I awoke in my big brother's arms, feeling his kiss upon the tip of my nose. Slowly, I stirred against him, my nude body pressing against his underneath the covers of my bed. When I finally opened my eyes, I had to close them again as he was about to kiss my left eye.
"You're silly," I giggled, giving him a gentle squeeze.
"I can't help it," he replied just as quietly. "You're beautiful."
That compliment warmed me and brought a smile to my face. "Even when I'm barely awake, you make me feel beautiful... and sexy."
"You're definitely very sexy," he affirmed, punctuating his agreement by squeezing me between my thighs, and my body involuntarily pressed against his hand. We shared a knowing smile, and I am certain that my eyes mirrored the deep, heartfelt love I saw burning in his eyes.
His hand did not move from my sex. He continued to squeeze me gently, rhythmically, and I continued to press myself into his hand. "No," he chastised me softly as my eyes fluttered closed, "look at me." I gazed into his eyes and I lost myself...
I had read many fantasy novels in which people would look into the eye of a dragon and see unbelievable things, or see the past, or perhaps see the future. That moment was a very similar one for me, for as I gazed into my big brother's eyes, I saw something at once fully believable, deeply desired, and utterly unlikely:
I saw myself, wearing a pure white wedding dress with a long train, holding a beautiful large bouquet as I slowly walked down the lengthy center aisle of a massive cathedral, my smiling lips and sparkling eyes unmistakable through the veil, my father looking quite smart in a tuxedo as he escorted me toward the alter where a priest stood watch and my forbidden lover awaited with such a bright, intense glow of radiating love that everyone in the cathedral should truly have been blinded...
A tear fell down my cheek, for that vision would never become reality. As gently as a warm summer breeze, the tear was plucked from my cheek long before it could tumble to the pillow. As each tear of sadness trickled from my eye, my big brother kissed it away, his hand still continuing to apply its sweet pressure to my wet womanhood.
"I love you, baby sister," he whispered, then he kissed my lips softly. He swallowed my quiet sobs as I continued to move against his squeezing hand, my heart breaking knowing that the vision I had seen in his eyes would never come to fruition. I would never be permitted to have the stereotypical big church wedding which virtually every girl dreams of from a young age. I would never be permitted to marry – at least, I would never be permitted to marry the one person I truly loved, the one person who knew me better than anyone else on the planet, the one person who completed me so perfectly that we were essentially two halves of a whole.