( A special thanks to my editor, without you luv, this would only be a passing fancy!)
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I read back over the chapter I had written. "Not bad," I thought to myself. That didn't stop me from staring at the screen, wondering whether or not I should click the terrifying little button that would send my words out to god knows how many viewers, open for their comments and scrutiny.
"What the hell," I say aloud to myself. It's the internet, and therefore it's mostly anonymous.
I sit back in the over-sized chair that is the focal point of Nick's room. I close my eyes and breathe in the scent of leather that carries with it the hint of male he inevitably leaves behind.
Damn, I do love the way he smells. I smile to myself. So he wasn't dark and handsome; didn't keep me from thinking he was the most beautiful creature I had ever had the pleasure of being touched by. And he made a great muse.
Not that I am exactly like the female in my story either. My hair is far more of a light topaz color than scarlet. I tried scarlet once, and like everything else I try to do to my unruly hair it rebelled. Two weeks later it was back to it's natural glory. In the wisdom of my advancing age I have finally decided to stop trying to curl, color, perm or tame it. So it sits, mostly straight and long since it seems to like it that way.
Sigh. I need to get in the shower if I plan on making it on time for my sister's birthday gathering this evening. The images from my story still run rampant through my head. I can't stop thinking about what I know I want to try, how it would actually feel to be so dominated...
Okay, so I got myself a little worked up writing such sordid tales. Two clicks and the site and my story were safely hidden. Well, not really hidden. I knew he never opened the program I used to write, and it wasn't likely he would find my first chapter any time soon.
Time for a shower. Leaving the door open so I can hear the music I left playing constantly I make my way into the bathroom. Slipping out of my clothing felt liberating. I study myself in the mirror. "Yeah," I think. "Keep up the yoga." I was getting older, for certain. My looks were not gone yet, but I notice little signs of age starting to set in.
I look at the clock, figuring he wouldn't make it home for at least another hour. Good. Plenty of time for a quick orgasm and some gratuitous singing at the top of my lungs before he arrives.
For a moment I stand under the hot water, letting it fall over my hair, enjoying the way it drips down and finds all those little places like only water can. Oh yeah, time for that big O.
Even though I am right handed I always masturbate with my left for some reason. Leaning back against the shower wall I open myself with my right hand, spreading my own lips open so I can stroke myself. Water is not the best lubricate but it's no matter, I am so hot from penning my own fantasy that anything would work right now.
I start massaging, tugging, teasing my own clit. The walls of the shower melt away as I enter my own mind, imagining the finer details, thinking of the things I want him to do but can't seem to let him know. Closing my eyes I lean into my hand, as though I were begging a partner. That warm feeling starts to grow as I rub faster and harder.
It doesn't take long, and I nearly regret that I can't hold off any longer. The ache that is an itch to be scratched overwhelms me. Arching I hear my own moans as the sudden rush of fluid from inside escapes. I insert a couple of fingers, tapping that little ever-so-popular G spot to prolong the moment. I can feel the walls contracting around my fingers, soft and wet.
Sighing in contentment I remove my hands, letting the cleansing water wash away the moment. Perhaps it's just me, but a woman going through her sexual peak reminds me of a teenage boy going through his. I love to get off and get me off. I am usually irritatingly horny and sometimes long for the age where this ends.