Sunday, June 7, 1992:
Kami and I made love and talked most of that Saturday night and Sunday morning. It was wonderful, and we couldn't get enough of one another. Our conversation ranged over a variety of topics, but it always seemed to come back to my Mom. She was much more optimistic about my chances with Mom than I was. She seemed genuinely eager for it to happen.
"It's really special. You'll know what I mean, when it happens. My first time with Daddy is something I'll always remember. David was the same way. I love watching him and Mom make love," she said.
"Yeah, I bet."
"It'll be okay, baby. I promise. I think it's on her mind, too," she continued.
"You really do?"
"Yes, she's looking at you, baby, and she's liking what she sees. She's just feeling guilty about what she's thinking," Kami said.
"Maybe so, I just don't want to fuck everything up."
"You'll be fine. Just let things take their course. Don't pressure her. Keep complimenting her. Keep letting her see you," she suggested.
"Okay, I'll try," I offered.
"She'll keep letting you see more of her too, I think."
"I hope so," I agreed.
"Me too."
We slept for a couple of hours, before I woke a little after 6. I'd told her I'd slip out, as I needed to get home before Mom. I grabbed my things and walked downstairs. I was surprised to see Richard walk in the front door.
"Hello, Brad. Leaving already," he asked.
"Yes, sir. I need to get home before Mom gets off work."
"Oh, I see. You should probably hurry then. Thankfully, we had a very slow night, and several of the nurses were planning to leave early."
"Damn, I better go then," I said.
"Yes, you should. Did you have a good night?"
"I had a great night," I smiled.
"I thought you might," he laughed.
"Richard, I was thinking last night, after we met. I'll see if I can talk to Mom about her family. See what we can find out," I said.
"I would appreciate that, but please be careful. Your mother may not want to talk about it."
"I understand, and I will be careful," I said.
"Good, have a great day," he said.
"Yes sir, you too."
"Bed is calling me." We shook hands and he let me out the front door.
I didn't obey many of the speed limits on the way home. Fortunately, I pulled in the driveway and Mom's Honda was nowhere in sight. I slipped in the house, put up my clothes and hopped into bed like I'd been there all night. Maybe 15 minutes later, I heard Mom enter the house. I got up and brushed my teeth before I walked into the kitchen. I hadn't bothered with a shirt, just my baggy sleep shorts. She was making herself some cereal.
"Morning Mom," I said.
"Morning baby, you're up early," she said. I watched as her eyes looked me up and down.
"Yeah, I woke up when I heard you come in," I lied.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I was trying to be really quiet," she said sincerely.
"It's okay. I needed to get up for work anyway."
"You want me to make you something to eat," she asked.
"No, you sit down and relax. I'll make some eggs. Would you like some?"
"Sure, that would be really nice," she smiled. I couldn't help noticing, she'd done her makeup before her shift. Before Dad died, she rarely left for work without looking her best. I remembered her saying many times, that she did it because so many of the patients she saw were clinging to life, and she wanted them to see a kind, pretty face. She'd stopped, but I hoped she would start doing it again. Seeing her look so beautiful, I thought that if I looked up and saw her from a hospital gurney, it would give me the will to keep fighting.
She sat at the table and started on her cereal. As I got the butter and eggs from the fridge, I turned to see her watching me. She simply smiled and focused back on her breakfast. I quickly scrambled some eggs, and I noticed out of the corner of my eye, that she kept looking at me. I smiled inwardly, thinking that Kami had been right. I put the eggs on two plates and took them to the table.
"Very nice, that's service, and from a handsome young chef, too," she smiled.
"Thanks, Mom."
"No problem sweetie. I don't know if you should cook with your shirt off. You don't want to get splattered and burned," she smiled. The look in her eyes reminded me so much of Angie.
"I didn't put that much butter in the pan," I replied.
"Smart man," she said.
I sat down to eat my eggs. "So, how was your night," I asked.
"Boooorrrrriiinnngggg," she replied.
"That bad, huh?"
"Yeah, in trauma you're thankful for the slow shifts, just because, but when you're already half asleep...," she smiled.
"I understand."
"If Dr. Bennett hadn't kept walking by the desk making jokes, we'd have all fallen asleep," she laughed. "He's hilarious."
