The sunlight filled the room, waking me up. It took me a minute to get my bearings and remember where I was. And then...I remembered it all...the kisses...the passion...my brother's moans and comments to me. I looked around and realized I was alone in bed. Surely my brother was as embarrassed as I...and he wanted to avoid the awkwardness that was surely on the way. As I woke up, I realized that Andy must have lit the pilot light in the furnace as warmth filled the cabin.
I looked at the clock and realized that it was 3:00 in the afternoon. We must have finally fallen asleep around 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning, and given what he transpired, I think both of us fell into pure exhaustion. Outside the cabin, the wind continued to howl and snow fell in large, wet flakes. There was no way were going into town for dinner. It looked like we would be cabin bound for a day or two. The diversion of being out in public now a non-starter, I got up and put on some clothes and headed for the kitchen or living room, ready for the awkward conversation and expression of regrets that was sure to follow.
I walked into the living room and stopped dead in my tracks as I saw Andy. He had a single, scented candle lit on the coffee table. Soft acoustic guitar music played on his I-Pad. Two glasses of wine were placed on the coffee table. But that wasn't what made me stop, gasp and stare. Like me, Andy had gotten dressed. But it wasn't that he was dressed that froze me...it was how he was dressed. Andy must have gone into our sister's room and put on one of her little black dresses...along with thigh high stockings, strappy heels...and lipstick.
I started to ask what the heck he was doing but in a soft voice, he whispered: "Jim...please...please tell me I am your sweetheart....your honey. Please tell me that it wasn't just your need to get off speaking last night".
I didn't say a word. I reached for him. And he melted into my arms. Andy and I began kissing again...but this time they were tender, sweet kisses. I whispered in his ear: "My sweet love. I am yours....as I want you to be mine....forever".
I broke our kiss just long enough to start a fire in the living room fireplace. Soon, the crackling of wood and warmth of the fire filled the air, along with the simply soft sounds of the guitar. I stood up and extended my hand to him. He stood...and...we began to dance.
We danced....oh how we danced. We danced as if it was our wedding night. I held him tenderly in my arms as we swayed back and forth. My hands on his hips....or the small of his back as we lost ourselves in the music. And we kissed...and kissed.....and kissed. We kissed until our lips were raw and worn out. We sat down on the sofa in front of the fireplace. Sipping our wine, we cuddled, kissed and held on to one another. I lowered the strap of his dress off his right shoulder...and lowered my lips and began kissing his breast. My lips and tongue found his nipple and began licking...kissing and sucking. Andy moaned...and threw his head back, holding my head in place.
My body was trembling...that part of me that tried to stop this last night was now gone forever. In its place was pure love and desire. Lust and affection. I looked into my brother's face and heard myself whisper: "Andy...I'm going to make love to you tonight".