Dear Shoeblossom,
I can still remember Rebecca's first comment: "You sure you want to do this, kid?" A full-figured ash blonde with brightly glossed lips...pure Jersey girl.
"You really want to move in with me...the sessions aren't enough?"
Sometimes the sessions were way too much, but I was lost without Mistress Rebecca.
46 to my twenty-three, she'd been my Keyholder for about eight months. And now, having gotten a slight raise and a window office from the good folks at Dougall & Dermott Properties, I wanted to pay for a room in her castle...
I'm not that unusual.
They call me Thumbs (an old Little League nickname) and like a lot of your readers, I was hot for the idea of being kept in a chastity belt, and meeting with a dominant professional now and then to have the belt removed and cleaned...
And for me to get some teasing and discipline. Rebecca was great at this, and I loved talking to her.
Rebi had taught me to take a good spanking. I was raised by therapy-head parents, and had never been hit.
I'd fantasized about being whipped over the knee on my bare bottom, but even when I'd gone to other dommes, I couldn't take a lot of pain.
Rebi started me off with a cooking timer.
She'd set it the first time for about ninety seconds. "I'm going to hit you hard, Thumbs, and as many times as I can in a minute and thirty seconds.
Try to hold off as I whack you. And remember, it'll be over in a minute and a half."
That first time was so hard.
I'd bared my buttocks and lay across her beautiful fishnet stockinged knees, and the whacking started.
The whole humiliation thing that I got off on began to disappear as I began focusing on enduring the intense pain.
I began shifting, that first time. And Rebecca stopped the timer. "Shhh, baby." she soothed. "I'm going to start again, and you can be my big brave boy, can't ya?"
But I was falling apart. I nodded and she started the timer again, but within ten seconds I was trying to climb off her lap.
My butt felt like someone had fried eggs on it.
Rebecca let me stand up, almost stumbling over the Rogers Peet trousers twisted round my ankles.
Rebs had me sit very gently on her lap, and she rubbed my hair while I sobbed.
"Honey the only way you can determine your limits is by passing them. Y'know?"
I was gasping and quivering, and not too communicative.
"See, Thumbs, it's scary to change, and there's a lot of discomfort.
But if you're changing for the better, the tough times-like this valuable discipline-will make you a better man. Or not really a man, but a nice male."
Rebecca had kissed my tears away and I had tried to bite my lip. She'd taken off my chastity belt when I'd come in for the session, and I was still stiff with 38 days chastity that time...
Rebecca rubbed my tumescent, swelling penis with her reddish-orange nails, and the tender fingers got my penis all a shudder...
"You know Rebi loves you, hon.
I have to charge, but I care so much for you, and I know, Thumbsy, you can be a big, brave boy...
And not wail like a little bitch just because I hit you a few times. Don't you want to finish this, it's just a few more seconds, and I stopped the timer.
"I-I guess so." My penis had swelled as I thought of what a little sissy she thought I was.
During one of my previous orgasm release jack off sessions, Rebi had invited some construction workers over who had been working on the roof next door, and they'd laughed uproariously and thrown beer cans at me as I'd jacked away while wearing a pink frilly garter belt...
"I-I don't mean to be a sissy, I want to be a strong guy-Rebi"
"I know, honey. Like Pinocchio, you want to be a real boy. " She paused. "But Pinocchio at least, had wood." Rebi laughed before continuing.
Thumbs, you're basically a crybaby. You told me about how your big brother made you wear nail polish and the kids called you a little faggot-and then all those girls just wanted you just to be their non-threatening male friend.
"Y-yes, but I was a good listener."
"No, honey. It was cause you weren't very manly. They wanted you to carry their books, buy their sodas. I'm sorry you didn't lose your virginity till you were thirty-one-"
"No, I was twenty-three when I got laid the first time."
"No, baby, you said the first time you didn't pay for it, you told me was age thirty-one. On your wedding night to a girl who left you within ninety days...
Buying prostitutes doesn't count. But you can be manlier if you take a spanking from me, for what's on the timer, and not whine and bitch, okay?"
"Uh, okay"
"Seventy seconds still. Are you ready?"
I was still crying. "Y-yes. B-but can't we-"
"Be a brave guy and afterwards I'll let you kiss my titties while I give you a hand job. But only if you do the whole three minutes."
