I returned home after dark that night. My day had been busy with purchases I had never made before. I bought Cay one week's worth of uniforms for school as well as a couple of packs of white underwear to change into, since I had already ruined the only pair she had on. Part of me liked the idea of her dirty garments still around her waist, dried with layers of the previous orgasms that I had given her. After leaving the department store I slipped into a local adult sex shop, curious and adventurous. I had only shopped at a place like this twice before. The first time for myself, the second being with my ex-fiance. I had avoided these places after we broke up because the memory of our exploits brought back too many emotions. Shopping for toys was a very personal experience and I had been shut off from others for so long. But Cay had awoken something in me that brought my sexual inhibitions back to life. More so than I could ever recall before. It led me to do something reckless.
I left the store officially a domme and over $500 down.
Sitting in my car with the receipt in my hand I felt like I might have blacked out in there. Each item I had gotten seemed validated in my head at the time yet I felt ashamed to be seated next to three bags of sex toys and accessories. What would Cay think? I was relieved she couldn't see me then because I felt nothing but shame. I debated returning the stuff for twenty minutes while mentally discouraging myself.
'She's a fucking teenager, not a porn star. What the fuck were you thinking?'
It was true. Cay was only a virgin and yet I had bought more than five different toys to insert inside of her. Not only that I had gotten her hand cuffs, lubricants, and a blind fold as well. The list went on and the more I reviewed it the more I wanted to hate my choices but I could not convince myself of a single return. It wasn't as though I wanted to use everything at once. While silently combing through their products I had imagined myself capable of using most of them on Cayla when the time was right. She had already allowed me to tie her down and take her anal virginity. The trust was there - it was up to me to expand it. I pulled out of the parking lot after almost half an hour of debate. I had spent enough time away from my sub and looked forward to, more than anything, seeing those pretty green eyes again.
When I arrived home I pulled the bags out of my car and made my way to the door. It was odd for me to see the lights on inside from my spot in the driveway. I had almost forgotten the comforting feeling of coming home to someone who was waiting for you. Sure enough after entering and setting my keys on the foyer table she appeared from the kitchen threshold. She was dressed just the same even wearing her shoes and socks still. Her eyes met with my own but she kept silent, almost stiff. I wondered if I had scared her since our previous affair. If I remembered correctly her last words to me had been
'I'm gonna cum,'
muttered through gritted teeth around a wooden ruler I had used to spank her. Regardless I was happy to see her once again.
"Hi, beautiful." I dropped all but one bag onto the floor and moved towards her to plant a kiss along her forehead.
"Hi, Miss Vega," she greeted back in a softened tone that gave little away. I began to run my hands through her hair as she glanced up at me then back down at the bag in my hands.
"I got you some stuff. Here," I passed her the bag from the department store containing her new clothes. She opened it to see her uniforms and underwear sitting inside. I continued to brush my fingertips through her silky black hair as I spoke. Touching her freely was all I had wanted the majority of my day. "You can borrow anything of mine that fits you as well. I'll keep shopping for you so you can have your own wardrobe. The rest is for you too. To...
use
on you." Cay's eyes immediately shot towards the three black plastic bags sitting behind me. I evaluated her expression but could detect nothing beyond those solid green eyes. My stomach tightened with panic. "Is that okay?" There was a short pause before Cay responded.
"You really do want me to stay here, don't you?"
"Yes?" I didn't think of myself as her dominant then. Cay was something special, beyond someone's personal slave. I cared what she thought of me at that moment and wished with ferocity that it was approving. "I won't force you to though. I like having you here but if this is too much you need to tell me." Oh god, how I feared her then. I had already slept with one of my students; if this didn't work out I would have to quit my job, my life.
"This is all I've ever wanted," she confessed. "I missed you so much today. I thought you didn't come home because you were mad at me." My eyes furrowed at her response. She had been worrying herself in my absence? I hadn't considered how leaving Cay alone would affect her. She had always seemed so independent to me but I realized more and more that it was a wall she built up to keep everyone out. "May I please touch you, Miss Vega?" There was a desperation in her voice. I removed my fingers from her hair.
"Yes," I answered. Of course, I wanted to say. Cay threw her arms around me and buried her face against my chest. She hugged me so tightly I couldn't resist doing the same, wrapping my arms around her and laying one hand against the back of her head. I evaluated her attachment to me with surprise. Beyond her solid exterior was a girl whose grip was so tight around me that I felt my blouse stretching with her pull. I couldn't remember the last time I had felt this wanted by someone else. "You're a very good girl, Cay," I assured as I rested my cheek along the side of her scalp.
"I want you to take my virginity," Cay said softly. "I want you to be the one." Her request made my body sizzle at the thought. I had been thinking about it enough to conjure several ideas of how, and now her granted permission could bring them to life. I held my voice though, debating what to say in response. Cay seemed to tense the longer I waited and I could tell she felt as though I were leaving her out in the cold. I was soon hugging a statue instead of a person.
"We still need to finish your punishment," I remembered aloud, recalling what I had said to her in the classroom. "Losing your virginity should be a privilege."