"Damn it, Mia! I'm not asking for anything like a 'mercy fuck,.' All I'm asking is a little empathy and trust."
She stared into his blind eyes for a long minute before speaking. "I know that your sex life is shit, I understand that you really miss porn since losing your eyesight, I know all that. But what you're asking is...well, impossible. First of all, I couldn't take money from you. Secondly I'd feel cheap, letting you fondle me so you could jerk off later. It's sick."
His shoulders slumped in frustration and defeat. It seemed so simple to him; stripper tips for his female friends, who would bare themselves to his "gaze," the touch of his soft, manicured fingertips. It wasn't like prostitution; after all, he wasn't demanding sex of any kind.
All the man wanted was a 3-D centerfold or two, stimulation for a libido that was quickly shutting down for lack of use. He had used pornography as partial consolation for a lukewarm marriage bed and had managed to keep himself stimulated and involved with sex. Now totally blind, he was denied even this simple pleasure.
He made it clear that his fingers would go only where a camera lens could peek. No penetration unless requested by the model. Et cetera, et cetera.
His busty friend of ten years shook her head. She felt his pain, his embarrassment at having to make such a plea in the first place. It seemed so pathetic to her, yet she understood. Blind, his social opportunities were limited. He didn't have enough money to hire a three-hundred dollar per hour escort in the big city an hour from his home. She was also somewhat excited at the idea of such intimate exhibitionism. She loved her lush body and often admired herself naked in her full-length mirror, caressing her softball size breasts with their pert pink nipples, or looking over her shoulder into the mirror as she bent over and spread her pink puckered ass and hairless cunny. Why shouldn't she use that to help out a friend?
She suddenly rose and said, "I need to think about this. May I discuss this with some of the girls?"
He was mortified at the thought of Mia sharing his pathetic plea with her girlfriends, but he nodded his assent. "Yeah, sure. What the fuck? I've already made myself look pathetic as it is."
She leaned over to embrace him. "No touchy, baby. Be patient."
***
He sat alone in his living room, reading erotic stories from the internet and feeling sorry for himself. Lindsay, a pudgy 20 year-old had blown off the date they had set the previous week. He had planned to have the same discussion as he had with Mia with the younger woman. She hadn't returned his cheerful phone call, enquiring about the lunch date.
Was he being an obsessive pig? He paced the fourteen by twelve foot living room, wondering what he had become. Was he so addicted to sex that he was now putting his friendships at risk by asking to fondle the naked bodies of his girl pals? And he felt resentful. Why couldn't his so-called friends understand? It was such a little thing...receive his caress, perhaps accept a tip, maybe play with a sex toy or simply allow him to smell and taste her skin. He churned inside, thinking of how sad and pathetic he must have appeared to Mia.
Mia called the following Wednesday. "I think I have a solution to your problem."
He held his breath, his pulse pounding in his ears, afraid to even acknowledge her hopeful declaration.
"Answer a few questions. Answer based on how you're feeling at this moment, okay?"
I nodded assent, then agreed. "Okay."
"Are you at this moment feeling more dominant or submissive?"
"Submissive...but..."
"But what?"
"I've got all this pent-up frustration that's turning kind of bitter and angry. I'd have to say I really feel submissive aggressive." She laughed.
"Slave?"
"Yes, Mistress Mia."
"Get cleaned up. Shower, shampoo, conditioner, careful shave. That means your balls too, honey."
"Yes, Mistress Mia."
***
She had directed him to dress in "casual Friday" attire and properly perfume himself. She picked him up promptly at the time she had told him.
Mia was stunning, her black hair framing a strong Anglo face and ice-blue eyes. He remembered those eyes from before, although her hair had been blonde then. She had known of his desire for her since their first meeting, and although she hadn't tried to tease him, he had become obsessed with her. When the black curtains closed on his vision, the 43 year-old man had tried in vain to replace the visual component of his sexual arousal with stories and audio. While they helped keep him aroused and interested in sex, something still was missing.
"Where are we going?"