"Concentrate. Keep still. Don't move" Beverly silently recited, as the antique razor's glittering blade slid across her face and over her neck, then continued downward, pausing briefly at the first of the leather bands which bound her above and below her breasts, tighter almost than she imagined possible, to the gymnastic horse along which she was stretched.
When my aunt Barbara passed away, the loss of that connection to our family's storied past saddened me more than I expected. Suddenly I was keenly aware of my curiosity about her eccentricities; "Angie" I promised myself, "don't let any more family drift away."
Shafts of pain shot through Bev's body as Barbara twisted the steel clamps biting each of her breasts before removing them completely, awakening every nerve in her engorged nipples.
Born into a well-to-do family just as World War II began, Barbara Wentworth knew her father only as a very young girl. Her mother, still quite young herself, returned to college when the war ended, throwing herself into life with abandon, juggling schoolwork with whatever attention to her daughter she could spare, enthusiastically embracing political activity: women's rights, antiwar protest, and sexual emancipation. While Barbara undoubtedly suffered some benign neglect, she spent her teenage years immersed in a rich, stimulating environment, growing to adulthood among some of the most influential, even notorious, movers and shakers of the 'fifties and 'sixties. Eventually her mother met my grandfather and had one more child, my father. The relationship did not last, hence Ginny and I carry the Wentworth name.
Bev gasped as Barbara touched the razor's edge to her left nipple. "Don't move" she commanded. Bev felt a wave of trust and admiration for the beautifully leather-clad woman who towered over her naked, helpless body, holding her life in her hands.
Aunt Barbara never seemed to be lonesome or unhappy though she didn't marry or have children of her own. She bought a spacious apartment in the middle of town before prices became astronomical, soon settling into the full, busy life of a well-off urbanite. My older sister Ginny joked disrespectfully about the business she suspected "Grande Dame" Barbara conducted from that convenient location, punishing wealthy men, and sometimes women, for a substantial fee, but when aunt Barbara visited us, I was awed, intimidated by her supreme confidence and dominating personality. Ginny was more self-assured but immature; her suspicious resentment of Barbara, never very well hidden, occasionally erupted into nasty spats – I remember one particularly vividly.
The knife continued downward, jumping the second leather band on its course to Beverly's dense little pubic forest, obscenely pressed upward by a thick leather-covered pillow under her buttocks, her legs pulled down and firmly secured to the horse on either side. With a few deft strokes Barbara dispatched the furry tangle, then creamed and shaved the freshly exposed mons, making it glow with new color. Bev shivered as the cool air touched her there, breathlessly anticipating Barbara's next move.
Our family felt the usual business-neighborly obligation to have a December party, though it was becoming more and more difficult for us to put on a good show. I still enjoyed these events, but Ginny, by then a senior in high school, was upset over our social descent. Mom even bargained for the tree that year, to Ginny's acute embarrassment. It was carefully placed to cover a tatty spot in the living room carpet, accommodating our large collection of decorations with difficulty, seeming overwhelmed and gaudy. Guests filled the room, but Daddy wasn't yet home; he was meeting with solicitors to close out his latest business failure, mom gamely holding down the fort.
"Pleasure me well, smart ass college cunt" Barbara demanded, as she straddled Bev's face, choking her momentarily. The coarse language sounded shocking, but Bev knew where it came from. She worked her tongue fervently into Barbara's vagina, amazed at her delicious clean flavor, doing her very best to reciprocate Barbara's friendship.
Aunt Barbara stood next to the fireplace, chatting with a small group of guests as she casually rearranged objects on the mantlepiece. I loved watching Barbara from a distance – if only I could be like that in my autumn years, I imagined. She was tall, especially in the high heels she managed so well, and nicely proportioned – not too slender but staunchly, elegantly robust. She exercised religiously all her life, before that became trendy, and it showed; her designer pants flowed over her still shapely bottom, her tailored jacket perfectly smoothing the transition downward from her angular shoulders. She swiveled to answer a question, launching her resonant contralto grandly over an unfortunate lull in the hubbub; her description of our father as pathetically inept, hopelessly incompetent, which was more or less true, sailed over the room just as daddy walked in.
"Smart ass college cunt" Barbara chuckled, as she read through the creamy colored leaves of notepaper covered with Bev's tidy handwriting. The little package bound in a pink bow with a single red rose handed her by the doorman that morning had to wait for several clients to be accommodated; finally Barbara had a chance to look at it. Though Bev wrote it, Barbara didn't think the description really fitted her, but Barbara's niece Virginia, older sister of Bev's college roommate Angela, that was another matter entirely. Barbara smiled; the hunch to leave a dim light glowing in her dungeon, and the door slightly ajar, was spot-on. Bev took the bait and Barbara caught her, bringing the lights up full.
The lull turned out not to be so momentary, awkward silence descending on the assembled company like an embarrassing smell. Barbara strode gracefully across the room to greet her half-brother with a kiss. "You heartless, arrogant bitch!" Ginny screamed, deeply hurt and loyal to a fault. She and ran out of the house crying, slamming the front door behind her, Mom quickly slipping out after her to make sure she didn't run away completely. Barbara seemed quite unfazed, certainly not insulted, but it took several long minutes for the evening to right itself, barely escaping a complete capsize.
Bev lamely apologized for her intrusion, but Barbara's bet was won, hands down. Gazing at the leather horse, the tilted cross, the ropes, straps, whips, floggers and other paraphernalia cascading from the walls, Bev admitted that she was fascinated by BDSM. She had never experimented for real, she said, but she fantasized about it frequently, and knew a little from the internet. Recalling her younger niece Angela's bemoaning the superiority of Bev's writing , Barbara suggested that she send her a BDSM fantasy before her next visit.