I woke up panting, tangled in the covers. My boyfriend snored quietly next to me. Sweat beaded on my forehead and slicked the joints of my body, and the juice from my aching pussy gleamed halfway down one exposed thigh. I threw off the blanket to try and cool my overheated body with the night air.
I had dreamed of him again--my sweet, passionate, and now-married best friend. He had been attached and unattainable since I first new him. And I went to his wedding and toasted and laughed, boyfriend at my side, and then left early, pleading migraine.
Married. He had chosen her before he met me, and now he had affirmed and consecrated that choice. He was happy. She was beautiful and kind and funny. I couldn't resent either of them. But that didn't stop the dreams.
I had known him less than a month when the first dream came. It was clear and simple and straightforward, like dreams never are, and so beautiful and vivid that just the memory of it could still make my panties damp.
In that first dream, we made love in the afternoon sunlight. I could feel his hands on me, his lips on my breasts, his strength as he claimed my body. His breath feathered over my skin with his hot laughter. One hand fisted in my hair as the other stroked down over my belly, and he kept his eyes on my face as he began to play with my clit. When he dipped his fingers inside me, my hips arched to meet him. His happiness and his fierce desire set fire to my blood, and when he finally gave me his cock, thrusting deep, our gasps mixed with triumphant laughter.
And then I woke up, still feeling the phantom thrust of his cock, my heart still beating in time with his laugh.
I knew then that I loved him. I think I'd loved him at first sight, but after the dream, I couldn't deny it. I knew he was with someone, though, and I wasn't a cheater. Unless maybe his girlfriend was an ogre? Then I met her, and damn it, I liked her.
That had been years ago, and since then we'd earned new degrees, tried on a handful of careers, consoled each other in hard times and celebrated some good ones too. When his girl spent a year living abroad, I sympathized with his impatience and longing, and respected his boundaries. When I found a new crush, he laughed at my giddy reports and encouraged me.
I never told him about my dreams of him. I didn't know if the sexual undercurrent was all on my side, and I didn't want to find out. Close as we were, I couldn't bear to risk our friendship.
Now, as I lay recovering from this latest dream, I turned to look at my boyfriend. He was still fast asleep, one arm over his head, his strong shoulders bare to the moonlight. He was a beautiful man, and I loved him, but it wasn't the same. I felt familiar stirrings of guilt as my cunt ached with desire for another.