Jennifer kicked off her shoes and folded her legs underneath her as she sat down on the couch, and Deborah took her seat in her easy chair.
"So, Jenny, what's new in your life?" Deborah asked.
Jennifer sighed and blew a lock of her blonde hair out of her face, "Not too much, just taking everything day by day, like normal. Well, there is one thing..."
"And what might that be?"
Jennifer sighed and glanced out the window before looking back to Deborah.
"Shawn's been spying on me." She said, "At first I wasn't sure, but I caught him. He just doesn't know because I didn't confront him about it. I think it started last Saturday. You ever had that feeling where you think you see something out of the corner of your eye, but when you look there's nothing there? Well, that's what it felt like. Like there was someone watching me when I got out of the shower. But Shawn was still asleep, and I didn't see or hear anything. But then a couple days later, on Tuesday I think, I actually saw him."
Jennifer got up and went to the mini fridge and grabbed a Diet Coke. She sat down, took a drink and took a deep breath.
"Again I had just gotten out of the shower, I must have accidentally left the bedroom door slightly open, and I glanced in the mirror and could see him peeking in. The mirror was angled just the right way so I could see him. I don't know what came over me, but I figured if he wanted a show I'd give him one. I finished drying myself off, and then admired myself in the mirror. I turned this way and that, stretched out and just let him see me. I have to admit I was kind of admiring myself as well. I certainly don't look like the mother of a teenager. Hell, he's almost 20. It seems like just yesterday I was bringing him home from the hospital. Anyways, after a bit I noticed he was gone."
She took a sip of her soda, and took a deep breath.
"Then a couple days later I caught him watching me again, this time I had intentionally left the bedroom door slightly open. I'm still not sure why I did that. But I did, I guess a part of me wanted to show off for him again. So when I noticed him I gave him another show, but something came over me as I was looking at myself and watching his reflection in the mirror. I started touching myself, and before I realized what I was doing, I was masturbating in front of the mirror, watching him through half closed eyes, and I'm pretty sure he was masturbating as well. Debbie, I wanted... I wanted him to come in and... Jesus, I can't believe I'm about to say this... I wanted him to fuck me."
Deborah didn't say anything, Jennifer adjusted the way she was sitting, took another drink of soda, and looked at the ceiling, out the window and down at the carpet. Anywhere but at the woman who had been counseling her and her son for the past five and a half years.
"When I finished, I noticed he was gone, probably went to finish in private, but I couldn't believe myself. I'd never even thought about him that way before, but at that moment, I'm telling you Debbie, if he had walked in on me, I would have fucked him..." Jennifer snapped her fingers, "...like that. Then just the other day, Sunday, I walked in on him masturbating."
"How did he react?" she asked, knowing full well how he reacted, but wanted to hear it from Jennifer's perspective.
"He didn't realize I was there at first, and Debbie, I couldn't believe how big he was." Jennifer said, recalling the morning in question in her mind's eye, "I mean the last time I saw him naked he was three years old, and his father and I were chasing him through the house trying to get him to take a bath."
She laughed a bit, remembering chasing a laughing, screaming, naked toddler through the house.
"But this was the first time I'd seen him since he'd grown up. I gasped in surprise at how big he was, that's when he saw me, covered up and turned away from me. I apologized, and left the room, but again Debbie, I wanted to tear off my clothes and just jump into bed with him."
"What happened after that?" Deborah asked.
"I went downstairs and made breakfast," Jennifer said, "Shawn came down a few minutes later and neither one of us mentioned what had just happened. That was the end of it. But I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I mean it's been about..." She did some mental math. "...ten years or so since I had dick, give or take a couple of months. Before that, Steve and I had sex almost every day. Hell we were screwing like rabbits pretty much since day one. Well not literally, we didn't sleep together until our fifth date, but after that it seemed like every time we were together we had sex. Once we moved in together it was literally every day, especially in the weeks leading up to our wedding. Hell, I got pregnant during our honeymoon, and we fucked all throughout my pregnancy, right up until the doctor advised us to stop. After Shawn was born, as soon as we could we picked up right where we left off. It tapered off slowly, as we now had a child to raise, but we still managed to have sex at least 2-3 times a week. Until things... you know..."
Jennifer didn't like talking about how she and her husband, Steve, grew apart, she had already talked to Debbie enough about it over the years. Truth is, to this day she still wasn't sure what happened. Just one day, the feelings weren't there anymore for either of them, they both loved Shawn, but their feelings for each other were gone. They still cared about each other, but they didn't love each other anymore. The feelings that had brought them together in the first place were no longer there. In the five years since the divorce they had only spoken three times. Steve had sent birthday cards and called on Shawn's birthday for the first three years, but the last two years had only sent a card with some cash.
"I know," Deborah said, "You don't have to say it."
"Anyway, the point is, I haven't been fucked in a long time." Jennifer said, "And seeing Shawn naked got me thinking about that, and I've been wondering for the past couple of days what would have happened if he had walked in on me, or if I had acted on my impulses when I walked in on him. God, I'm so fuckin' horny right now. I'm gonna need some me time when I get home, if you know what I mean." Jennifer said, laughing.
