A thought crossed Williamās mind; āshe probably masturbates more than I do.ā Heād had his suspicions before they moved into the small apartment; the common wall their bedrooms shared confirmed it. In fact, Megan did masturbate more than her son did-lots more.
Meganās self-pleasuring began after she āgave upā men. A series of unfortunate choices, and a serious lover who turned out to have āother commitmentsā when he found out she was pregnant, left her to fend for herself.
She worried about her son Billy, but Megan did the best she could to fill the void left by the absence of a father. She was athletic and taught him soccer and baseball. She enrolled him at the Yoga school she attended. At least the inheritance from her mother left them enough so that she only had to work two days a week; she had time to spend with her son.
Billy was a quiet, withdrawn boy who never called attention to himself except by his good looks. His sexual awakening came at the yoga school. His class ended twenty minutes before his motherās and he often sat at the back of the roomā¦watchingā¦twelve women, mostly between thirty and forty, stretching their bodies into advanced positionsā¦holdingā¦extendingā¦spreading. He had his first orgasm at eleven, looking at his motherās yoga book and thinking about Betty, a forty-year-old busty classmate of his mother.
By the time he was sixteen it was hard for Megan to get anything more than a āyesā or ānoā answer from him. He was shy but even more so around his mother. āEmbarrassedā is probably more the word because although he had fastened his fantasies on different women over the years, at sixteen he came to the one he never expected to get to.
Billy was idly watching his mother doing some stretches at home and she wore a new leotard that was lower cut than most. She was in the āCobraā position and he looked at her breasts sticking out as if it was the first time he had seen them. He watched her do the āBridgeā with her pelvis beckoning to him. āCat-Cow-Cat-Cowāā¦on her hands and kneesā¦arching her back up and downā¦slowlyā¦as ifā¦as ifā¦
He went to his room and his young cock was raging. In his mind she no longer wore the leotardā¦she moved, but no longer aloneā¦he touched herā¦she touched himā¦and he came and came.
After that night only one woman filled his cum-soaked fantasies. For two years it wouldnāt let up on him because in their new apartment he began hearing her noises through the walls: noises of her little squeals, her humming toys, her muffled moans. He waited to hear them every nightā¦every morningā¦and he always did.
Megan tried to get Billy to be more communicative and open with her but despite her efforts he remained isolated. Just before his eighteenth birthday, Megan went back to her old neighborhood for a visit with her old friend Rhonda. After both told each other how much they were missed, Megan mentioned her concerns about Billy. Megan always loved Rhondaās outspoken, outrageous ways but even she wasnāt ready for what came next. āHoney,ā Rhonda said, āthe only way to control any man is with sex, and sweetie, youāve got the body to do it withā¦where did you get those genes from? The two of you are better looking thanā¦ā
Megan pulled her head back and said, āWhat ARE you talking about?ā
āListen Meg, Iāve told a lot of people a lot of things but I never told anyone what Iām about to tell you. Iāve got a few years on you and I learnedā¦listen, do you remember the problems I had with my Tommy when he was about eighteen?ā
āSure I remember, he was arrested with that group that broke into Sadlerāsā¦but he never got in trouble after that.ā
āThatās right, he never got in trouble because I made sure of itā¦he was getting something at home he didnāt want to loseā¦look honeyā¦letās just leave it at that.ā
āRhonda, are you crazy? You tell me youā¦did that and then expect meā¦ā
āAll Iām saying is that if you want to stay in controlā¦ā
āBut itās not the sameā¦anyway I wouldnāt manipulate Billyā¦ā
āHey sweetieā¦it wasnāt like thatā¦we both had funā¦and anyway where have you been getting yours from?ā
āLetās not go thereā¦Iāve gone out with too many losers and guys that want to go to bed before dinner on the first dateā¦and I donāt knowā¦you could get killedā¦between the weirdos and the diseasesā¦Iāve just about given up.ā
āWell I hope you havenāt given up āBuzzā and āBig āDā also.ā
Megan laughed. āNo, Iāve got army of those guys in my drawer.ā
The conversation was disturbing and left its mark, not because Megan could ever consider āusingā sex on her son but because the thought of having sex with her son surprisingly didnāt put her off. It was quite the opposite; it turned the thirty-eight year old mother on. Over time, Billy became a leading character in her fantasies.
She was thinking about him when he saw her do it. Of course he didnāt know what she was thinking, he only knew what he saw. He thought that she didnāt know he was homeā¦and later he thought she did. He was in his darkened bedroom almost asleep and could see her through the center of the French doors that were opened two or three inches. She sat in the chair reading. He recognized the noises as they began but at first he was surprised. He knew she was only reading a biography she had borrowed from the library. Her thoughts were obviously no longer connected to the book. Her dress was pulled up and her hand was over her panties. Her legs were opened and her eyes were closed. Billie moved as close as he dared to the opening and watched as Megan put her hand under the filmy powder blue material and writhed to the stimulation of her own fingering. She came with three or four high-pitched whimpers and her son had enough grist for months at his mill.
Ironically it was she who inadvertently caught him. She walked into the roomā¦and saw him lying fully dressed on the bedā¦with his fingers circling his exposed thickened cock. āOh Billy Iām so sorryā¦I didnāt knowā¦ā He covered himself and turned away. She thought he was embarrassed and tried to put him at ease. āHoneyā¦thereās nothing wrong with doing thatā¦itās normalā¦everybodyā¦ā When he didnāt respond, she went on. āā¦Even your momma does it sometimes.ā He knew betterā¦even his momma did it all the time. Megan was so stimulated by the sight of her sonās thick cock that she kept saying more than she expected to in an effort to get him to open up to her.
āBaby I know that it feels so good and you can think about anything and anyone because itās only a fantasyā¦I doā¦I think about things⦠and sometimes I think aboutā¦youā¦ā She stopped when she realized how far sheād gone. He looked up in surprise at his mother and was encouraged to tell her the truth.
āMomā¦do you know somethingā¦I think about youā¦all the timeā¦I think about touching you andā¦you knowā¦?ā
āYesā¦I know honeyā¦I know. You donāt have to be ashamedā¦I understand babyā¦you can tell meā¦please tell meā¦I want to know.ā As he described his fantasies about her, she closed her eyes, his soft voice was hypnotic and her hand crept toward her pussy.
āI think about your beautiful legs and what it would be like to run my hand up to your thighs and up toā¦between your legs. Iā¦I think about your tits and what it would be like to hold themā¦and suck on your nipplesā¦ā Megan cupped her breast and ran a finger back and forth over the tip, as she pressed harder over her pussy. Billy hesitated as he watched his motherās hands on her body.
He could hardly hear her whisper, āTell me what else you do Billyā¦tell me.ā
There was anxiety in his voice when he said, āMom Iā¦have sex with youā¦I mean I make love to you.ā