So far:
I fancy my slightly older sister, Jenny. It seems mutual. We have played a clothes swapping game. She wanted to watch me wear more of her clothes and wank while she fingered herself underneath a blanket. Jenny played with my cock and we told each other our fantasies. Mine are about being dominated. Hers was about watching me have sex with another boy - and it made me cum in front of her.
Overview of this chapter:
In this chapter Jenny gets us to swap underpants and meet up during lunchtime at school to show and tell. When we get home she asks me to wank for her and gives me a female anatomy lesson.
'Yes. Jenny, it's you. Oh Jenny I think about you. I love you. You are my sister. You are beautiful Jenny. Really. I mean it. I love you. I love you like a big brother and I want to look after you and protect you. I really respect you. You are smart and I know you'll be a big success one day. And you are also so beautiful that I just can't help it, but I really, really, really, you know -- like -- you. I so want to be closer to you. Really close -- umm you know'. I paused then added 'Everything about you turns me on' (Jenny was a big Police fan and I thought it wouldn't hurt to say that).
'OK. OK. I get the message. Thanks Ian. You are my brother and I love you too.'
The way she said 'love' made me look carefully at her face (for a change!). I mean English really makes the word love work hard. I had a hunch -- or desperate wish - that my sister didn't mean it sarcastically or '2. Familial affection' and instead meant '4. 'Sexual desire'. (Try as they might school dictionaries still contained a few 'rude' words').
For some inexplicable reason (probably because I was stupid) I asked a dumb question.
'Hey, you found the Y pretty easily. Have you worn my undies before?'
A momentary blush passed across my sister's smooth white tits. She gave her thighs an extra big squeeze and slipped her fingers into the Y again.
'Yes little', she looked at my crotch and smiles, 'yes actually-quite-big-brother; I have worn your undies before. Why? I think for the same reason you wear mine. I like the thrill of it being so naughty.'
I was shivering with nervousness but I just had to ask.
'What do you think about?'
Jenny paused. Really paused. For a moment she stopped rubbing and slowly pulled her fingers out. She looked at her fingers, looked at my cock
'Well, my thoughts are sometimes about watching boys when they don't see me or think I'm another boy. I umm, well, I think it would be cool to watch two boys play with each other. You know, show each other their dicks and stuff.'
I so wanted to hear more of Jenny's naughty thoughts. Like most boys of my age I had fooled around with male friends. The idea of Jenny watching me do that was all it took -- I came in several shuddering spurts.
Jenny was startled and I was embarrassed. I tried to apologise but she just said I should maybe go and get cleaned up. I left her room cursing my quick trigger and did as she had suggested. When I came out of my room I noticed she had shut the door to her room. I tried listening outside but she called out, 'Ian -- ok I admit it! I'm wanking! Now leave me in peace for a few minutes. Maybe next time you can watch.'
With that on offer -- even though I knew it wasn't true - I couldn't very well disobey so I sat nervously in the lounge and soon Jenny emerged and behaved as if nothing had happened. I was too confused and scared to mention it so the rest of the evening went like a normal Friday.
But I resolved to tell Jenny about my experiences with other boys the next time we were 'playing'.
After that tumultuous Friday, the weekend and the start of the next week were uneventful, though I was very nervous and started every time my sister Jenny came into a room. Mum and even Dad picked up on it and wanted to know what the problem was. We both insisted there was no problem.
But I was worried she had said something to Mum because, against all odds, Dad chose this week to give me a talk about sex. He was reassuring and honest, just too late as I'd heard it all from friends and seen it all in porn mags -- usually Dad's. I was reassuring in turn and had to admit that there was no prospect of anything.
Dad was then uncharacteristically embarrassed and told me that masturbation was perfectly normal and harmless. I said I knew that. Then Dad mentioned in the most gentle way that some teenage boys used a handkerchief to ejaculate into instead of staining the sheets. Ooops. It had never occurred to me. Sure, when I stripped the sheets off my bed they were spotted with cum stains but I had never thought anything of it.
In one of our rare conversations when we had no chance of being overheard, I mentioned Dad's talk. Jenny said she'd just had the birds and bees talk from Mum as well. Uh oh. Did they know or suspect? The next day Mum and Dad called us together to explain a new house rule. We quickly looked at each other. Had we been found out?
No, it seemed not. Mum and Dad announced they were placing a bowl of condoms on the hall table. We were free to take as many as we wished -- we could even give them to friends whose parents were 'strict', but we should make sure the friends kept quiet about the source.
Yes, yes, they explained, they knew this was years and years too early and they knew we really didn't need them. But, this was like the wine with dinners. I need to explain, that the Greek heritage meant that our parents regarded alcohol as normal and they just didn't understand the 'Anglo Saxon booze culture'.
For this reason we'd been used to the occasional small glass of wine with dinner. Mum and Dad's theory was that this would demystify alcohol and teach us control. It seems to have worked and now, many years later, I can honestly say I have almost never been drunk and I can take or leave booze. So, they explained, they wanted to make sure we gained the same skills towards safe sex.
I want to pause a moment and remind readers that this was a staggeringly liberal view for the time. Australia was a very uptight society then and condoms had only begun to be talked about in the wake of the AIDS crisis.
Anyhow, Dad said the bowl would be refilled once a month, no questions asked, no counting how many were used or anything like that. He stressed there was no pressure to have sex but if we did we had to use a condom. This was at the height of when AIDS was recognized as an 'anyone' disease. We had lessons in school about condom use. Excruciatingly embarrassing lessons where we fitted condoms to featureless wooden sections of broom handle.
Dad suggested that to save embarrassment we should each take a few out each month. We could stockpile them or throw them out. We both protested we had no need for them and they said it didn't matter -- maybe we knew some friends who would need them. I stole a glance in case Jenny's face suggested she did. Nope. Nothing. Yuck. How embarrassing to have your parents talk like that. I was mortified. How much did they know or suspect?
As the week wore on I hadn't had the nerve to discuss it with Jenny, but I assumed and hoped that Friday would bring another 'session'. Then it was Friday and we hadn't arranged anything. On Friday morning I was getting up and was just about to put on my school uniform when my sister Jenny quietly slipped in through my half open bedroom door.
We were both wearing the long t-shirts that passed as pyjamas in our house. Most times I didn't wear anything else but since it was getting a little colder I had worn my underpants to bed and I knew that Jenny usually wore panties. Jenny held up a finger to her lips to hush me and pushed the door almost closed. I stood still -- instantly erect. She whispered 'Are you wearing undies?'
I didn't make the connection and she had to repeat it before I nodded and pointed to a rapidly growing erection that was poking up under the t-shirt -- even though I had really only just finished my regular 'wake up wank'. Did you do this at that age? Every morning I would lie in that halfway between awake and asleep and wank. Then I'd lay blissed out for a few minutes in the afterglow before finally getting out of bed.