Great, another fight! We had made a really good relationship, but now something had gone wrong but I didn't know why. Sitting on the sofa in the front room, with my head in my hands I couldn't help but cry. My tears where drowned out by the sound and activity from the kitchen, drawers crashing and the fridge opens. I stopped crying, confused as to what was going on; I wiped my eyes and moved towards the door, curiosity forcing me to find out what all the noise was. As I got to the door, my path was blocked by His muscled frame, having no time to react He pushed my body into the wall and held me there by my throat. Pinned to wall I started shouting at Him to let me go. I assumed He would let me go, but as I tried to get away His grip tightened around my throat. I couldn't shout or even talk anymore, breathing was even getting difficult. He leant forward, His lips gently grazing my ear. My body relaxed as I felt His gentle touch. All of a sudden I felt His teeth sink into my ear lobe, my tears returned and I managed a yelp with the breath I had left. In order to stop me losing consciousness He loosened His grip. 'I've had enough of these fights and arguments, you're too emotional and you need to choose a life without me or a life where you are kept in line by Me'. He paused and my mind raced. I couldn't face losing Him, I wanted Him with every ounce of my being and He knew it.
How can I tell Him I want to be submissive to Him, if I can't even breathe properly? As if He'd heard my thoughts He released His tight grip enough for me to talk but not enough for me to move. 'I need You, so if You think I need to be kept in line then I need You to control me'.