Step 8 -- The WLM Begins
I had prepared a long time for this, but there was still so much to do. It ended up taking months to get our finances situated, the house and everything else fully in my name. The lawyer I got was a bit hesitant, but my Toy was insistent and convinced her that it was for the best. He said something about family history and health issues and the two of them exchanged knowing looks. Honestly, I was a bit confused, but whatever works.
Finding a new routine was much faster. I continued with cage inspections and using plenty of my scented lotion. I also upgraded his daily ablutions to include using the lotion on his hands and feet. He commented on the scent, but I ignored his comment as irrelevant. I also scheduled him for his first mani-pedi that first week, over his Thursday lunch hour.
On Tuesday, when I first brought it up, he was very reticent, and again I ignored him. I scheduled maintenance spankings for Wednesday night, and I hoped that his experience Wednesday would make him amenable on Thursday.
As he settled into my lap, I once again explained to him that he had not done anything wrong, I just wanted to make sure he understood who was in charge, now and going forward. It wasn't the hardest spanking I had given him, but it was the longest, and his reaction to it was different than it had been to being spanked before.
At the start I could feel his tension. After a few minutes though I could feel the rhythm of pain sink into him. He wasn't thinking any more, just feeling.
When it was all done, he apologized for making me do this and thanked me. I hadn't thought about it that way, but I was training him to be the best version of himself and so I accepted his apology and thanks and set him to work eating me out. Spanking him never failed to turn me on, and feeling the afterglow post Wednesday spanking quickly became a weekly highlight for both of us.
Thursday morning as my Toy was getting ready for work, I told him I would be meeting him at the salon, and we could grab something quick to eat afterwards. He looked surprised for a moment, but then realized I was getting my hands and feet done as well.
"Sharon, this is my husband. This is his first time. He's a little nervous. He doesn't realize how many men get their hands and feet done."
"Don't worry hon. I will take care of you myself and Chris will take care of your wife. Just relax, you will enjoy it, promise. Just look over there, that's Pete, he's a regular."
I saw him squirming in his seat a bit, but I think that was the spanking the night before and his sore ass, more than any nervousness. At that moment I realized I should have made Toy wear his butt plug. An opportunity lost, but there would be more chances.
Now that I had control of him, I had to make sure my control was solidified. More than anything else I needed to break him down. I needed him to be compliant, accepting his position beneath me. I knew the threat of divorce would not keep him in line forever, I needed more than fear. Fear brought him that final step into an FLR, but I didn't think it would keep him there.
Controlling his money and social interactions would help, but I needed to chip away at his ego. I didn't want to destroy him or anything, but he needed to accept with all his heart that he was less than me, that I was his superior and that following my lead in everything was natural and right.
To keep him compliant in the moment I decided that fewer orgasms for him would help. The more I could keep him in a constant state of arousal, the more he would submit to me, to get what he wanted. The regular spankings and restrictions like his allowance -- calculated to be not quite enough money to make it through a typical week, making it necessary to skip a lunch or two or to beg me for money towards the end of the week -- helped chip away at his male ego.
However, being cautious, I also decided to exploit his insecurities about masculinity. I knew that wearing panties every day still bothered him, and it didn't help that I was slowly but surely cycling out the somewhat plain panties I had originally bought for him -- when there was some doubt about his willingness to follow my directions and wear them -- and now he had a fine selection of bright and lovely silk panties.
The scented lotion every day and the soon to be regular mani-pedi routine were also steps towards making my Toy a bit more feminine. After the mani-pedi, at lunch, I asked him how he felt about the experience. He started equivocating, but one stern look and he knew the truth was his safest option.
"I didn't like it. Sitting there, the scents, all the women, some of them looking at me. The people in the mall walking by looking at me. It was embarrassing."
"No one was looking at you. Pete and plenty of other guys have the same thing done every day of the week. Besides," I said grabbing his chin and turning it so he was looking directly into my eyes, "it is not about what you like. I like you having nice pretty hands and feet, so that is what is going to happen. Understand?"
Swallowing hard, as if he was finally realizing what he had begged for, "Yes ma'am. Thank you."
"Good. I think I am going to want to see what my Toy looks like with his pretty feet when the nails are polished. I think I would like that very much."
That evening we had a minor household emergency, a broken dishwasher which leaked water everywhere, so I didn't have the energy to see to my Toy's toenails. I did get to see him mopping, cleaning, and doing the dishes though, so that was nice. We ended up going out and purchasing a new dishwasher though, I felt certain I could find better tasks to keep my slave busy than that, and if I couldn't, well I could have him wash the dishes by hand if I wanted, working dishwasher or not.
That Friday was the first time, other than a few instances, where we did not have our collaring ceremony. He was already collared; he had worn the metal necklace since we had signed our agreement. I wanted to hear him say "I, Mistress Jessica's Toy, swear to obey and serve her to the best of my ability for as long as I wear this collar", but I wasn't sure when it would feel right. I decided to make it Toy's problem.
"Toy, I miss you swearing to serve and obey me as we put your collar on. What do you think we should do about that?"
He thought for a second, "how about when I serve you breakfast in the morning I kneel down and swear to serve and obey you, just like I did when you put the collar on me Friday evenings?"
I haven't mentioned it before, but Toy oversaw serving me all my meals. He was to fix my breakfast and serve it to me stark naked (except for his cage and collar) every morning. Requesting bacon is a favorite of mine because he is always so nervous about the splattering grease.
I considered making him eat his meals from a doggie dish, but that seemed too much too soon, so I allowed him to join me at the table once I had been served. When we ate out, I always ordered for him, and he was never allowed to start eating until I signaled it was OK with a little nod.
That first Saturday we ate out at a nice steak restaurant, and he absentmindedly gnawed on a piece of bread from the basket they brought out before I gave him the signal. The mortified look when he realized what he had done was lovely and it gave me a chance to try out my recent purchases that had arrived just that morning.
Earlier that day I had set him to assemble what had arrived in the large heavy box. I enjoyed having him across my lap as I was spanking him, but it really was kind of awkward. He is a large man, larger than I at any rate, and didn't fit over my knees terribly well. He always ended up sprawled out holding himself up with his hands. So, I had ordered a bondage horse, a clever one that folded up into something that looked like the sort of ottoman or something similar that one might put in their bedroom.