"THREE? But it was only-"
"You love my tits, kid. You wanna kiss them?"
"Yes, of course. I'll grit my teeth."
By the time I'd been visiting Rebecca six months, she could set the timer for twenty minutes, and I'd grit my teeth or bite a pillow through the hideous experience ("I stop when I hit blood, honey.")
But then of course, I was no longer rewarded with the hand job or the tits...I had to take it as a pure punishment...but I learned!
And of course when I screamed "FUCK" after one terrific swat, I was forced to eat an entire box...six Lifebuoy cakes of soap.
Hairbrushes gave way to canes, then razor strops, and finally the occasional bullwhip...
Diogenes was the head of a band of Gypsies who had come to New Piedmont with those home improvement scams.
But when he'd tried this on Rebi, she'd somehow hypnotized and enslaved him, as well as his entire group of malcontents.
Rebecca had the entire gang of Gypsies living a couple of miles away in an apartment building she owned, doing legitimate construction work now...and giving her most of the money!
But Diogenes didn't regret any of it-especially since Rebecca was sending his grandkids to university with a lot of the proceeds.
But he told me "I know the pain from the whippings hurts.
Let me give you a tip. Stay in chastity for longer periods of time, and the pain will be converted into pleasure through your sexual tension."
Diogenes laughed. "Once I annoyed Rebi so much that she had me masturbate BEFORE my whipping, and boy did that whipping hurt more...
Pure pain, like the thrashings I got from my father as a teen!
Yes, the secret is to hold off your orgasmic privileges as long as possible."
"Dio, is there anything you don't react well to?"
"I wish Rebi wasn't so fond of those ice cold chicken soup enemas."
"Chicken Soup?"
"Yeah, she wants it to be edible for me after I shoot it out my asshole."
I had seen Rebi give Diogenes and several of the Gypsy males harsh whippings at her dungeon expos...
And yes, they were all in chastity, as were the women...and all voluntarily. I was not aware this was a secret to withstanding pain-sexual tension.
I rarely was allowed to masturbate, and when I did, I had to lick it up. So I tried hard not to ask for release.
But I really became a good submissive!
The time in between visits to Rebecca was, of course difficult.
Being locked in the chastity belt was a tough time...no stimulation, and no release!
I couldn't jerk off, and being locked while watching hot little Megyn Kelly on Fox News, or when I foolishly surfed the porn on the Internet could be quite frustrating.
Sometimes two to five cold showers a night.
And, after one of Rebi's canings, I really did have a hard time sitting down...
And I couldn't work out for days, because of course the long weals and red marks on my ass and back and upper thighs would look creepy in the gym shower rooms.
Realistically, I knew if I lived with Rebecca, the punishments would be coming harder and faster, and that I'd be even more frustrated, because I'd be teased more, and released about the same amount-every six weeks or so?
But it was fun spending time with Rebi, even in the non-scene context. She was uneducated but bright, and made funny comments.
We went to the Zoo together because she wanted to see the penguins, which reminded her of submissives she'd had as a Domme in Washington, D.C.
As we walked by the lion cage, Rebi rubbed her red nails on my arm. "Yeah, you're so much like the husband in the cage there. The lioness does all the work, gets the food, raises the cubs, in the wild I mean."
Then, I recall I stared at some girl's miniskirted tush and Rebecca got annoyed and slapped me across the mouth-lots of rings.
Yes, when you get smacked by a hand with rings, it makes you wake up...
Everyone is staring at us, families, etc. I was horrifically embarrassed, and my jaw was numb. Even number than after I'd spent an hour between Rebi's legs.
"Goddamn it." Rebecca spoke loudly and sharply. "Thumbs, you shouldn't look at other women when you're with me. And, that girl was barely nineteen. Humiliating me at the New Piedmont Zoo."
And she'd stalked off, her own peachy posterior bouncing as her high heels clicked past the leopard containers.
I should have just walked home, but of course I followed her, beseeching for forgiveness, and then Rebecca turned back, laughing.
"That was hilarious.
You looked like such an idiot. I shoulda made you take your pants down, and used my handy-dandy razor strop on you, or at least pull your penis out for a little lashing."