I might be inaccurate in some of the details, but the story that I tell is one that comes to my dreams on many many nights, a memory of a wild time and of sacrifice.
His name was John. Such a basic name. I thought that he was giving me a false name when we were talking online. That's all it was at first. Then, we had the bright idea to meet. We were just supposed to go to the fireworks show, somewhere nice and public. I, of course, had my reservations, and was not sure that I should trust this man anywhere secluded. It turns out that I had been correct, but it was not a mistake that I would ever regret. The years that would be to follow would broaden both of our horizons, and create two, completely insatiable sex fiends. Neither one of us was to ever be the same again.
We ended up fucking on my older sister's couch that first night. There is no elegant way to put it. I was pissed off because he had been late and we missed the time frame to be able to make it to the fireworks show. I had really been looking forward to going. Even though I was pissed, I held it in, hiding it from him. Even though I hid it, he still felt it. The passionate energies radiating from my skin. At first I was just angry, and when I am angry, many have told me that I go from being adorable to a sexy vixen on the hunt. Apparently that is where I was.
To be honest, I wasn't all that attracted to him physically, but on a psychological level I was. He also seemed to know exactly what buttons to push to get me underneath him, with my skirt raised up over my hips and my panties tossed off to neverland. I writhed and bucked, and he proved that I could not contain my screams when it came to him. He let the monster in me lose that night, and we celebrated our country in more unconventional means instead.
After the first night he told me that he could not see me anymore. He did not like the fact that I smoked and he was too allergic to my sisters cats. I do not think that he liked that my family had come home early, and I had to introduce him to everybody, which I had never planned on doing. Being denied set me on fire. Even though I had never planned on keeping him around, now I wanted him. He became my goal, my object to conquer I wanted to break him, tear him down and make him beg. That is what I set out to do. But the outcome would not be what I had been planning on in the least.
My end goal was to have him begging, and me to go on walking. I was not one to take rejection easily, mostly because no one ever did. Even though I was to get him back and eating out of my hand, before too long he had a leash in his.
I am not your typical beauty queen, and to some men I am just plain unattractive. They cant stand my curvaceous hips, or the fact that my stomach was not flat. I am too blunt and honest, and hardly give a man the time of day. I can usually tell early on if they are going to be able to satisfy me, and if I do not think that they will be able to, I move on to the next, forgetting that the last even existed. It is not that I am stuck up, but rather, I was just a great judge of character. I could do it quick, and if you failed the test, I never thought of you again. Shit, I wouldn't even remember them a week after of meeting them.
I didn't sleep with every man that I met, far from it. But I also did meet alot of people. At first I was just a small time slut. If I felt like sleeping with someone, I did, but I had yet to unlock my libido. Then John walked into my life, and it all changed. I am not one to fall in love, with anyone or anything. I float in the wind, going with the flow and acting only on what felt natural. His cock and his fingers changed my mind. I fell in love with sex. I didn't fall in love with making love, or gentle caresses on the beach. I fell in love with brutally hard fuckings, ones that left me sore for days. Then it became harder and harder for someone to make me sore. They would all leave pleased, but I began to lose the ability to cum. .
Except when it came to John. HE was not gentle. He never lied. HE never tried to say that one day we would be together, and I was always perfectly ok with that. I did not want to be with him. I just wanted him to be in me. In my hand. In my mouth. In my almost too tight pussy. I wanted his cum in me and on me, any way that I could have it.
We fucked for months. We took breaks in between seeing each other, but the next time that we did, we both would fuck the other even harder than the time before. It was carnal, instinctual and full of passion. Just no emotion, and that is exactly what I wanted. I don't know what he wanted, nor did I really ever bother to ask. I did not care. All I knew is that I was able to please, and that his hot sticky cum filled me every time. That is all that I cared about.
HE fucked me in his car, on his car, in public and at the house. At a park, on the street, on a counter and even a couple times on a bed. He did not mind that I fucked other men. In fact, it was almost as if he enjoyed sharing his dirty little slut with the world. He knew I was careful, that I was smart and wouldn't give him anything. If I was ever doubtful, I got full panel tests and waited until I knew. Before anything else, I was still his slut. This I knew before he ever started making me say it.
Then one day, quite suddenly, I had to move, and it wasn't just a couple towns away. I was moving 500 miles away. I was certain that the last year of my life was done and I was certain that I would never fuck someone so good again. The thought of never having his fingers in me and his bite marks on my neck and his cock slamming into me broke me. I honestly did not even have sex for a couple moths. I missed the man, but I missed his body and what he could do to me more. The whole time I had been close to him, the sex between us was mutual, with both of us having control. I never thought that it would change, or that I would want it to. Why would I? I never thought that I would see him again.
We continued to talk for three years, both of us making half-hearted promises that we would come visit the other. It never seemed that it would ever be again. For three years we both kept the fire between us alive. We spoke to each other often, although less and less towards the end. But when we did, he would ask about my sex life and I would tell him. I would tell him in ways that would make him easy to picture himself, and for me to picture him, in their place. I would make him cum from 500 miles away, and every time I hung up, I felt victorious. I still owned him, and I wasn't even sure if he was aware of this fact. I longed for the pictures that he sent me, reminding me just slightly of how big he was. But pictures never do anything justice, and three years is a long time to remember just how someone feels when they thrust deeply into you.
I began to forget what he looked like after I gave birth to my one and only child. I had given up all hope in ever seeing him again. I was certain that the end of us had come to pass, and we both would learn to accept it. Neither one of us, at least not I, would ever attempt to find someone half as good.
Then everything changed again.
Something about me, I am a control freak. I have to be the one in control of every situation. If I am not the one in control, I easily took control without hesitation or leeway. I guess people call me the alpha female, in every aspect of my life. I did not fight for control. I just took it. It was always mine.
I am not sure how it started, but I became his "pet". It was just words at first. I mean, we were half a country apart. I did not really think much of it, besides it being a game. But then he told me that he was coming down to see me. I thought it was a joke. but then he gave me a date and told me to take work off for it. So I did.
My mind was a mess over the next couple of weeks. He had made it clear that he was going to be in charge for the day that he would be there. I wasn't sure how I felt about it. I never gave up the power. And now I was going to. I was excited that I was going to have a new experience, but I was scared that he would grow bored. I thought that maybe he would decide that I was to easy and not worth his time.
Then it was the day. I wore simple clothes like he had instructed. He told me not to wear the outfit that he had bought for me, that he wanted to be in the next room knowing that I was dressing sexy for him, and only him.
I heard the knock on the door. My heart jumped in my chest. I wasn't ready. I answered the door and his eyes met mine, piercing my soul. My muscles clenched and the fire inside of me ignited once again. The hunger I saw in him made mine multiply. I came up with the quickest excuse that I could to get him into my bedroom.
He grabbed me by the hair and kissed me. I pulled away from him and it angered him. You see, I do not kiss anybody. I am not an intimate person. I do not let anyone in like that. He scolded me, and gently punished me. It was a warning. He was putting me in my place, teaching me a lesson, one that wouldn't stick and I would be taught again.