We've seen each other a few times and talked a fair bit. You who already know what I am compared to the type A, in-control persona I use to deal with other people, you responded to my online ad -- asking if I had fantasies: opening my personal Pandora's box. Although I've known for years that I'm a sub, I've kept any traces of my interest unknown to any partner in the hopes of being "normal." Most men I meet think I am a domme in the bedroom, and get sorely disappointed. I've tried to build some openness around my sexuality and have tried to allude to it to some partners -- but this part of myself which I lock away, doesn't come out easily. It's the trust thing and we've built up to it slowly over the past couple months: thankfully you've been understanding, and mentioned that you weren't looking for a sub to suddenly submit from the first get-go. First a message here, then a few phone calls, I explained my trust issues, and then we met for lunch.
When I came in, you saw I was a bundle of nerves, or an elastic band pushed beyond its tension point about to snap, but once we talked I began to relax a bit more, we had a good time. After we left to go to your car, with your hand squeezing my ass through my jeans, you drove me where I wanted to be dropped off and just when I was about to step out of the car, you grabbed my wrist and kissed me hard, using your other hand to grab the back of my neck, knowing instinctively that this is what I wanted but was unable to tell you as I yielded and let you explore. Today will be different -- I've known you as a friend for a couple years, we've seen other people (and have respected each other's relationship), and we've built our trust between us. I emailed you a few nights ago to say that I was ready to finally make this happen and apologized for any seeming reluctance on my part.
I asked for directions, cheeky as you are you gave me vague ones - that you liked shaved legs but the rest was up to me and to come in as comfortable as I am - you've mentioned a few things here or there. I took a short skirt and a thong, trimmed myself - not knowing if you wanted me bare or not, chose a fruity lotion scent you complimented me on, a pair of thighs, no bra, a pair of heels and my hair in a ponytail. I put on my trench coat and went to our usual meeting place. I did however pack a shirt in my purse just in case if things didn't work out.