* Warning, this story contains extreme elements and some mild incest-themes, just like the first. If this is not your cup of tea, I suggest finding a different story to read. Feedback is welcomed as always. This chapter is more of a transitional part of the story. The insanity factor might kick up a notch in later chapters. Who knows how deep the rabbit-hole really goes?*
*Also, English is not my first language. If you spot poor grammar or spelling, please let me know. Always looking to improve :) *
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When she heard Eric call out her name, Lisa wanted to run. Out of the door, onto the street, as far away as she could. But she didn't. As though in a dream, she'd lost control of her body and slowly walked into the living room. Her mother stared at her in shock,.
"Lisa! How -" she started with terror in her voice, before Eric cut her off.
"She has been there the entire time. I heard someone come in. And you had several missed calls from her."
He turned to Lisa and feigned a polite smile.
"Lisa, how nice of you to drop by."
"What the fuck is going on here?" Lisa blurted out.
Her mother stepped towards Lisa, who leapt back in disgust. The idea of touching her mother right now revolted her.
"I can explain, " her mother began.
"I don't even want to know!" she shouted, "This is too weird!"
Her head still spinning, she walked out of the living-room and ran off to her bedroom, slamming the door behind her.
Lying on her bed, the entire scene kept playing in front of her eyes, causing strange and conflicting emotions inside of her. When she first started thinking about sex all those years ago, she visited porn-sites on her parents computer. When her mother caught her, she got grounded for a week and lost access to the computer for three more. Sex was not important, her mother once told her. It's something you have to do to keep a man happy, but no more then that. Education, career, marriage, children, that's what is important in life. Had it all been a lie? It felt like everything Lisa believed in was falling apart, like a puzzle sliding off a table into a thousands little pieces.
There was a knock on the door; Lisa didn't respond. The door opened and her mother walked in. She looked more like the woman Lisa grew up with, now that she cleaned her face and wore a modest bathrobe that covered most her body. She sat down in the chair next to Lisa's bed.
"Look, Lisa," she said, trying to sound motherly, "What you just saw..."
"Why would you let someone do that to you?" Lisa blurted out
"Eric is a good man in many ways, Lisa. He is successful, attractive and generous. There are a lot of women fighting for his attention. And sometimes - "
Her mother paused for a second, "Sometimes you have to do things to keep a man happy."
"But why? Why do you need him?" Lisa said, "You did fine on your own for all those years!"
Something spread over her mothers face, like a shadow. Lisa realised she looked more ashamed now then right after Lisa caught her.
"You're father....." her mother started, "He left me some money of course,but last year I made some bad decisions with my investments. I thought I knew what I was doing, but...I guess I didn't. I'm in a lot of debt, Lisa. And without Eric I'd lose everything: The house, the car...I'd have nothing left, Lisa!"
"But what about your job?"
"The department had to make cuts last year. They reorganized and I lost my job. I'm...I'm sorry, Lisa.."
"Why the fuck didn't you tell me?" Lisa yelled
"I wanted to, but I was ashamed. I always wanted to set a good example for you, and then I made such a mess of my own life."
Her mother seemed on the verge of tears, but Lisa couldn't get herself to feel any sympathy. So many lies,
"So you let him...use you like that?" she said, not bothering to hide her contempt.
"It's...it's not all bad. You are still young, Lisa. There is a lot about sex you don't understand."
It was the straw that broke Lisa's back. Her mother trying to lecture her on sex, right after what she'd just done? It was too much. Lisa jumped up from the bed and felt furious.
"Don't talk to me like that any more!" she screamed, "I'm not a child any more! You have no right to talk to me like that!"
"Lisa...."
"Just...just get out!" Lisa shouted, "Just fuck off!"
Her mother looked shocked; it was the first time Lisa had ever resisted her, ever dared to talk back. Lisa half expected her mother to snap and school her like she had done so many times over the years, but it didn't happen. Instead her mother stared to the ground as she slowly got up and left.
Lisa spent another hour in her room, her mind racing going and going over all the things she found out today . Slowly the strong emotions calmed down . Maybe she had overreacted. Maybe her mother wasn't completely in the wrong here. What did she really know about adult life anyway? She'd never been in debt, never owned a house, never lost her husband, never had a long-time relationship. She was after all, barely out of her teens.
