Even at her young age back then, she couldn't compete with younger women who were willing to do everything and anything to please a man. Against her feelings of wanting to control and dominate men, she couldn't even control and dominate her own husband. Besides, dominating men wasn't what the swinging lifestyle was about. The swinging lifestyle was more about women being submissive to men than men being submissive to women.
Nonetheless, she learned some things about herself when she ventured into the swinging lifestyle albeit for a brief period of time. Young and dumb, barely 27-years-old, as a married woman with a young son, she thought her wild and crazy, sexual life was behind her. Never knowing for a second that she'd enjoy the sexual attention of other men as much as she did, she wore a revealing, Dominatrix outfit as her costume more to humor her husband that to satisfy some sexual need she had within her to control him. Yet, once she saw herself in the mirror, something miraculous happened. As if she was looking at her sexual alter ego, she was hooked by her physical, emotional, and sexual transformation. Wow, the perfect Domme, she couldn't believe how hot she looked.
Suddenly feeling confidently in control, her reflection revealed who she really was, a Domme trapped in a mundane, housewife's life. She needed to divorce her husband to assume her new role. Being that was who she was, going against the grain, she couldn't allow her husband to disrespect her by allowing him the sexual pleasure of having sex with young women in front of her. Unless she was there with a collar around his neck and a leash attached to her wrist, neither being married to her husband and/or participating in the swinging lifestyle was for her.
Only, the death of her husband put her plans of domination, discipline, punishment, and control on the back burner. With her the sole parent responsible for her young son's upbringing getting in the way of her plans to become a self-imposed Domme, perhaps even a professional Dominatrix, she put her feelings of control and domination aside, until now. Now that her son was sexually interested in her, she was ready to assume control of her son in the way that she was unable to assume control of her husband.
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Her outfit included a low cut and form fitting attached corset, with zippers here and zippers there at the ready to expose her braless breasts, panty less pussy, and/or even her naked ass. She further looked the stereotypical part of a Dominatrix with her black, thigh high, stiletto boots and elbow length gloves. Looking much like Halley Berry as Catwoman but with white skin, blonde hair, and bigger tits or Michelle Pfeifer but without the mask and again with bigger tits, she felt sexy wearing this outfit. With this revealing, sexy attire more her style, she wished she could wear this Domme outfit every day. She wished she had a Domme outfit in different fabrics and colors for every day of the weeks.
She wished she could wear this Domme uniform for the sexual pleasure of her son in the way she always wanted to wear something like this for the sexual pleasure of her husband. She wished she had the courage to wear this outfit outside when shopping at the market, going to the Post Office, or buying gas for her car. So long as she shopped at Wal-Mart, with some of the outrageous sights she's seen there while roaming the aisles, she didn't think that anyone would notice her. Actually, a good way for her to get clients and men interested in her, she'd love to walk around in public while dressed as a Dominatrix. Oh, my God, just the thought of doing something like that made her so sexually aroused. Yet, more than feeling sexually aroused, she already felt in physical, emotional, and sexual control of men.
Only, wearing something like this to a Halloween costume party was one thing, but when her husband was alive, wearing this in her bedroom was expressly forbidden. He didn't want her to be the Domme with him assuming the role as the sub. He didn't want to be controlled, punished, and/or disciplined. If anyone was dishing out punishment and discipline, it would be him controlling her.
With her husband much the aggressor and not into discipline, punishment, and bondage, he'd never give up the control that he had over her. Even with her riling against him and trying to take control from him, not budging an inch, he was the one who always wanted and needed to be in control. In their house, whether he knew it or not and whether she riled against it or not, he was the Dom and she was the sub. Now that he's dead and buried, she stepped in her newly assumed role not as a sub, not as a Dom, but as a Domme.
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For sure, things were different at Carol's house with her 22-year-old son, Tom, than they were at Audrey's house with her 24-year-old son, Gary, or Brenda's house with her 24-year-old son, Mark, and at Jennifer's house with her 23-year-old son, Robert. With Carol the ruler of her roost and not her son, albeit even with her iron fist and her strong will, she was still unable to keep him in line with the drinking and whoring. Maybe her mother was right. Maybe incestuous sex was the only way to control him. Perhaps this sexy Dominatrix outfit was her way to keep him not only inline but also interested in her enough to keep him safely at home.
Nonetheless her bitchiness and her control issues of always needing to be in charge, the one time that she sexually softened enough to enjoy herself was when she flashed her son her tits and pussy before sucking his cock. Now, somewhat regretting her decision to give him sex so soon, she may have given her son the wrong impression that she was the sub and he was the Dom when, of course, it was the other way around with her the Domme and him the sub. Oh, no, that will never work with him thinking that he's in control, especially in sexual control of his mother.
With her not ready to repeat the sexual relationship that she had with her husband with her son, she needed to lay her ground rules right from the start. In the way that her husband cheated on her with younger women, she didn't want her son doing the same, at least not until she gave him her permission and her blessings for him to begin a relationship with another woman. Then and only then would she relinquish the physical, emotional, and sexual control that she hoped to have over him.
In a weak moment, after she unmercifully, sexually teased him by exposing her pussy and her breasts to him, while wearing her sexy, short, low cut nightgown, under the pretense of him showing her how to do sit ups, she may have made a dreadful mistake. Disregarding her role playing as a Domme for the sake of saving her son with sex, in the way she acted that night was not the way that a typical Domme should act. Not really thinking it all through while being caught up in the sexual moment, giving up her control of him, now she was paying the price for her submissiveness. Now her son took unwelcomed liberties of touching and feeling her sexy body through her clothes.
'How dare he touch her in such a sexually disrespectful way, even if she showed him her tits and pussy and even if she sucked his cock? She'll show him. Just wait and see,' she thought while plotting her moves and planning her strategy.
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Thinking that touching her, feeling her, and groping her was appropriately permissible now that she sucked his cock, assuredly it wasn't. Every time he saw her in the morning and/or passed her in the hall at night, impaling her mouth with his tongue, he greeted her with a kiss on her lips, a squeeze of her shapely, firm ass, and a feel of her big breasts. As if it was his right to do so and as if he was the designated man of the house after his father died, when she gave him the unspoken go ahead by giving him sex, his hands were all over her shapely body. Definitely, nipping this in the bud, she was determined to put a stop to him taking sexual advantage of her.
Being that it's been so very long since she'd been sexually touched and felt by a man, at first she enjoyed being touched and felt up by her son. With his touch making her feel sexy before, yet when not in the mood for his sexual hanky-panky, his gropes made her feel dirty now. Just as her deceased husband used and sexually abused her at his whimsy, with him demanding his wife give him sex whenever he wanted her to give him sex, her son was already following in his footsteps by groping her whenever he felt like groping her. Truth be told, glad to be rid of her lying, cheating husband, and not eager to have another man in her life bossing her around while she waited on him and served him, she's been living her life in control of her own destiny for the past twelve years.