I'm looking up at you. "I like that you're bowing your head, but right now I want you to look at me. Understand?"
I nod and my eyes drop back. Realizing what I did, I quickly look back up.
"Words, Abby. I need to hear them."
"Oh. Yes, I understand," I answer.
"Tell me why you're here."
I don't answer immediately. I'm at a loss and don't quite know how to answer you. "Because you invited me." It's almost more of a question than an answer.
"Yes, I did do that. But why did I invite you here?" you persist.
I drop my eyes to the floor again. "To have sex with me," I whisper.
"No." I look up showing my surprise and confusion at your denial. "What was the subject line on the email?"