She left her room, unsure what to do next, but she owed it to her mother, to at least try and understand. When she returned to the living-room Eric was sitting on the sofa and her mother was nowhere to be soon.. He smiled as she walked in and looked up and down her body, like he had done so many times before.
"Where is mum?" Lisa asked, trying to avoid his gaze.
"She is her bedroom," Eric replied, "I wanted to talk to you alone for a while. Have a seat."
Lisa sat down and tried her best to calm and serious.
"I know you must be shocked by what you saw," Eric said, "To see your mother engage in those acts...and you must think I'm some horrible person for doing that to her."
He smiled faintly at her. Lisa was unsure how to respond and said nothing.
"So what did kind of story did she tell you? That she does it to keep me happy?"
He laughed at his own words.
"Let me explain a few things to you, Lisa," Eric continued, "Your mother is a twisted person. She was raised in a very strict Protestant home, in a culture of intense shame and fear of everything physical. And you might not know it, but your mother has a very...active mind when it comes to sex," he said, "And when that was repressed, it mutated and went to dark places. As much as she hates this kind of treatment, a part of her likes it; needs it to get off."
He paused for a moment and licked his lips.
"As far as why I like it: it's a different story. You see, life has been good to me," he said, an arrogant smile playing on his lips, "I've been blessed in many ways. Sex and women have always come easy for me. I've been with a lot of them, one even more beautiful then the next."
Lisa didn't doubt him for a moment. Even though she felt uncomfortable around him, he was attractive: a successful man, in control of the world around him. There was something about him that made it hard to stop listening whenever he spoke.
"Eventually I got bored with it," he continued, "Sex was still pleasurable, but no longer did it capture me completely; the real hunger was gone. Then over the last years, I have started to explore the darker side of sexuality and found it very much to my liking. Perversion is like a drug in a way, Lisa: once you get a taste of it, you just want more."
Lisa couldn't believe the things coming out of his mouth; the way he talked about her mother, about sex, about..things that should not be said.
"How's your own sex life, Lisa?" Eric suddenly asked.
Lisa was taken off-guard by the change of subject. There had been men in her life over the years, but sex had never been very pleasurable for her. It was just part of being a girlfriend. The truth was she was twenty-one and already bored with sex.
"Your face betrays you, Lisa," Eric said, smiling , "Disappointed with what you found so far? It's not that strange. Most people are unhappy with their sex-life, these days"
Lisa didn't respond. She knew she didn't have to; it felt like she was an open book to him.
"So how did you like your first glimpse into perversion?" he asked, "I think part of you liked it. You could have ran away, you know? You could have ran in and stopped it. But you didn't: you just stood there and watched."
Lisa remembered the strange trance that came over her, forgetting all about the world around her: her studies, her upcoming exams, her future career, her unpaid bills. All of it was simply washed away by the sexual depravity she witnessed.
"I don't think you are quite like your mother, Lisa. You are not quite as twisted, but your mother definitely repressed part of you. Eventually, it will start coming back and look for a release.
Lisa said nothing. There was truth in Eric's words, but she wasn't sure she liked the implications.
"Did you know she actually found me?" he continued, "We didn't just start dating, you know? She actually found me online and approached me. She said she was looking for a dominant man, to feed her darker fantasies, which I was more then happy to do. It's rare to meet a woman that is such a mix of conflicting emotions. Makes it more interesting to push her limits, because half of her wants nothing more then to stop, while the other half just wants more."
"And I'm not exactly the first she approached. This has been going for a long time," he said, "Even back when your father was still alive."
The words hit Lisa like a fist in her stomach. The idea of her mother cruising the web looking for sex -- perverted sex at that -- was enough to make her dizzy. But the idea of her mother cheating! Her father, her sweet father!
She felt her face turn red, her breathing was ragged and her hands were shaking. It couldn't be true!
Eric seemed to get a mild amusement out of the reaction his words were having on her.
"I know it must be a hard pill to swallow, Lisa, but your mother has been lying to you and everyone for a very long time. But I happen to have my ways of getting the truth out of women."
Then he smiled at her and for a moment Lisa felt like she was in the presence of the devil himself.