to the one who lets me float but never lets me drift. this is for you, daddy. βοΈ
--your babygirl. πΈβ¨
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he finds me in his room.
it's late--too late for this--but i never cared about time, and he stopped pretending to care the second he shut the door behind him.
i don't move. i'm sitting on the edge of his bed, legs crossed, one of his shirts draped over me like it belongs there. maybe it does. maybe i do.
his eyes drag over me, slow and deliberate. he's still in his suit, tie loosened, hair mussed like he ran his hands through it a hundred times on the way here. like he's spent the whole night trying to convince himself not to do exactly this.
"you're in my room." his voice is low.
i shrug. "you weren't using it."
his mouth presses into a tight line. "you can't keep doing this."
i tip my head, feigning innocence. "doing what?"
he exhales sharply. "you know what."
i do. i know exactly what i'm doing.
i lean back on my hands, stretching just enough to make his gaze flick down before he forces it back up. "if you really wanted me gone, you'd have thrown me out already."
his jaw clenches. i watch him fight it, watch him hold onto the last scraps of control like they mean something. like they'll save him from this. from me.
"tell me to leave, daddy" i murmur.
his eyes flick to mine, burning, furious.
but he doesn't say it.
i smile, slow and knowing, and uncross my legs. i take my time standing, stepping into his space like i have every right to be there. i do.
"tell me you don't want this," i challenge, tilting my face up to his. "tell me last night was a mistake."
his fingers twitch at his sides. he's so close, breathing hard, like he's barely holding himself back.
then he speaks, voice low, rough. "you were a mistake."
a cruel little lie.
i don't flinch. instead, i lift a hand and slip my fingers under his loosened tie, wrapping them around the silk.
"liar," i whisper.
and i pull.
just enough. just so he stumbles. just so his breath catches.
then his mouth is on mine, desperate, angry, inevitable.
he's still the boss. still the one in charge.
but i own him.
he doesn't stop me.
not when i tug on his tie, not when i bring my mouth to his, not when i press my body flush against his and sigh into the kiss like i was made for this--made for him. and i guess in a way, i was.
the thought makes me wet.
he should stop me. he should push me away.
but his hands find my waist instead, gripping tight, like he needs something to hold onto before this swallows him whole.
like i already have.
i bite his lower lip, just enough to make him groan, just enough to break the last of his restraint.
and then we're moving.
he walks me back toward the bed, his mouth trailing down my jaw, my throat, the curve of my shoulder. his hands are everywhere--possessive, desperate, like he needs to memorize every inch of me before reality crashes back in.
"tell me you thought about me today," i murmur, fingers threading into his hair.
his breath hitches against my skin.
he doesn't answer right away, but i feel it in the way he touches me, the way he fists the hem of his own shirt where it hangs loose on my body, knuckles brushing bare skin.
i press. "tell me."
his grip tightens. "i always do."
the admission is quiet, rough, like he didn't want to say it but had no choice.
my chest aches at the sound of it--at the truth i already knew but needed to hear anyway.
he always thinks about me.
even when he shouldn't.