My head snapped up at the sound of the buzzer – that damn buzzer. Not being able to hold my head up, it rolled to the side and then dropped, chin to my chest.
God – I wanted to sleep . . . The buzzer stopped.
I was standing. I don't remember being put in this position. My arms were folded and tied against my back and I was held upright by ropes to the floor joists above me. I tried to slump against the rope, letting it take my weight. That only pulled my arms up and caused more pain in my shoulders. My whole body hurt and ached from fatigue.
I'd lost track of the minutes, the hours – the days. No longer did I know if it was day or night. I couldn't see. I was blind folded from the beginning.
I didn't care; I just wanted to sleep.
The buzzer started squealing again. It was a high pitched hurunk . . . hurunk, like a fire alarm or something. Couldn't anyone else hear it? The noise reverberated in my head.
Tears began to stream from my eyes, soaking the blind fold until they made their way under the cloth to run down my cheeks. I felt things stirring deep in my bowels. Oh god no – not again. I tried to open my legs, but found them bound together just above my knees and my ankles. My urine began to flow. I was helpless to stop it. My body was so fatigued I longer controlled it; all I could do is stand there and let my piss run down the insides of my legs. That wasn't all though – the stirrings and gurgling in my bowels – after I stopped pissing myself, I began to shit. It oozed from my ass, clinging to my legs as it emerged. The stench of my urine and my shit gagged me and I began to dry retch in reflex to the foul odor. I felt disgusted by the way my shit clung to my legs.
The last time I did this, I'd been tied in the fetal position with my hands and arm drawn between my legs, so I shit right on my arms and there it sat stinking and squishy between my ass and arms.
I prayed for him to come soon.
His coming would bring torment of its own.