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My dad was eating breakfast. I walked up behind him and put my arms around his neck and snuggled my head against the back of his. I let go and went around to eat my breakfast. I just finished giving him some fresh coffee. After a few moments he instinctively rubbed his hand on the back of his head to be sure his hair was still smooth. His eyes never left the paper.
I went over and climbed in bed with my dad the night before. He had a big queen size bed like mine. I lay there, quiet, then I touched his feet with mine. He didn't seem to mind then he moved his feet away. I listened to him breathing then went back to my bedroom.
Mom was gone. Dad was lonely. I was lonely. We both missed mom even tho it has been a long time. I'm 19. I live at home and work at the college and take some courses free while working there. Dad and I get along good. We talk a lot and go to dinner and places. He's standoffish with me. I think more or less it's a moral thing with him.
I always gave dad as many hugs and pecks as mom. Mom gave back. Dad patted me on my arm. I casually said once I might look for an apartment of my own and he almost died. He hid it but I could tell. He didn't want to be alone but he wasn't looking to find someone else.
I wasn't trying to get him in the sack. He was already in the sack. I was trying to get in there with him. Well, no I wasn't. That wasn't it. What it was is he has no companionship so I thought he probably took care of his personal needs himself so I thought if he had a mental connection with a female it might be more satisfying to him when he did take care of it himself. Yes. That was it exactly. I'm glad I finally got it out.
I had personal needs too but I wasn't ready to go down to the firehouse and shout it out yet. I didn't particularly need a mental connection, I do just fine all by myself. Sometimes I do a great job all by myself. Every now and then it gets to be a spectacular great job all by myself. When dad isn't home. I'm not telling about those.
I thought about telling him what I wanted to do but I don't think it would make things better. Probably worse. He would be watching for it and out would come his sword and shield. Well, shield anyways. His sword was the problem. I had a nice smile at that one. Surprised myself sometimes.
One day while we were walking down the street shopping I reached over and held his hand. He let me for a long time. Later that evening he said, "Cathy, I'm a little uncomfortable holding your hand. It doesn't seem right."
I said, "Yes, I know dad. That's why I'm doing it. You've told me many times I remind you of mom. I'm not trying to replace her and you're not trying to treat me like her but sometimes if we're a little closer it might remind you more of her when you need her. I thought it might help and I don't mind and kind of like it sometimes. Maybe we could miss her together in some ways."
Now, there is no way a man could possible figure that out or possibly find any way to respond and make any sense at all. He would have to accept whatever it means because it absolutely means everything and nothing at all so I was free to pursue any avenue I wanted to. Dad had been had. It was pure genius. It's like saying, "Are you sure you don't want me to stop not doing what I'm not doing again."
The next evening I put on my thickest pjs and thickest robe and went over and sat up against one of his pillows reading while he was taking a shower. He came back and immediately went back in the bath. I think he wasn't dressed. I didn't look. He came back in pjs and climbed in bed. I said, "Night dad," and went off to bed.
The next night I did that with the robe hanging undone. The next night I did that with the robe lying alongside me. The next night he didn't take a shower and was in bed so I said 'night dad' from the door. Then I just wore pjs watching tv late in the evening with him. He was comfortable with that. I did wear a sleep bra so he wouldn't see jiggling boobs and go to bed early.
Then I got a break. I finished up the kitchen early and changed and went into the den. Dad was sitting up coughing a little and I smelled sex. He could easily hear me finishing up and going to my bedroom and coming back. He couldn't have finished. I reached over the back of the sofa and gave him a hug and he put his hands on mine and pressed. He acted a little nervous for a while.
When he went to bed I said, "I'll be over in a few minutes dad."
He said, "Ok."
I went a got something and went over and climbed in and turned out the light on my side. I said, "Could you turn out your light please and face the other way and don't say anything. Nothing at all." He did. I turned away from him and scrunched backwards until our bottoms touched. I reached over and handed him a condom. I could hear his breath when he realized what it was.
"Cathy," he said, "I can't."
"I know," I said. "You're not going to. That's for you, not me. Pay attention to what you're doing please." I reached my hands back and pulled his pj bottoms down around his knees, maybe a little lower. He let me. I could tell when he pulled them out so they would go down. I waited.
