How many times have you come to me like this? In tears, babbling about how I'm better off with someone else and you're just going to get your things and go. "You'll be better off." You keep saying.
I've always played through the whole scene with you before. Kept at you, asking what was wrong and what I can do until you finally start opening up and tell me what the whole thing was really all about. This time, you've caught me in a bad mood as it already is. I've had a rough week at work, bills are rolling in, money's tight and I got a call yesterday from the bank. When you start with the tears and sobbing crap, I find that I have just had enough.
I lay it out for you. I don't get paid until Friday, we've put everything into the house, you layed out cash for pretty much every little cause in town, you got hit on by a national charity – another two hundred - and on top of it, it looks like you went and spent nearly three hundred dollars at the fucking spa!
To tell me this, that you realize you overdid, you bust into the whole teary eyed bullshit you always get me on and I'm apparently supposed to work on you until you feel better about fucking us up. It would be different, I tell you, if you would stick to spending your own check, but you spent mine too!
You start on that "you'd be better off with someone else, I keep telling you," and the tears are pouring out. I'm flat pissed and it's really not working, though I did notice the flick of your tongue tasting the liquid running down into the corners of your mouth.
You are so fucking beautiful it just makes me madder and even more that I find that flicker of tongue so tantalizing. I tell you "like it would make our situation now so much easier if you were someone else? You're so full of crap. All you're trying to do is get me off the subject."
More tears and now you fall to your knees. I stamp my foot and you give a little flinch. "Like I'm going to hit you? Fuck you." I say. I can't believe how angry I am and you just feed it.
We're both perfectly rational and intelligent adults and this is the most bizarre scenario I've ever had with anyone other than my father. It's not that I want to hit you, still, I just don't know anything to do that will make me feel relief and that I'm walking the path of resolution. I'm not coherent enough emotionally to reason with you.
I start to tell you this and your tongue flicks out again, slower and sensuously moves around to the other corner where it slips out a little more and pulls back within your lips until just the tip is peeking through. Despite myself and my feelings and anything else rational and purposeful, Adam's rib begins to show through my trousers. Your eyes slip down to my zipper and that makes me shove against it. Immediately, they sight in on the floorboards and I feel another flash of anger that you somehow think you've got me.
I tell you this: "don't even think we're just going to repeat the same bullshit cycle we've been on. I really am pissed off this time. Damn it, we've got to deal with this." I stamp my foot again and again you cringe visibly though minimally.
Your skirt is hiking up your thigh as you stare now at the floor. I'm still pissed, but now I have a raging hard on forcing itself upon my priorities for appeasement. I hate that I'm this fucking easy and I stamp my foot again.
This time, your cringing moves you sideways and presents one of your ass globes with the skirt at the top of the thigh/ bottom of the rounding. That does it for me. My belt rips through the loops of my pants before I have a second thought about it and I see a full shiver take your body. Your head jerks up just as I snap the leather down on the ripeness peeking out halfway under the material.