(this one is a bit darker than i usually write and had a pretty profound impact on U/us⌠i would really appreciate a lot of feedback on this piece tell me what you thinkâŚâŚ)
T/they sit opposite each other at the dinner table as she watches Him eat His spaghetti. As T/they chat about the day, she toys with her food, taking small, uninterested bites. she pushes her food around the plate and nibbles on the garlic toast distractedly, wondering what to say.
He looks up at her. âBaby, is there something wrong?â
âNo,â she sighs, ânothingâs wrongâŚjustâŚwellâŚâ
âWhat is it baby? Whatâs wrong?â
âWellâŚâ she takes a deep breath. âi⌠i wrote something to You today in my journal⌠here.â she pulls a book hesitantly from her lap and slides the bound leather journal she keeps for Him across the table.
Looking at her curiously, He opens the book. The last written page smells freshly of the ink she uses as He begins to read. His face is expressionless and unreadable as He reads. she fidgets some as He looks over the binding with a raised eyebrow. âThis is a different one for you.â
âi know it love⌠but itâs still there.â
He turns back to reading...
my dearest Love,
i read a story this week and it brought to light a fantasy iâve never voiced to You and barely have admitted to feeling myself. but i wanted to share it with YouâŚ
itâs about being forced...
itâs hard to explain why that struggle is one of my fantasies, but iâll tryâŚ
i want to be held down. i want Your strength over-powering me. i want to feel impossibly held...my thighs kneed apart while You pin me beneath YouâŚholding my hands above my head. i want to struggle and fight and push You away.
the knowledge that i cannot...god, LoveâŚthe thought of that only makes it better.
whimpering and crying...struggling and fighting, turning my head from side to side trying to get free.
but really...
i am using it to drag myself higher, toward that edge i craveâŚthat total loss of controlâŚtotal surrenderâŚitâs not mine to giveâŚYou take itâŚ.and my body responds...
even when my mind and voice revoltâŚi am wet and waitingâŚmy heart poundingâŚmy breasts heaving in an effort to breathe as the need and passion begins to take hold somewhere deep withinâŚ
when You finally force Yourself between my thighs, my legs are weak and unable to fight any longerâŚi struggle to pull my arms away, but Your grip only tightensâŚ
You have my hands in one of Yours, and the other is twisting and raking at my breastsâŚ
when You enter me finally, it is deeply urgent and powerfulâŚall the power released into a single solid hard deep thrustâŚfinalâŚcompleteâŚclaiming what is YOURS...
i am no longer my own ..
He looks across the table as He lays the journal aside. His eyes glaze a bit, as she sees something stir in them.
âI like it...and I could get into it,â He says taking another bite. she toys some more with her food. âEat baby, youâve barely touched your dinner.â
Picking up the bread, she tears little pieces from it and pops them into her mouth. âYou donât think iâm weird then? Wanting that?â
âNo, not at all...and I could enjoy it...cause it's something I think about sometimes,â smiling across the table at her as she tears apart her bread.
her hands nervously shred the bread as He sees mixed emotions of eagerness and nervousness playing across her face.
Looking up from the pile of crumbs beside her plate, she picks up her fork. Swirling her fork through the noodles, she asks, âReally? Why haven't You said anything, Love?â Surprise and relief are evident on her face as she takes a small bite.
âWell, it borders too close to rape for Me sometimes.â He looks up again, smiling slightly as He reaches across the table, napkin in hand to swipe the bright red sauce from her chin.
she nods slowly, blushing slightly as He wipes the sauce from her chin and drops the napkin next to her plate. âi think of it that way too, sometimes.â Nervously, she quickly takes another bite before catching His eye again, âBut...if W/we...kind of worked O/our way up to that edge...i think i would like it very much. This is one that i haven't had the opportunity to try beyond being held down a little...and He always let go when i struggled,â she shrugs.