After your flight had left i checked on the arrival time of Miles again....to make sure it had not been delayed...and then chose a small quiet restaurant to have coffee and to eat breakfast...my head was spinning from the assignment you had given me to teach him to be a Master...and i was still smarting a bit from my last failure....but i knew i had to put that out of my mind and just concentrate on the next task at hand...so i was thankful for the few hours i had until his arrival to plan this all out....not knowing exactly what he knew or didn't know...it seemed like a huge task to undertake....but i had no intentions of failing you again....
I was still lost deep in thought as i made my way to his arrival gate....mentally checking things off that we would cover ...when the announcement was made that his flight had landed...it didn't take me long to spot him...he was just as you had described him...tall, slender, muscular...a beautiful tone to his skin and very handsome...i grinned to myself a little as my eyes wandered over him...and i could already feel the stirrings in my body as he approached me....he knew what i would be wearing so he came straight to me ...his voice soft...but with a steadiness that belied his shyness....his eyes were clear and kind...and he had a smile that would melt the toughest of submissives...
I had decided to let him drive on the way back to the house...the first tiny step in giving him control...so when we got to the car i took his bags and put them in the trunk and then turned to him and handed the keys...i could see the surprise on his face and i just smiled at him as i gave him directions to your house...even the look on his face when i took his bags startled him a bit...and i knew that he was not used to a woman doing for him...but i could tell that he enjoyed it ....i slid into the seat next to him and the banter between us was light and easy on the way home...i could tell that he was attracted to me as well and was thankful because that would make my job all that much easier....
I once again took his bags from the car...and saw the amused look on his face as we walked to the door...i handed him the house keys and waited until he went in before i slipped in behind him...i set the bags down by the hall and then turned to face him once again...he was just standing there..not quite sure what he was supposed to do next..so i quickly walked over to him and took his coat...hung it in the hall closet and then motioned him to sit in the chair next to yours...a chair very similar to yours...without the adaptations that you had made for our convenience...i knew from what you had told me that he was a wine drinker as well...so when i saw him get comfortable i went and got him a glass of red wine...we chatted briefly about what his expectations were from this encounter...and when he finished his wine i led him to the computer room and gave him some sites to look at...specifically www.castlerealm.com.....and then with a reassuring smile i left him explaining that i would be back after i got him settled into the guest room...his immediate response was ..."oh no...let me do that"...i just smiled at him and laughed softly...."first thing you're going to have to realize is that a submissive NEEDS to do these things.....it's what she lives for..to serve men...and we have much ground to cover in just a short time...so you look over the information while i do this for you"...and before he could say anything else i vanished out of the room and left him to peruse the website...
I turned on the CD player before picking up his bags and put on some soft music...and then quickly went about arranging his belongings in the drawers....hanging up the clothing he had in his zipped bags...arranging his toiletries in the bathroom off of his room...and just making sure that all was perfection for him...when everything was put away i went to get him ...showing him where his room was and leaving the drawers open and the closet open for his inspection....i quietly stood off to the side of the room as he looked everything over telling him that if there was anything not the way he wanted it to let me know and it would be changed to his satisfaction...i could sense the uneasiness in him about doing that...and once again i reassured him that being a Dominant meant training a submissive to his specific wants and needs...he smiled that unarming smile at me and i could feel my heart melt a little...and as he stopped in front of the closet i could see that he was not entirely pleased...he turned to me and with a soft voice...almost shyly...he stated that he liked his shirts hung the opposite way on the hanger....i smiled at him and told him not a problem and then quickly changed them all around...i could still feel the uneasiness in him...but i was hoping that by the time you got back that some of that would be gone....as he nodded with approval at everything else i closed the drawers and the closet door and left the lamp on that was on the nightstand .....
I could tell that he was waiting for me to leave the room first....and i gently nudged him out the door explaining that the Dominant always takes the lead....and the submissive will follow behind him...i could only imagine the things that were going through his mind...but he was taking to his training well so far...and as i walked back into the living room i could see that he had printed a bunch of stuff off of castle realm....as he went to sit back in his chair....i pulled the cushion over from the foot of yours...which i had noticed him eyeing when we first came into the room.....and i knelt quietly at his feet.....not in the traditional nadu...with my thighs spread...as i always kneel for you....but i knelt in tower...with my knees pressed modestly together and my posture perfect....i lowered my eyes to him and asked him for permission to speak...and once again i could feel the discomfort in him as he said yes...
My voice rang soft and clear in the room as i lifted my eyes to him and began to talk....
"I realize that much of what i am doing is totally foreign to you...it's not the way of the "modern" woman to act like this...in fact...it's totally opposite of what "society" and the "woman's movement" have laid down as ground rules for women in society today...we are raised now in this society to be independent...equal to a man...to share the duties of a household...to believe that we are equal to men in all ways....except for the physical strength...and yet there are some of us out here that do not fit into that mold...some women realize at a very early age that they are "different"...that something in all of this doesn't quite ring true for them...they are criticized for their giving nature....for their sensitivity...for their need....and yes...it is true need in a submissive...to totally give to a man....some are lucky and stumble on information early on that they can identify with ....and they find out that they are not so strange after all...that what they are are submissives...and they study and they learn...and they grow confident in their submissive nature...but most of us don't have access to that information early on...so we struggle through failed marriages...or are in marriages that don't satisfy our true needs...always wondering what is missing...but eventually...even we find the information that we are looking for....because it's a driving need within us that MUST be fulfilled...and now with the internet explosion....that information is more readily available to women..."
"Don't think for one minute that a submissive is a doormat...or is weak.....because i think that submissives are stronger than most women who aren't in this lifestyle...i don't say that as a put down..to each his own..or her own in this case....although there are male submissives as well which we'll cover at another time if you would like to know about that...i would venture to say that most people that a submissive interacts with every day probably has no idea that she is even a sub...just because a woman "allows" a Dominant ...and the key word here is allows...to have control of her...has no reflection on how she acts in the outside world away from the safety and security of her Dominant...a submissive may hold a powerful position in the corporate world...or may just be a waitress...because society frowns on this lifestyle...thinking we are in it for the "pain"..or the humiliation...or the many other misconceptions which surround this lifestyle....which is actually another whole part of this lifestyle...and not related at all to what my idea of D/s (Dominance/submission) is...we for the most part choose not to reveal this side of us..."
"Submission from weakness on the part of a woman? What Dom really wants that? Oh sure...maybe for a scene...for a one night fling...but to cultivate into a long term loving relationship? i personally feel sorry for these women....and i think they don't truly understand the beauty of who they are and what they can become under the hand of a strong Dominant...the same goes for a doormat...even though the relationship is very similar in many respects to "normal" ones....there is an underlying vast difference ...and this is the area where most people who don't understand this don't get it...and unfortunately...probably never will...but this is not for everyone....so what's the difference here?....it is the needs of the submissive.....and also it is the needs of the Dominant...it is her need to give up her power to him...to feel so safe that she is comfortable doing this....to trust so blindly that she knows her Dominant will not make a decision that will harm her in any way...it's about obedience...obeying even when you don't want to...when you feel that you can't...when you're struggling with everything in you to do as your Dom wants you to do......it's about not hiding anything from your Dominant...sounds easy huh? but just think about that statement for a moment....we are conditioned to not reveal our deepest darkest secrets and fears....and finally it's about surrender...when you have found the Dom that you know will care for you, protect you, and guide you to and through the deepest desires of your heart"