As previously mentioned in another post, I am transferring my writings from another blog. Initially, I wrote this on July 8, 2020. This is a true story of my first submissive training session. The only fictional portion of this shared experience is the name I will use when talking about the guy I am servicing. We will call him Jay.
Yesterday I went to Jay's house. I've been seeing him regularly for the past 6-7 months, but today we did something very different than we usually do. Usually, when I go over, it's a standard routine that I suck him for an hour or so, and he cums in my mouth. Jay then fucks me for another 30 mins until he finishes inside of me, and then I leave. However, the other day he messaged me saying he wanted to train me on Friday and for me not to eat a lot that day. Jay mentioned how I am always asking if there is more I can do, then continued to explain how there might be a way for me to accomplish that. He explained that he wanted to do a training session, but that it would be very rough and it would be a good idea for me not to eat very much on the day of the training. If I didn't want to do it, or if I wanted to stop, we could, but the training would help. So yesterday, I was super nervous and couldn't eat anyway. But still drank a decent amount of water.
On the way to his house, I received a text from saying when I got there, for me to take my clothes off at the door, get in the shower and turn it on, and to get on my knees and he would join me shortly after. Then he reminded me of what he had said the day before about it going to be rough, but that it would help me be better at my desire for wanting to do more. He finished off saying "btw, I've been drinking a lot of water and coke today, so hope you're ready." At this point, my mind is racing, and I'm even more nervous than I already had been. But I got to his house and did what he said. I walked in, and all the lights were off except maybe two (the bathroom and another one in the distant part of his house), I shut the door, took my clothes off, and then proceeded with the rest of what he asked me.
My nerves must have been getting to me, because it felt like I was kneeling there waiting, forever. He actually has a really nice shower. It has a detachable shower head on both sides, and each of them have their own adjustable hot and cold water. It also has a little built-in seat along one of the middle wall. I couldn't really look up, because of where the water was hitting my head, but when he walked in, I could see his dick in front of my face, and knew what I was expected to do.
So, I started sucking him, and probably was sucking him about 2-3 mins, before I felt his hands grab the sides of my head and hold it in place. He then slowly started to move his cock in and out of my mouth. Not deep at first, just 4-6 inches. He did that for a short while, before slowly starting to go deeper and deeper. I wasn't able to handle that very long. It eventually got where I was almost gagging with every deep thrust. At first, he wasn't holding me down when he thrust in. It was just a very steady in-and-out, and so I was able to breathe between each thrust. He kept that up for a while, but eventually started holding me down a little longer each time over time. My gag reflex was not being my friend, though. During one of the thrusts, he held my head down, and all I could do was gag. I panicked a little bit, but was able to maintain it keep it down. After about 10 seconds, he let up, and went back to the steady, even strokes. He did this off and on for about 10-15 mins, and then let me go back to sucking him normal again for a bit before grabbing my head again.
This time was different, though. Jay immediately held me down, and then when he let me up, he only let me up about halfway. Anytime I tried to bring up one, or both, of my hands to help, or apply some kind of resistance, he would just say "na-ah", and then proceed to push my back down. I was gagging and gasping, but I tried as hard as I could, but eventually, I did start to lose my cookies. When I finally did lose my cookies a little, he just said "there we go", and then grabbed the detachable shower-head and sprayed my face. He did this every time I gagged something up. He eventually arranged the showered in a locked position, pointed at my face, so he could use both hands to guide me as he wanted. But every time I tried to push back or bring up a hand, he would grab the shower head and bring it closer to my face. He eventually told me the only thing I need for a blowjob is my mouth. My hands are just there to keep me balanced or to keep me up during doggie. For the next 40 minutes after that, I heeded his advice as best I could, but it was challenging.
He didn't cum, but instead we moved on the what I call the "next phase of training", which was a bit of a surprise, as I did not realize what was happening until it was happening. He randomly said, "That water is catching up to me. We are going to take it slow, okay?" I didn't catch what he meant at first, but I just shook my head as if I did. He continued to slowly thrust in and out of my mouth. He then said "Okay", and brought himself to rest just far enough back where he wasn't gagging me, but still touching the back of my throat. I then started to feel an spurts being shot in the back of my throat, and I eagerly began to swallow. I couldn't really taste anything, because it was far enough back that it basically just tasted like cum. It wasn't until he was a quarter of the way through when I realized he wasn't cumming, but instead utilizing me as a self-flushing urinal. It was also something I had brought up a few times over the months as an offering to do more.
About the time that I realized, he looked down, smirked a little and said "Damn that feels better than I thought it would. And you're keeping up. Good. Let's see if you can handle more of a steady stream." He still broke it up a little, and I was able to keep up with it for the most part, but certainly not ready for a full-on stream. And it's kind of a weird thing to explain. Obviously the texture is different, but the way it first entered my mouth and the general taste seemed very much the same, or at least similar. I actually really liked it. And it turned me on quite a bit. I understand some of you may not be into this kind of thing. However, this is an event that took place, so I am writing about it.