"Yeah, I bet so," I agreed. I hadn't seen much of his sense of humor, but I knew a lot more about him than Mom, I thought.
"So, how long are you working today," Mom asked.
"Probably just a few hours. I need to unload the delivery truck and a few other things."
"Oh okay. I'll be honest, I'll probably be out a while. I only got a 2-hour nap yesterday."
"That's fine Mom. Just rest. We'll make dinner tonight," I offered.
"That sounds like a great idea. Maybe you could bring a steak home for a us," she suggested.
"I could do that, any preference," I asked, with a smile.
"How about a nice, big Porterhouse, that was always your Dad's favorite. He'd eat the strip and I'd get the filet," she smiled back.
"Okay, consider it done. I'll cut it myself," I laughed.
"Good," she continued to smile.
I took our plates and put them in the sink, before I went to take my shower. After I dressed, I stopped by Mom's room to tell her goodbye. I looked in her bedroom door and watched as she walked out of the bathroom, completely naked. She was drying her hair and didn't notice me standing there in the doorway. I watched her closely. She had such a great figure for 43. Her breasts were full and as I noticed a couple days before, hardly any sag. My eyes were drawn further down, as I'd never seen that before. Her pussy was not completely bare, but it was obviously tended regularly. I thought about when I'd briefly touched her womanhood on Friday night. I longed to touch her again. I longed to pleasure her.
She stopped in front of her makeup table and brushed her long, blonde hair out. I stood there silently, barely breathing. I was thankful that the mirror was placed just right, so that she couldn't see me in the doorway. I carefully catalogued her luscious body in my mind. I admired the way her shoulders transitioned down to her slender waist and then to the curve of her hips. Her ass was unbelievable. Full, firm and round, something any woman would be proud of.
To my surprise, she took a moment to admire herself from all angles in the mirror. It was as if she was reassuring herself. She picked up a hand mirror to admire her backside. I watched her face, and I thought I saw a little bit of a smile, when she saw how great she looked from the back. She put the mirror down and turned to her bed. That was when she saw me.
"Bradley, how long have you been standing there," she shrieked. She reached for her silk robe that was hanging on the chair in front of her make-up table.
"I just walked up," I lied.
"We both need to start closing doors around here," she said, as she put the robe on. As I watched, there was a lot of adjusting the robe before the sash was finally tied. I enjoyed each additional peek of her I received. Was she flustered by catching me watching her, or was she doing intentionally? I could only wonder.
"Yeah, maybe," I said.
She shook her head slowly and smiled.
"Get to work, I'm going to bed," she said.
"You sure you don't want me to tuck you in," I asked. I was getting bolder with her, I knew, but I was curious how she'd react.
"Yes, I'm very sure. You've been acting differently lately, Bradley, what has gotten into you?"
"Nothing, I was just offering," I said with a smile.
"You tucked me into bed once this weekend, already. You should go to work," she smiled, shaking her head.
"Ok, bye mom. Love you."
"I love you, too. If you find my old son, bring him back home, please," she smiled.
"I will, Mom," I said, returning the smile.
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When I got to work, Lloyd was there. I was surprised, since he rarely worked weekends.
"What are you doing here," I asked.
"The boss got a big special order last night, I hope we have enough to fill it," he said.
"Oh, great," I replied.
"Yeah, 200 T-bones. Some big barbeque."
"I guess we better get to work, then," I said.
We sawed T-bones most of the morning. Lloyd and I worked well together, as he ran the short loins across the band saw, I cleaned the cuts and got them ready for packaging. We'd started with the Select and Choice short loins, but ended up cutting everything we had in the cooler, including 4 that were graded Prime.
"They're gonna shit themselves, when they see the cost of these," Lloyd laughed, "But look at that marbling. Some lucky bastard is going to have a nice meal."
We were just getting to the end of our last short loin, when I remembered I was supposed to bring home a steak for dinner. I told Lloyd and we realized we were a little short on the order.
"You know what I say," he said.
"What," I smiled.
"Fuck 'em. They should have called earlier. We'll cut this last one for you and your Mom. It's prime, but just ring this one up as regular," he said.