You sit up fast from your bed. You need to clear head, an being here doesn't hold that chance. You stand and look at your dresser then your closet; decide that he's not going to notice anyway and start to pick out clothes. It's early evening; the sun dipping into the horizon, the moon peeking over the other one. The cool breeze driving the stifling heat back into its sleep. The night seems to forebode a deep sense of resolution. A night for going with whatever comes to mind.
The ensemble consists of a thin knee-length skirt, over the knee socks of some argyle/plaid style, clog shoes, an accentuating t-shirt, and a lack of undergarments. The last chance her man has to satisfy you before you finally call it quits. If he takes the bait, then you'll try and work through it; otherwise, there is a certain gentleman who is willing to give his all to you, including his soul. You decide an evening walk will be innocent, but the message will be given to him. "Now or never," you think as you leave your bedroom and head to leave. You keys in hand, wallet in the other, and the clock of the clogs on the linoleum signal something's not right to your man. He looks up from his place o the couch and asks, "What are you all dolled up for?"
"I'm headed to the mall with Jen. You want to go?"
"Nah, I'm good. Have a good time." The thought of him lying there while you agonize over your own fate with him resolves your decision.
"You sure? It'll only be a bit," you try one last time.
"Go ahead, I'll be fine. Oh, pick up some drinks on your way back," he says no looking from the TV.
"Sure." You try and make it sound OK. Even you can't deny the disappointment in your voice. You head for the door with tears in your eyes waiting, hoping, praying for some utterance from him that you are wanted by him. The silence as you c lose the door behind you seals everything. You need to clear your head, without a pill or drink. A walk, like you had decided; that should do the trick.
You drive to the park by your apartment; there is only one other car in the parking lot. Good, less distractions. It seems familiar, but you see a lot of these cars around. You get out and walk by the car; no heat from the engine. Its been here a while. You head off into the woods slowly; the light is enough that you can see rather well and can pick your way with out effort.
Your gentleman has called and texted a lot lately, nearly getting you caught, but without the attention of your man, there is not much to catch. You had him at your apartment even, trying to make it better with your man; still no response other than, "hey, cool, new people." The opportunity to have him struck; you took it. It helped a little bit, until you realized that your gentleman is willing, able, and ready to give you everything. You life feels complicated. You breathe trying to allow oxygen to whisk away the stress.
You realize you have been walking for a while. Everything is much darker than you had thought but you can still see well enough to make out the trails without too much stumbling. You keep walking and almost immediately feel a presence. A near tangible feeling of being prey. The hair on the back of your neck stands. Your heart slows so as not to give away your fear. Your breath goes shallow, and you stop dead in your tracks. You feel the presence move, but you hear nothing. The feeling of a prey animal has your nerves going crazy; half of them are screaming to run, the other half are bellowing to fight. Your body is having another response.
Your flight response wins, and you take off, not really caring where to but just away. As the cool night air meets bare flesh, you realize this has given your thighs a glaze. The cool breeze causes the slick glaze to feel like ice. You come around a bend in the trail and fall. You hear the foot steps of someone coming, and they slow as they get near you. A long sniff signals the person is looking for you. The depth of fear you feel has never been matched. You legs get a fresh glazing as you scramble for your feet.
A hand is around your face quicker than you could have thought. The palm encases your mouth as the other arm grips you above the breasts holding your arms down. The sheer ferocity of this man has you cowed and quite like putty in his hands. You mind lets go of everything and tries to go blank. Something is pulling you back from passing out. The strong sexual response of your body. You focus on that one idea; "without it, you may die," you think.