My hands trembled as I rinsed the soap from my body. The water felt strangely warm as it glided down my skin. "Oh, my god...Oh, my god!" kept running through my brain. "Am I actually here? Am I really going to go through with this?" I looked down at my now hairless body and thought of the man waiting for me in the next room. There was no turning back now.
Just a few hours earlier, I had for the first time in my life worked up the courage to enter a gay bar. I spent the first hour in agony. I had a half dozen or so awkward conversations with various men not really knowing what to say. Not knowing how to act. I had reached my limit and I was about to bail. I just didn't think I could go through with it. I was going to get the hell out of there with my virginity intact.
Then I saw HIM.
He was sitting at a booth across the room with three other guys. I recognized him instantly. My mind raced back to college when I first laid eyes on him. He was playing in a pick up basketball game right outside my dorm room. It was the first time I had ever been attracted to another man. Black as night, he was at least 6 foot 5 and approaching 250 pounds. Powerful arms. Broad shoulders. The sight of sweat glistening on his perfectly formed pecs. I couldn't take my eyes off him. Now, six years later, I still couldn't take my eyes off him. There he was.
TYRONE!!
I was confused though. Tyrone, to the best of my knowledge, wasn't into guys. He got more women than any other guy in the dorm. He certainly didn't act gay. He was your stereotypical inner city kid. A trash talking ghetto thug. Yet here he was.
"Whatever," I thought. "He's here and I've got to take a shot." There were too many nights that I had laid in bed and fantasized about an opportunity like this. Too many nights after my roommate fell asleep when I masturbated while whispering to myself, "Fuck me, Tyrone. Fuck me with your big black dick."
My mind raced. I thought quickly about how I could get his attention and get him away from his friends. I looked at the bottles in front of me at the bar and decided to send him a drink. It was then that the bartender walked over to me.
"Hey, buddy!" he said. "The guy over there wants to buy you a drink," as he motioned over to a grinning Tyrone standing at the end of the bar. Oh, shit! Here we go...
Tyrone walked over and said hello. I think it was the first word he had ever said to me directly. The social structure at school was pretty much racially segregated. While that fact never kept Tyrone from fucking every white girl he could get his hands on, he wasn't at many frat parties either.
"You're Todd, right? I remember you from the dorms. How've you been?"
"I...I...I'mmm f-fine. Aa-nn-d you?" I was terrified.
"Didn't expect to see you in a place like this. What are you doing in here? Let's have a seat. I've got a booth."
As we walked over, I noticed that his friends had left. We sat and talked about school and what we were doing now. Tyrone was acting quiet the gentleman ordering round after round of drinks. After an hour or so, I really started to feel tipsy. I was feeling much more relaxed in the situation and Tyrone could tell.
He moved in closer and put his right arm around me and his left hand on my leg. Any night in my life before this, my instinct would have been to get the hell out of there. Not tonight. I felt my body involuntarily lean into his thick chest. He started talking in a softer voice. I could feel every hair on my neck stand up.
"So you never answered my question. What are you doing in here?"
The skin on my entire body tightened and I started to get hard.
"I don't really know. It's my first time."
"Oh, so have you ever..."
"No, never!" I quickly replied not letting him get the words out. "What are you doing in here?"
"Oh, I ain't gay or nuthin'. I just like coming in here every now and then."
Tyrone pulled me in tighter, his left hand starting to gently stroke up and down along my inner thigh. He then started to tell me about how he always noticed me watching him play basketball from my dorm room window. How he noticed me watching him in the cafeteria. How he noticed me watching him in the weight room.
"Oh, my god!" I thought. "He knew! I wanted him so bad all those years ago and he knew it!"
I put my hand on his forearm, just above the hand that was now firmly squeezing my inner thigh. I closed my eyes and slinked down in the booth just a little bit and spread my legs even further apart. My dick was now a raging hard on and I wanted him to see it. He moved his hand to my crotch wedging his fingers in my crotch and his thumb on my scrotum through my jeans. He squeezed his hand firmly causing a sharp pain in my now swollen balls and whispered in my ear.
