It was a very mellow Monday morning an Annie's farm. I had slept with just Li the night before and I felt great about it. I had kissed sweet little Li and left her sleeping in my bed. I had finally starting to get over my jealousy over Katie and Adam. It was foolish, of course. I had tried to push Kate away for years, telling her to find a boyfriend her own age. Age wasn't a factor as it was when she was thirteen and fourteen and trying to be my girlfriend. I must admit that I couldn't resist her even then. Even as we grew older I tried to convince her that she needed to find someone that she might have a future with, a relationship she didn't have to hide.
We had discussed our relationship at great length, many times. It was difficult. We had been deeply in love for years, but I always knew that there was no future for two first cousins. I had told her from the very beginning. She was blind to it all at first. She was a silly little girl in the beginning. She was only thirteen, and I was seventeen, when we first got serious. She was convinced that we would find a way to make it work out. Ironically, as I was trying to convince Katie that there was no way for the two of us to have a future together, I was having the same type of discussions with her little sister, Nicole, and trying to find a way that the two of us, Nikki and I, could make it work. Nobody knew about my relationship with Nicole.
I didn't help matters. Even as I tried to push Kate away, I kept taking her into my bed, and deeper and deeper into my heart. Now here she was actually falling in love with someone that might offer her a real relationship and I was going insane with jealousy. I couldn't imagine my life without Katie. She had been at my side or just a phone call away for all those years.
To make matters worse, I was jealous of Kate; that she was stealing Adam's attention away from me. It would have been different if it was Li. She had known Adam before I did. I would have felt privileged to share Adam with Li. I had even fantasized about a relationship involving Adam, Li and me.
All these thoughts were going through my head while I brewed a pot of coffee. As I poured my first cup, Adam entered the kitchen. My emotions stirred as the coffee swirled in my cup. I loved that guy, more than I had ever loved another man. I'd had some very close friends in my life, but none so close as Adam. He had taken a very special place in my heart, very quickly. But he was poised to take my Katie away. I wanted to be happy for them, but I was struggling with that.
I stood to gain, as well. I could have Li. She loved me as much as I loved her. To start a life with Li, though, would mean going to San Francisco, at least for a while, and leaving Annie's, and all that was familiar to me. I poured Adam a cup of coffee and handed it to him, with just a nod. I was deep into my thoughts. He accepted without a word and stared silently out the kitchen window, lost in thoughts of his own.
It was becoming apparent that we were approaching a cross roads. Adam and Kate would soon leave together and Li was going to leave, with or with out me. Going to San Francisco was sounding more and more tempting. I could stay with Annie. After all, it was just Annie and me in the beginning, out there at her farm, but so much had changed since then.
I was startle by a delicate female voice, asking for a cup of coffee. It was Heather, Annie's model, turned girlfriend. She was up a little earlier than usual. I turned and looked at her lovely face. Unlike many of Annie's models, Heather looked good, first thing in morning, with no make up at all. She'd brushed her teeth, washed her face and combed her beautiful blond hair and that all she'd done to fix herself up. She wore one of Annie's large men's t-shirts and she looked gorgeous. She glanced at Adam as I poured her coffee. Adam barely acknowledged her. I new that she found him 'dreamy', but Adam kept her at a distance.
Heather looked back at me and smiled. My heart skipped a beat. We gazed into each others eyes for several seconds before she turned to fetch the cream from the fridge. I watched her walk away from me, and could tell, even through that huge, loose-fitting t-shirt, that she was shaking that ass of hers. She was, and still is, one of the sexiest women I ever knew. She took up the cream pitcher, turned and walked back to me. I could make out the shape of her ample breasts and her semi erect nipples through that loose shirt she wore. She stopped just inches from where I stood before pouring the cream into her cup. She looked up at me as she took her first sip. I felt a stirring in every fiber of my being. It was all I could do not to grab her up and kiss her.