He was quiet then I felt him moving a little and then moving different and he kept going like that. I said, "Enjoy yourself. Don't stop." I pushed my pjs down around my knees and rubbed bare bottoms with him. He didn't stop moving. Some time went by. I guess he was getting into a groove with the situation and starting to let it work.
I rubbed bottoms with him, getting a bun against his butt crack. Sometimes he couldn't help rubbing back or maybe he was thrusting a little. He got active and I tried not to do anything but rub bottoms and he had an orgasm. A long one too. After he settled down I felt him take off the condom and calm down more. He reached over and held my hand and later I went to my bedroom. I thought it went really good. I love the smell of sex.
I let things go for about a week so he could think about it. We did hold hands more when out, not close in to people like in a restaurant. Just on the streets or beach. I wore a sleep bra sometimes so he would feel something was different.
The following Monday night I got a condom and went over again. Same setup. Gave him the condom. I got his pjs down and mine down. He rustled around a little and then his hand came back over me and he handed me something. It was a little silver vibrator. I turned it on and went 'wow dad'. I slipped my pj bottoms off and got our bottoms together again.
He got started and I lifted a leg and planted my foot and turned the vibrator on and went right to my clit. I had two orgasms to his one and you can't believe how active our bottoms were that time. He settled down and I settled down and turned over and wrapped my arms around his waist. His pj bottoms were still down and mine were still off and I didn't care. I got his buns right into my saddle and just loved it.
About ten minutes and I was off to bed, my pj bottoms in my hands. The next day was normal. We didn't mention it but he smiled more and was more interactive and lively. I don't think I've seen him like that in a long time. Whatever he needed he was getting. I was thinking of ways to expand it without alarming him.
I kept the vibrator and we enjoyed each other four more times like that. I asked if he might like to get the type of condoms he preferred and he smiled and said, 'sure, thank you.'
He was still distance most of the time. He wanted to be more personable with me but didn't know how. I was looking for ways to be more intimate. Not lovers, just intimate. Frankly I wanted to play with his penis for a while. I thought maybe he could play with me and I could play with him. That should be great fun. His orgasms would be better and mine too. It wasn't rocket science.
I didn't make a habit of going over to his bedroom in the evenings, just every now and then. As much as I thought he could tolerate. The next time I went over I snuggled up to him and said, "Dad. Thanks for letting me come over every so often. Sex is very exciting for me right now and I really don't want to go out hunting guys.
"I'm also trying to fill a need for you. There's a lot of ways we can be more intimate without being more intimate. That kind of thing. I'm willing to try a few mind boggling things if you can teach me."
We stayed that way a few moments and he took his pj bottoms off. I took mine off. I was spooning him. He moved around a little and reached over and got my hand and pulled it over and put it around his dick. I raised my head off the pillow, mouth fully open and eyes about to pop out. I had a dick. In my hand. It was plastic. He had his condom on.
It was alive. The damn thing moved in my hand. I played with it and finally found out where all the parts were. He thrust up through my hand. His butt was playing with me. I could hardly keep from throwing a leg over his hip. My other hand was useless but I didn't want it to separate my clit from his buns so I left my clit alone.
After a while he put a hand over mine which was over his dick. My hand was around a dick, a real one. He started to move my hand up and down. I knew he was teaching me to jack him off. Not the porn kind, the real kind. He took his hand and my hand off and reversed them. He did the jacking for real and I followed on top. He went faster and slower and let go and I got back on.
He started thrusting again, slowly. It didn't make any difference at all that he had a condom on. Everything was perfect. It wasn't long and I felt his arm over his hip and his hand make its way down between my thighs. He didn't stop at my clit but felt me up all the way down. I lifted my knee and draped it against his hip and adjusted so his hand felt comfortable, not squeezed.
He dipped into my vagina a few times and my clit got wet and he settled on it and started jacking my hood. He was thrusting into my hand, I was thrusting into his. It was probably fifteen or twenty minutes and I heard a couple of low groans and his hips got more active and he got more active on my clit.
I was starting to get bent out of shape but held on and did my job on his dick. I started jacking faster and he got faster and then he jammed his dick hard up through my hand and a beat and he pulled back and pushed through again. I kept jacking all this time while he was pushing his sperm out.
Dad never stopped working my clit and with his orgasm it was only a minute or two and I had a very nice orgasm. I got out a couple of pretty good Ugggghhhh's and fucked into his hand as hard as I could. That was one of the best fucking orgasms I've ever had. Well, hand orgasms I guess.