This is a work of fiction.
Sometimes I wonder if life gets easier. My Mom, Jeanne, used to tell me that "Every experience is just a part of growing up Bobby". Well if it was then it was literally hell growing up. At least for me it was (computers, debate team, etc, you get the idea, half nerd, half normal guy, still an outcast), my sister Holly on the other hand seemed to have it easy. She graduated 2 years ago and got a scholarship to one of the local community colleges (she still stays at home in her old room to save money).
So here I am sitting in my room staring at my computer screen wondering just what the hell was I going to do tonight. It's been exactly one week since I had graduated high school and so far all I had managed to do for this summer so far was sit in my room and play games and watch TV.
The big plan was to start searching for a summer job and make a little money before classes started next fall for community college. I would do the same as sis and stay at home for my first 2 years then if I got accepted to a 4 year school would see what my options were. It's not that I didn't have friends, I did, I was just depressed for another reason. I am still a virgin. Yup, while some guys get laid early on in life I was one of the lesser' on the social scale. I'm one of the nervous fidgety types that get tongue tied and feel my stomach tie up in knots when it comes to asking women out on a date. I've reasoned it out a thousand times and I still can't seem to get a grip on things when it comes to women. And for that reason I am a virgin.
It's not that I can't talk to women; I can, just when it comes to the asking out part my fear of rejection overrides my hormones. And I know I'm not a bad looking guy, I started lifting weights every day this past year and do cardio at the gym every other day, sometimes the bike, sometimes the treadmill, I keep myself in shape. At 5'10", 180 lbs with brown hair and blue eyes I'd say I look pretty good for an 18 year old. My mom tells me I got my dad's good looks and that's about the only thing of his I take after.
Oh well, I still got internet porn and hand lotion, someday I'll get over my fear, just takes time I guess.
Glancing at the clock on the bedside table it was 4 pm, mom should be home soon and my sister Holly wouldn't be too long behind her. Guess jerking off will have to wait till later tonight. Might as well head downstairs and see whats on TV.
Flipping through the channels sitting there in my sweat pants and t-shirt I hear a car pull up in the driveway and into the garage. After a couple minutes I hear a key in the lock and my mom opens the door and walks in.
Now some people just look at their mother as their mother, they never really notice how attractive or unattractive they are. My mother Jeanne was attractive; I first noticed how she looked when I hit puberty. At 5'6" she couldn't have been more than 115 lbs, with the stylish short brunette hair and blue eyes she had a stare that could pin you to the wall (I know, when I got in trouble in my younger days she always used it). And she had the most perfect set of big tits I had ever seen on a woman, I don't know the size, but if I were to guess I would have to say in 36+DD range. Overall she was a knockout, even if she didn't like to flaunt it very often.
Mom was a very successful real estate agent; she could sell almost anything if it was planted into the ground. Right before I was born our dad had run out on us, mom said he had given the excuse he just couldn't be a family man and left one night. Mom said she had never heard from him again, good riddance I thought. After I was born mom had already finished high school so she decided to get a job as a secretary to one of the real estate firms in the nearby city. She worked there for 3 years learning all about the business and finally became a real estate agent herself. She opened her own agency after 5 years of being in the business and now after only 10 years she had a well earned reputation and a very comfortable living for herself and us.
Today she had on the light blue silk blouse with navy blue skirt, with high heels. A conservative look to be sure but it still didn't hide the fact she had something up top that made men drool after her.
Noticing me on the couch "Hi Honey, how was your day?" she says while leaning to kiss me on the forehead.
"Just another day" I replied sighing. Hoping she would leave it at that I start flipping through the channels again.
Of course, she didn't.
"Bobby whats wrong?" she asks while sitting next to me and looking at me with that concerned mother look.
"Mom its nothing, it's just guy stuff, don't worry about it" I replied.
"Guy stuff huh? Is it about girls?" she asked.
With my face reddening a bit I keep my mouth shut hoping she'll take the hint and not embarrass me any further.
"Honey talk to me please?" she says while stroking my hair like she used to when I was little.
Why can't I ever just keep my mouth shut or tell a really good lie every now and then I wonder.
"Yes if you must know it's about girls." I said flipping through the channels.
She looked at me for a few seconds then took the remote out of my hand and turned off the TV.
"Look at me Bobby." She said.
It was the same voice she used when she wanted my attention and it was damned hard to ignore, so I didn't. I turned and looked at her and she just smiled still stroking my hair and asked me "Now whats the problem sweetie?"
For some strange reason my mom sitting there looking at me so concerned and understanding like and smoothing my hair back had a type of hypnotic effect on me.
And all at once I just blurted out "Mom I'm a virgin!"
Now with my face as red as some of the wine she had in the fridge I buried my face in my hands and just sat there. Her hand had stopped and moved to my shoulder, I felt her give me a gentle squeeze.
"Honey look at me." She said.
I looked up and she was still smiling.
"It happens for everyone at some point in their life, for some it takes longer than others, it's nothing to get upset about." She said soothingly.
"Yea I guess." I reply looking back at the TV.
"Have you been on any dates lately?" She asked.
I guess one thing I should come clean about. Every now and then just to keep up an illusion of a normal teenage boy I would on occasion borrow the car on a Friday or Saturday and go out of town on the pretense of having a date. I get the suspicion my sister knew I wasn't going on a date, but I'm pretty sure I fooled my mom into believing it. And now I'm pretty much fucked I thought.
Sighing to myself I decided to tell mom the truth.
"Mom I've never been on a date before" I said still looking at a blank TV screen.
I glance over at my mother and see the shocked look on her face, just sitting there looking at me in disbelief.
"It's true, all those times you loaned me the car I drove over to the mall or across town to the movies or the bookstores and just hung out there, sometimes with friends and sometimes by myself." I said. Glad to finally get it off my chest.