We'd known each other long enough to know we wanted to know more. We had great chemistry and filled what each other was looking for. There were so many things about him that made me so happy, that told me he was a great guy, that said this could be it.
Things went like this for a while. Dating, getting to know more and more about each other, learning each other. Learning each other's likes and desires, both in vanilla life and in exploring our non-vanilla needs. Everything was great. I worried about messing things up. I worried about doing the wrong thing. I worried about making the wrong decisions. I worried I would push too far. I worried about all the ridiculous things I had worked so hard to get past. He knew it. He knew I worried. He knew I didn't want to be in control or in charge. He knew I loved listening to him, pleasing him, belonging to him. He was able to let me feel. He got past my silly worries, never calling them silly. He comforted me and made me feel safe, even when he didn't give any indication he knew I needed the extra comfort at the time. He made me feel safe, secure, calm and important. He showed me that he could handle being in charge. He showed me he could, and he would, be the man I needed.
I knew this day was going to come. He hasn't rushed me. He waited until I indicated, clearly that I was ready for this. He even suggested I take things slowly, going from my full-time job to part-time until I was ready to stop my job entirely. I knew he could take care of us. I knew he wanted to. I knew he wanted me to stop working my job and spend my days helping in his office. He also knew it was what I wanted, but that I was scared to take this step. He gave me more patience than I should have needed and didn't complain about my need. He wanted me to feel right with my decision and to be happy with it. As if I could ever not be, I had more happiness with him than I had in my entire adult life. He knew that I would be hesitant and nervous, even after making my decision and telling him I was ready. He never pushed once. I don't know why I was so nervous, why I took so long to take this step. This was what I wanted so much, what I needed. This was my fantasy and desire, my core need and what I was made for.
The first day. We'd been with each other a while. We knew it was the right thing. We knew this was the last relationship/partner we would have. We hadn't moved in with each other yet, another thing he was waiting for me to tell him I was ready for. I woke up early, hadn't really slept the night before. I'd picked out my clothes and everything I would need for the day, questioning my choices more times than I could count. I took so much care in getting ready. He's already seen me in, and out of, everything I owned. I knew what he likes and had already gotten rid of what he didn't. He hasn't given me an exact time to be there in the morning, knowing how nervous I was and that I have a prepencity for running late. I knew the general time he liked to start his workday, wanting to be there for him as soon as he started. Double checking everything for the millionth time I went to my car. I could drive to his place in my sleep. I knew exactly how long it would take to get there, timing myself to be there before his second cup of coffee would be done. So anxious, excited and ready for this next step in our lives to begin.
As I pulled into his driveway I took a deep breathe, knowing today would make everything different. I had quit my job and was going to be working with him full-time. Granted, there are definitely perks to this position, I don't know what other job would give me paid time off to please my man. Even knowing this it was really important to me that I do well with the work he was going to be giving me. I'd been a working mother for a long time but none of my jobs had been in business, and I honestly was never really interested in business. Numbers have never been my thing, I don't really pay attention to the stock market and what companies are bound to succeed is a crap shoot in some respects. He told me he would teach me anything I need to know, or want to know. All of this ran through my head at a million miles an hour while I put the car in park, turned it off and got out. I walked to the front door and rang the bell. I wanted to at least try to keep things professional for work purposes. As soon as the bell rang he opened the door holding his dog. Lulu probably started barking the moment I turned toward the driveway, which means he had been standing at the door waiting for me.
As soon as the door opened and I caught sight of him, caught a whiff of his scent, all of my professionalism and work demeanor wanted to melt. I wanted to lean into him and be engulfed by the man he is. I was able to hold onto some of my work self, as long as I didn't look directly at him. It was going to take some getting used to, being here for work and not pleasure, fun and relaxation. As I had my eyes down I could sense him start to reach toward me, to lift my head. He must have realized what I was going through as he lowered his hand without touching me. He stepped back letting me in the house. As he put Lulu down he asked if I wanted anything to drink before we got started. "No thank you." At least I could get the words out clearly. I followed him to his work area. It was originally the dining room but he has several computers, monitors and televisions, as well as desk space. The larger room just made sense. He showed me where I should sit and explained the computer systems and other things to me. I spent a couple hours reading information he wanted me to learn, taking notes for myself and listing questions I wanted to ask him. I could feel his eyes on me throughout the morning. When he gave me some papers to file away for him he just watched as I did it, when I turned to see him still standing by my desk smiling I relaxed, smiling back at him. He met me halfway back to my desk, wrapping his arms around me, kissing my head, squeezing my ass. I snuggled into his chest and sighed.
When I pulled out of his arms I felt renewed. He let me go, swatting me on my ass as he went back to his desk. "Babygirl, I know you wanted to feel comfortable in your job here before I added any playtime into our workday. What can I do to help make that happen?" I picked up my list of questions from what I had been reading earlier. For each question I wrote down what he had to say and I moved my chair closer to his desk. When I started this his eyebrows raised, clearly having an idea of what I was doing. When his answers caused me to have more questions or made me comment that I wanted to learn more on the topic I didn't move my chair. I didn't want to end up at his desk before I felt like I had a better idea of my job. When this happened he frowned, or gave me a disapproving look.
By the time I had my last question answered my chair right in front of his desk. A large mahogany desk with a matching set of working tables behind him for his computers and monitors. Only a laptop and stack of papers on his desk, along with his two phones. I smiled at him, thanking him for answering my questions. He simply leaned back, smiling at me with his hands resting on the arms of his chair. I knew what he wanted, but as with every new situation, he was giving me time to figure out if I was ready for it. I put my note pad and pen on his desk, asking if there was anything else I needed to know for now, or if there was anything else he wanted from me at that time. He smiled, not giving me a verbal answer. My heart was racing. I had lasted longer than I thought I would. When we aren't being physically active I have my little side and subspace right under the surface. I had managed to keep them away while concentrating on learning my new job. I couldn't hold them back any longer.
Looking at his eyes, not saying a word, I schooched off my chair to my knees right in front of his desk. In an instant I was crawling toward him under his desk. He schooched forward in his chair, presumably to give me easier access to my target. When I got to him I ran my hands up his legs, under his pants, I kissed his legs, one then the other. I moved to inside his thighs, rubbing over his pants, nuzzling my face and head up to his crotch. At this point I felt his hand move to my head, caressing me, letting me know he approves. I reached his belt and undid it, undoing his pants as well. I heard him call me a good girl as I released his bulging manhood from their confines. He grabbed my hair, scooting his chair back and dragging me with it. This gave him more room to get in a comfortable position for what I was going to do.