Trying to remember how to calm myself by breathing slowly using the breathing exercises he taught me... in through my nose, and hold then out through my mouth. He was suppose to be here in 10 minutes and I knew he already knew the code to my keyless door so I was hoping he would just make his way in and up to my bedroom the way he did last time. I sit on the side of my bed feeling nervous but mostly just so excited as I feel my stomach in complete knots. Thinking to myself how does he make me feel like this? How does he manage to control me so easily? We've been planning this second meet up for a few days and this is going be anything like the first one I know that I have every right to feel nervous but even more so I had every right to feel so tremendously excited and turned on before he even shows up.
We'd been talking for a couple months before he showed up that first time and things just picked up from where we left at during our online chats. He was just as domineering, just as sadistic and cruel as he sold himself to be online. At least he was honest even though I was never really sure how I would react. How I would really feel about being treated like that in reality. This wasn't a new kind of experience for him and it was more than obvious he knew what he was doing. For me, on the other hand, this was all new. I knew what I liked and what really turned me on but would I be able to handle all this? Even though I knew that I had all of these naughty sexual urges and wanted him to use me in so many dirty ways how would he act if I just couldn't handle it?
2 weeks earlier
That first night as soon as he walked in I slowly got down onto my knees in front of him as he towered over me the way he had told me he expected me to do during out previous online conversations. I was in my bedroom just in my black lace bra and panties giving him a small half smile feeling so incredibly turned on at the sight of him and I was already feeling like such a bad little girl for him doing my best to show confidence even though it wasn't completely real.
He quickly undid his belt of his pants the curling and snaking off and thru the loops. I could tell he wasn't even thinking about it as he held towards the ends of each side on it and then pushed it right into my throat just under my chin and jaw right before he whispered down lewdly at me ."are you read cunt?" He then pushed the belt tighter between my neck and the front of my bed "you're finally going to really turning into your cock worshiping self" I was choking at his belt held so tightly across my throat and I scratched at it my mouth open wide and my eyes were pleading excitedly up at him as I tried to gulp for air. Instead of reacting to my shock he just pulled down his pants and jammed his hardness into my mouth and I could tell he enjoyed the feeling of my throat constrict around his dick as I gagged out. I still did my best to suckle at it like a good little whore anyways, just like the way I knew he would like. I suckled and slurped at his hardness in as tightly as I could with my lips and tongue whimpering and moaning under him as I felt him pull back and slam into my face repeatedly. With each thrust I still looked up at him with teary pleading eyes.