There is an interesting sexual dynamic between a brother and sister when they're close in age, both attractive, and both just discovering their sexuality.
I know that it was confusing for me. She was my baby sister and there was no other girl that I was as emotionally close to, but yet she was one of the most beautiful girls in town. She was my sister. I wasn't supposed to be sexually attracted to her.
"You have to take care of your sister!" Mom used to lecture to me. Then when we got to high school it was my job to defend her and lend a shoulder to cry on when her boyfriend broke up with her.
We double dated. We sat next to each other at the dinner table as the family discussed the day's events. We were brother and sister and yet there were times that I would wake up in the middle of the night with my underwear soaked, having just had a wet dream about her.
I felt that something was wrong with me. I felt that I was some sort of a pervert. It was a little help when my friend Jack, in a drunken stupor, confessed to me that when he came home from a bar, he needed to avoid his sister because he was afraid of what he'd do to her when he was drunk and horny.
At least I wasn't the only deviant one, and I doubted that I would ever do anything so drastic, but it also didn't make me feel any better about myself. It was still wrong and I was still weird.
History and Literature are rife with stories about sisters and brothers. Lord Byron had little contact with his half-sister until he was a young man. Their alleged relationship in adulthood resulted in his self-imposed exile from England. Although Heathcliffe (Wuthering Heights) was adopted, he and Catherine were raised, from an early age, as sister and brother. Their love definitely ruined their lives.
I wont try to rationalize my feelings for my sister. It was not romantic; it was lust.
I remember summer afternoons at our pool with my sister and her friends. The girls were all in bikinis, and I couldn't help but look at all of them; including my sister. She was just as pretty and sexy as any of them.
I also remember hot summer nights swimming in the pool with my sister. I always found nocturnal swimming arousing and swimming with a pretty young girl in a bikini made it even more so. The fact that it was my sister holding onto me in the dark didn't make it any less erotic, only more confusing.
One night after she left the pool and went into the house, I took off my suit and swam around nude. There was no lighting in the pool, not that anyone was looking, so my actions were obscured. I found myself so sexually charged that I had to relieve myself right in the water.
My fantasies during masturbation were also disturbing. Now there were many girls that I fantasized about, but sometimes I would succumb to fantasizing about my sister. It was somehow more erotic, but I always felt guilty about it later.
Sometimes I fantasized about being the girl having sex. Did that make me a homo? Or worse yet, I would fantasize about being my sister and having sex with me. Did that make me a pervert homo?
It is the great cosmic joke that nature makes you a sexual adult long before you mature psychologically. It's an even greater joke that sometimes, sexual urges can be stronger than the incest taboo, and thus my story.
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It was a late Sunday afternoon. Our parents had gone out to a function and would not be home till late. That left just my sister and I alone. We were often left alone, so this was not uncommon.
I was in my first year of Junior college, and Trish was finishing up high school.
I lay on the rug in the living room reading a schoolbook. My sister was off in the family room. The book held no interest for me, and since I was a teenage boy, and perpetually aroused, my thoughts were on naked girls.
I was driving my erection into the soft carpet, and fantasizing about Kathy or Julie or whomever, when I felt someone kick the sole of my foot.
"What are you doing?" It was my sister Trish.
"Reading, what do you think," was my curt reply. I looked up without turning my body, since I didn't want her to notice my erection.
Trish is tall with brownish blond hair and green eyes. She has a light Irish complexion with just the right amount of freckles. Being just eighteen, her frame was slight and willowy, but she had ample breasts. That was a genetic gift from our mom. She had been a cheerleader the last few years, and so she had a confidence in her stance. She was dressed simple enough in jeans and a t-shirt.
"I'm bored," she announced.
A smile came to my lips. "Why don't you do your homework?"
"I did it already."
"I don't know what to tell you. I've got to finish this book before tomorrow," I said as I turned back around to my book.
I felt her come close to me. I figured that she would just sit on the couch and pester me, but instead I heard her walk over me and the next thing I knew she was laying on top of me.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm bored," she repeated.
She was lying on her stomach with her head lying on top of her folded arms. "This feels nice."
"You're crushing me," I protested. What was left of my erection was being jammed into the floor.
"Are you saying I'm fat?"
She wasn't fat, by any stretch of the imagination, but being 5'10" she had some mass to her.
"Trish, are you trying to be annoying, or does it just come naturally?"
"You feel nice," she ignored me. "You'd make a nice bed." Then she changed the subject. "I'm bored Danny. Let's do something," she said as she wiggled on top of me.
If this were a girlfriend, I'd have thought that she wanted to fool around, but since it was my sister, I just figured that she was trying to annoy me.
"What do you have in mind?"
"I don't know," she answered inanely.
"I'm not here to entertain you."
"Yes you are. You are here just to entertain me," she exclaimed as she rolled over on her back. She was treating me like some kind of couch.
"Ahhh! That's it," I yelled. She wanted my attention and now she had it. I flipped over onto my back sending my sister flying. I tried to grab for her, but she was too quick. Laughing all of the way, she sprang to her feet, ran across the room and headed up the front stairs to where our bedrooms were, and for the only room with a door that lockedï€ the bathroom.
I almost got her as I sprung up the stairs but the bathroom door slammed and locked just in front of me. The only sound I heard was Trish's mocking laughter. I was infuriated.
"I can wait out here all night," I yelled through the door.
"So can I," came my sister's annoying reply.
I went down the hall to my bedroom and sat on the bed. I had a direct view of the hallway if she came out, but then I heard the sound of the shower turning on. In our house, my sister was famous for her hour-long showers.
Fuck it, I thought, and went downstairs again to my book. A couple of minutes later I heard Trish's voice from the top of the stairs.
"Danny!"
Silence.
"Danny!"
More silence.
"DANNY!!!" She screamed.
"WHAT???" I screamed back.
"Can you get me the shampoo that's in mom's shower?" she asked nonchalantly.
"Get it yourself."
"I can't. I'm naked."
"So?"
"Danny please," she cajoled. She knew I couldn't refuse her when she took that tone. No matter how much my kid sister liked to annoy me, I still loved her very much.
I went into our parent's bathroom and searched behind the shower curtain for the shampoo. I spotted one that I normally saw in our shower, and brought it upstairs.
"Trish," I announced. "Is this it?"
The door opened a crack and I could see her poke her head around from behind the door.
"Yes, that's it," she said as she reached her hand out to grab it, but I pulled it away. It was my turn to annoy her.
"Danny!" She protested.
"Come get it."
"I can't Danny. I'm naked."