"Slut."
You look me over, appraising my immodest outfit from the floor on upโMary Jane pumps, bare legs, plaid skirt that barely covers my ass, blood red top with a plunging neckline, a silver cross nestled between my breastsโand say it again, a quiet edge in your voice:
"Slut." You tuck my hair behind my ear, revealing my fragile neck where you let your fingernails graze the skin. Shivers run down my body and I turn my eyes to the floor, but you grab hold of the side of my neck and force me to look up and to be still. Your tone changes from meditative to commanding.
"You will look at me when I speak to you, slut. I want to see the fear in your eyes." I dutifully keep my eyes trained on yours as you laugh cruelly. "Yes, just like that!" You seem pleased and for the briefest moment I think that this is a good thing, before your hand flies out and slaps me across the face. The force sets my face downcast once again, which seems to have been your intention as you roughly pull my head back up. "Now that," you say smoothly, looking into my eyes, "is real fear."
I had been the one to bring it up, to ask slyly what you thought, knowing there weren't many men likely to decline rough sex. But I wasn't just asking for rough sex. I wanted discipline. I wanted denigration. I wanted you to take absolute control.
I asked for this
, I repeat over and over in my head as I follow you to the kitchen. It's one of the first warm days of spring and the breeze coming in the window feels good. In one swift motion you pull out a chair, sit yourself down, and pull me over your lap so that my ass is just above your groin. You push my legs down with one arm and my ass rises just above the rest of me. As my ass rises, the tiny skirt rides up and totally uncovers my lacy white panties. For a moment I'm mortified; then my natural slut kicks in and I wonder what you're thinking, looking at me like that. I don't have long to wonder.
I asked fo-
I start to say in my head when my thoughts are interrupted by a sound:
swish
as your hand cuts through the air and