CHAPTER 1
It's funny how you can always want something, but think it's truly unobtainable.
And then, one day, you decide... Why not just go for it? What's keeping you from trying?
I remember the day it all started, when I got just a little too bold and maybe just the right amount of honesty.
We were sitting together in her car, a crumby SUV with just enough space to get up to funny business in the back, when she looked up at me with her chocolate brown eyes and a mischievous smile.
"So, how about you?"
I blinked in surprise, having zoned out a little bit just watching her cute smile with tiny dimples.
"What about me?"
"Anything you're embarrassed to tell me?"
Immediately I laughed and rolled my eyes, leaning back in my seat and stretching enough for my shirt to ride just a little too far up and expose some skin. "Oh, for sure, but lord knows I'm not telling you any of it."
She laughed and flipped her curly red hair over her shoulder, cocking an eyebrow and leaning forward across the seat. "Oh no, no I don't think so! You've been asking me questions all night, it's time to ask you something embarrassing."
"Not a chance."
"Oh?" I felt a shiver run up my spine as her soft fingertip began tracing its way across my arm, causing my heart to beat far faster than a simple touch should have. While it was the first time, it would certainly not be the last that I suddenly felt like prey locked in a cage with a predator. "I'm sure you think that but I kind of get the feeling that..." As she spoke she leaned even closer, her soft skin pressing into my arm while radiating a sensual warmth. "...I can easily make that change."
This wasn't the first time we'd been in this situation. Veronica would constantly test her boundaries, trying to get under my skin with her sexuality as she knew between the two of us she was the more experienced. We would go back and forth with her implying she had some sort of power in our dynamic due to her experience but at the end of the day the power balance would always be tested but remain stable. I would challenge her to test it, and she would back down with a sly giggle.
Truthfully, she more than likely backed down for no other reason than she believed I was uncomfortable which wasn't entirely untrue but...
Well, I just wasn't certain how to explain to her that I wanted her to prove me wrong. It probably would be something along the lines of just addressing with her that I enjoyed such a dynamic, but I couldn't squash that deep feeling in my chest that didn't want to tell her... I wanted her to show me.
But of course, that was ridiculous, and so as always I pussied out of my own feelings and just forced a cocky smirk.
"Oh, and you would do that... How?"
I turned to make more direct eye contact with her, as always challenging her with the pitiful hope that she would keep ramping up the tension before I felt my heart full stop as her hand suddenly pressed into the side of my head to keep it from turning and I felt her soft, warm lips press directly against my ear while her hot breath flowed down my neck.
"It's very simple." She whispered with a powerful mix of sensualism and confidence I didn't even know it was possible. "You want to tell me, you're just being a wuss about it. So man up..."
My words were caught in my throat as I felt as if she had seen directly through me, and before I could even think of a response I felt her teeth dig into my earlobe as she gave it a long, hedonistic nibble that almost seemed like a threat and a promise bundled into one.
"...Or you'll miss your chance."
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. All my senses felt overloaded and my heart was racing like its life depended on it. My skin was burning, my forehead glistening, and my pants were starting to feel more than just a little tight. She had absolutely hit the nail on the head, and then some, and I felt absolutely vulnerable, like jelly in her hands.
"H-Hey, that's not fair-!" I was cut off as I felt her tongue briefly enter my ear before beginning to swirl all around it, as if hungrily exploring the tastiest bit before she enjoyed her meal. Fucking HELL where had this come from? We had messed around before, but this was something different.
"What's not fair...?" Her words continued to flow out of her mouth like a sensual breath before, without warning, she leaned back and let out a girlish giggle. "...The fact that I totally called you out?"
I blinked and let out a breath I wasn't aware I was holding, looking at her in confusion as she grinned from ear to ear, her adorable smile as innocent as ever. It was as if the dominant predator that had been in front of my only moments ago had vanished, and in its place was a bubbly red head who just looked proud of herself for causing a little mischief.
"I... you didn't-!"
"I totally did. Admit it, you've been keeping a secret and I just totally called you on it. Just spill! There's nothing to be ashamed of!"
My cheeks were burning bright red as I sat up and straightened my clothes, trying to regain some kind of composure. "Look, it's embarrassing okay! And I've... Never really spoken with anyone about it ever, so it's kind of hard to just... admit, ya' know?"
