I mentioned before that the ladies of my house told each other everything they knew about me. If they found out something going on in my life, it was openly discussed amongst them at the kitchen table, right in front of me. I said that they had secrets, and I had none.
But, that isn't quite right. While it's true that my secrets were openly dissected and theirs weren't, the fact is: they had secrets, and I knew quite a few. I just didn't talk openly about them.
I was their secret keeper. For whatever reason, my sisters liked to tell me the things they wanted to keep hidden. Maybe it was because I didn't talk much. Maybe it was that they just needed to speak with someone who they knew would listen. Maybe they wanted to impress me. Whatever. My sisters snuggled up and told me their secrets.
After lunch on the day that Mom had used her mouth on my penis for the second time, Emma decided to share a secret concern.
I had just finished eating lunch after a workout and a shower. Lia was out. I was on the couch, ensconced in my fuzzy blanket, taking a nap.
I was almost asleep when I heard Emma. "Hey, fuzzy boy, can I snuggle?"
I nodded and opened the blanket.
She slid in against me, and I wrapped us both together. Her frizzy hairs tangled themselves in my whiskers, and I wiped them from my chin.
"You're warm," she mentioned.
"Just showered."
"Oh," she said, "Do you know Kevin Waller?"
"Year above you in school? Dark hair, kinda short?"
"Yes, and he's not short. You're tall."
I grunted. Then, I said, "What about him?"
"He's my boyfriend."
"Yeah?"
"I really like him."
I grunted.
"Secret time?"
This was how she asked if I would keep matters private. I said, "Yeah."
She said, "We're starting to do stuff together—sex stuff."
I didn't respond.
"I think I'm going to let him be my first, let him fuck me."
"Em!"
"Oh, come on! Don't be like Mom and Lia. I like cuss words."
I grunted.
"Whatever. Look, I want to ask you something."
I waited.
"Every time we're together, he wants me to give him a blowjob, but he won't—you know—reciprocate. Is that normal?"
"Huh?"
"Do most boys think pussies are gross or something and won't eat a girl out?"
"No."
"I really want him to. That isn't wrong, is it?"
"No."
"It's only fair, isn't it?"
"Yeah."
"It makes me feel like I'm gross or something down there."
I said, "Dump him."
"No! I like him. That's the only thing. Everything else is perfect."
I grunted.
We laid together in silence for a time. Finally, Emma said, "Will you..." She stopped herself, and then, quickly, said, "Forget it."
"What?"
"Nothing."
I didn't pursue it, and a few seconds later, she rose and left without a word.
***
Mom sat on the couch beside me after she came home from work in the late afternoon. "I have a meeting tomorrow morning, and I won't be able to be home for you."
"Okay."
"Thank you, baby. If you don't mind, then, I'm going to ask Lia if she might be willing to be in the room with you, should you need it. Will that be satisfactory?"
"Yeah."
"Oh, I'm so sorry. I'd really like to be there for you, but this meeting is very important."
"Be fine, Mom."
"Just let Lia know if you need her help, okay?"
I nodded.
She kissed my forehead and left to make dinner.
Emma ended up staying the night at a friend's house; we didn't see her that evening.
After dinner, I grabbed my big blanket and laid on the couch. Mom was on the phone in her room, talking to her sister.
Lia, wearing a new set of form-fitting pants, came into the family room.
She climbed on top of me, blanket and all, and sort of clutched my body in her arms and legs. "Did you talk to Mom?" she asked, her voice full of gloom.
"Yeah."
She nodded. "Me, too." She hugged me and said, "I'm sorry about the other day."
"Huh?"
"Masturbating you—I'm sorry."
"Why?"
"It's disgusting, being treated the way Mom is treating you—like you're some sort of sperm donor. You don't want your mother and sister even watching you do something so private and intimate, much less doing it for you."
I kept my mouth shut.
She went on. "I'm sorry I did it, and I'm sorry I got excited by it. It's just...I'd never held a penis before. I wanted to know what it was like, and being able to make you ejaculate...I don't know...it made me feel like I was sexy and beautiful." She sighed. "But, it was wrong. I'm not proud of of myself."
I rolled underneath her so that we were facing each other.
She went on. "So, I wanted you to know that I'm okay with ignoring Mom this time. I want to give you your privacy, and we can just tell her I was there."
"You're not going to help me?"