"Let's get out of here."
This all happened only a little over an hour earlier but it felt much longer. Standing naked in the bathroom of some cheap motel. My emotions were all over the place. Scared. Excited. Ashamed. But all the while curious as to what lay in store. As I stepped from the shower, my eyes were transfixed on the plastic bag from the porno shop. I momentarily looked down and my hairless body and then back to the bag. I dried myself off with a towel. He must have turned the radio on as rap music was now blasting from outside the bathroom. There was a pounding on the door.
"Ain't you ready yet, bitch! Hurry your ass up! Ain't got all night you know."
"I'm coming!" I responded. "Just give me a few more minutes."
Tyrone's tone had changed ever since we left the porn store. He seemed meaner. More impatient and demanding. I guess that was my fault. He had set a trap and I walked right into it. I looked back to the bag. I couldn't believe I had purchased all this stuff. It was embarrassing. I didn't even want to go in there. It was on the way from the bar to the motel. Tyrone insisted that we go in. He said we needed to pick up some stuff that would make the evening even more special.
We walked to the back of the store. I was scanning all the displays shocked at the wide variety of sex toys and videos. Tyrone walked directly to a shelf on the back wall and grabbed a bottle. He knew exactly what he wanted and exactly where it was. It was obvious he'd done this before. He tossed the bottle to me saying that it was for me. My mouth fell wide open.
"Hair remover?!?! Are you kidding?? No way!"
Tyrone motioned me over towards him. I moved slowly in his direction but he reached over and grabbed my arm dragging over to the other side of the store. He slammed me up against the wall behind many tall racks of clothes. With one hand he pushed my chest while the other was firmly grasping my throat partially choking me. I was shocked and terrified by his sudden change in temperament. I quickly looked towards the front of the store to see if anyone had seen what had just happen. The store had been empty when we went in with only a sales girl present sitting behind the counter. I couldn't see her though through the web of lingerie, bustiers, and various S&M type outfits.
"Look Todd," he seethed through tightly clenched teeth. Then he took a breath and his snarl was replaced with a knowing smile. "I remember the way you used to look at me. I know what you wanted back in school and I know what you want now. I'm gonna help you get it. You wanted me to punk you out. You wanted to be my bitch. You wanted to be a black man's punk-ass bitch. And tonight you will be."
"But..."
"Shut the fuck up. You white boys are so fuckin' pathetic. I told you before. I ain't no faggot. I just go into that bar every now and then to get me a piece of some white ass. We all knows you white boys all wanna give it up for some black dick. I'm just here to help. Provide a service. I'm gonna bust you open. But I ain't touchin' no hairy white ass. I want it soft and smooth. Just like all those white bitches you used to see me with at school. Got it! Bitch!"
"I got it," I said sheepishly staring down at the floor. "But..."
"But nothin' bitch. If you want me to bust that cherry you gotta lose that hair. All of it. From the neck down."
I remembered what an ass this guy used to act like in college. So arrogant. So utterly crude. I remember how the other guys in the dorm wondered how he got any woman let alone the sheer volume he had going in and out of his room.
I never wondered. I knew it then. I knew it even better now. He was so dominant. He was so forceful. He knew exactly what he wanted and he was going to get it. I looked at the large black hands holding me in place. My eyes slowly moved up his arm and across his chest. I looked into his eyes and I knew the truth instantly. I was going to be his bitch. If commanded, I would have stripped right there. I would have taken off all of my clothes and let him parade me out of the store into the street completely naked.
"So what's it going to be, bitch!" he demanded.
"I'll do whatever you say, Tyrone. You can do anything to me you want. Let's just buy that bottle and get out of here."
"Anything, huh? Now that's what I'm talking about. You're my bitch all right, white boy." He took his hands away finally letting me breathe normally. "But we can't leave yet. There a few other things I want to pick up."