Ava tensed under her hands and started to pull back again. Kitten held fast but didn't proceed. Instead, letting her just be in that space with her. Letting her process. After a moment she asked her, "Do you want to say something?"
Ava's mouth opened and then closed and then opened again. Unable to voice her feelings, frustrated at her inability to express herself, she whispered, "I can't."
Kitten asked, "Do you want me to take away your anticipation?"
The only response she got from Ava to that question was the feel of her nails digging ever so slightly into the small of her back, where they had been resting. That small gesture let Kitten know that Ava did indeed remember their conversation about being bound and blind folded, so she once again gave her a moment to process before pushing her for an answer.
She gently prodded, "I'm going to need an answer from you, Ava. You're safe here with us. I won't let anything happen to you. At any time you can stop me but I won't go, not even one step forward from here, without an answer to that question."
Ava looked up at her but didn't answer. Kitten met her gaze, expressionless and then Ava leaned into her and tried to meet her mouth with her own. Kitten pulled back. She took her hands and held Ava's face, looked directly into her eyes, and repeated her earlier statement.
"I'm going to need an answer from you, Ava."
The conflicted girl tried to avert her eyes. Kitten followed her with her own, gently but with authority, waiting for her answer. This girl was in the midst of an internal war. Kitten knew that because she herself had at one time experienced that same war. The war against mind and body...against soul and sense so she patiently gave her the time she needed to process this next step.
Ava wanted her, she knew that, but what she wanted was for Kitten to give her no choice. She wanted a free pass into pleasure without having to make the decision herself. She wanted that pass without having to face the consequences within or define what exactly it meant about her.
Kitten would give her no such free pass because she knew that the pleasure was at it's greatest with complete surrender.
Again Ava tried to get closer to her body and again Kitten held her away, speaking with a little more authority she repeated her earlier statement.
This time Ava responded with a barely audible "Yes."
Kitten felt her body go slack in her arms with the answer. Slack as if defeated.
"Yes what, Ava?" she asked and felt the tension return with the new question.
"Yes, I want you to take away my anticipation."
Kitten smiled and pulled her close for an embrace, whispering in her ear, "I'm proud of you, Ava. I know how difficult it was to say that."
This time when she averted her gaze, Kitten let her. She let go of her body and went to fix them all another drink. Ava was reluctant to let her go, wanting her right there and then before she changed her mind but Kitten didn't want her that way. She didn't want Ava with reluctance inside of her. She wanted all of Ava. She knew that Master wanted to see all of Ava and she was going to do whatever she had to do... play it however she had to play it, to see that He saw ALL of Ava.
When she returned with the drinks she told Ava to sit back down in the living room. She chose the seat farthest away from where her Master was sitting and Kitten chose her seat on the floor, in between His legs, with her back to Him. She loved being there but she also wanted Him to have the exact same view that she had of Ava. She wanted Him front and center for the show she was about to give Him.
He was very contained. Seemingly unaffected by the events transpiring around Him but His Kitten knew better. She wondered for a brief second if He knew that she knew. She wondered if He knew that she could feel His anticipation. That she could smell His desire and need. No matter. She would fulfill it. Every want He had she would give Him. Every place He wanted to go she would follow. Every and any thing He needed she would set before Him like a feast before a King.
She met Ava's eyes again from across the room and asked her if she had any questions, requests or boundaries she would like to discuss. She looked bewildered so Kitten explained herself a little better.