AUTHOR'S NOTE: I removed the first six parts of this series due to some fairly emotional negative feedback. Against my better judgment, I've decided to put them back in response to a lot of personal messages I've received. Once the first six are approved, I will continue the series until the end.
If you haven't read these yet, you should know that the story is about a highly intelligent woman who manipulates her husband into a strict and harsh (or, as has been argued by my critics, abusive) femdom relationship in order to satisfy her ever-growing sadistic urges. If this type of story isn't your cup of tea, I strongly discourage you from reading it.
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Of course, Ellen was right. My own choices had put me in this predicament. Foremost among them: my decision to marry her. For forty-seven of my forty-nine years, I'd been a confirmed bachelor. The idea of limiting my penis to a single vagina had seemed to me ludicrous, and that of committing my entire life to one woman -- insane.
This attitude had been strengthened about fifteen years earlier, when my smoldering dominant/sadistic streak burst into flame. I'd always enjoyed a high libido, as well as considerable success with women (being 6'2", gregarious, and conventionally attractive, not to mention very well-off and influential, helped), but otherwise my sex life was unremarkable.
Then one night, I was looking for porn on the internet (a fairly challenging activity in those days before Google and the explosion of porn sites), and I ran across a gallery of bondage photos. Everything changed. My cock instantly grew hard when I discerned that the thumbnails were of women, bound and helpless, their intimate flesh exposed to pain or pleasure, their faces lit by expressions of sublime submission, or contorted in exquisite agony.
Although this was many years before Fifty Shades brought BDSM into the mainstream, I obviously knew about the practice in theory. But those images! A frenzied desire to bring them to life, to enter them, to feel the thrill of having a woman under my complete control in the way they depicted, seized my imagination and would not let go.
I jerked off quickly.
When I was done, I didn't wipe up and fall asleep, or start reading a book, or get up to make myself a snack, or do any of the other things I usually would have done. Instead, I lay there, clicking on photo after photo after incredible photo. For how long? I don't know, but at least long enough to build up a second erection and orgasm, then a third. When I finally fell asleep, I was morally and physically drained. My cock ached from self-abuse, my balls were slick with sweat, my sheets and stomach were sticky with dried and drying semen. But my laptop remained open to the bondage gallery as I drifted off.
When I awoke, I found that vanilla sex had lost much of its appeal. Of course I continued to date women, to sleep with them even. But every time I conversed with a date, I found myself wondering what she would look like tied up, how she would squirm under various tortures I could imagine but had never experienced, what she would sound like screaming in pain and pleasure.
Where did these urges come from? Why did they wait until I was in my early thirties to awaken? Who knows? I haven't thought about it much, and I've never had enough curiosity or patience to sit with an analyst to explore the topic.
My initial BDSM experiences were with a prostitute who advertised submissive role play in various underground newspapers. I will never forget the high that I felt after that first time -- the thrill of tying her up, of smacking her bottom (tentatively, almost shyly) with a riding crop, of fucking her (not making love to her, fucking her!) as roughly as I could convince my conscience to accept. Although we obviously shared no emotional connection, I still regard this woman as among the best sexual partners I have ever been with.
After a few times with the professional, I finally gathered the nerve to place a personal ad in the Washington City Paper. I don't know what I expected, but it certainly wasn't the dozens of responses I received in the days after the ad was published. One thing that has astonished me ever since is how many women desire bondage and discipline, and how relatively few dominant men (at least demonstrably sane and competent dominant men) there are to partner with.
I soon found that only a steady stream of submissive partners would allow me to slake my thirst for new, kinky experiences. Fortunately, as the internet developed, it became much easier to meet women with similar interests, and I became an early user of alt.com, bondage.com and a plethora of other kink sites. Online, both parties can be open about what they're looking for, and there's less chance of an awkward misunderstanding. I suppose that I also could have met partners through Washington's very active kink community, but I was reluctant to acknowledge my proclivities openly, even among like-minded souls.
The reason for this is that there were dozens of journalists around town who would have liked nothing better than to learn the sordid details of my sex life. It would have been catastrophic if some horrified young woman had contacted one of these bloodsuckers after receiving an unexpected and unwelcome proposition from me. The last thing I needed in life was to be featured in the Washington Post's Style section under a headline like "The Diverse Sexual Appetites of D.C.'s Power Elite."
I always worked hard to maintain my anonymity, but on the rare occasions when my name did show up in the news, I was nearly always referred to as a "power broker." Specifically, I was a well-connected government affairs attorney, who represented many of those evil corporate interests that feature so prominently in modern morality tales. For the record, what goes on in our nation's capital isn't nearly as black and white as the media like to portray. Nevertheless, if the Washington press corps ever got their hands on a story that would simultaneously titillate their readers, embarrass me, and put my clients in a bad light?
They'd think that Christmas had come early.
In any event, I didn't meet Ellen online. She was serving as the Deputy Counsel for the Senate committee which had the most impact on key issues affecting many of my most important clients. Ugh. Rereading that sentence, I see that it's a lot of blah, blah, blah. But unfortunately, I simply can't risk giving out enough specific information to allow a careful reader to identify me or anyone else in this story. So I'll use fake names for everyone (and no name at all for myself), and I'll fudge a lot of details.
But to be honest, the details aren't important.
I'd been best friends with Ellen's boss, Senator Mike McCleary, for twenty years. We were grad students together at the Kennedy School, and by coincidence we served in the same freshman class of Congress six years later.
When Ellen came to town and took the job on Mike's committee staff, he immediately warned me that she presented a clear and present danger to my status as a bachelor. He said that I should move fast, since she'd already drawn the attention of virtually all the rich and powerful single men on the Hill (as well as several married Members of Congress, not to mention a few rich and powerful women).
