This Is so Wrong

Looking out the window I saw my son lazing on an inflatable in our pool. I can't believe how I allowed myself to get to this point. How did I let my son seduce me? I know it's wrong to have the thoughts I'm having but I can't help it. I want him. I want him to hold me. To kiss me. To fuck me. I should have never touched his cock. Even in its dormant state it felt enormous. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since.

My name is Tina and I'm a single parent. I unexpectedly became a mother when I was 18. I never married and my son's father was never a part of our lives. Fortunately my parents helped me in raising Ben. Until recently I never once thought about dating as my focus was on raising Ben.

My parents retired early and moved to Naples, Fl. Ben and I lived with mom and dad for the first six years before Dad bought us the current home that we live in. Needless to say we were very fortunate that my parents were able to provide the financial support I needed to raise Ben on my own.

When I turned 37, I realized that my job as a parent was almost complete. Ben is 19 and getting ready to graduate from High School. He is 6'2" and a well toned 180lbs. He is a handsome young man who always had a bevy of girls that he would hang out with, although never a steady girlfriend. This fall he would head out to college leaving me alone to become an empty nester.

I decided it was time for me to find a companion whom I could be intimate with, laugh with, and grow old with. Easier said than done. To say it was frustrating is an understatement.

I kept myself in good shape with my gym membership. My weight bounced between 110 and 115 lbs which made me look petite even though I was 5'6". I have small but perky breasts and well toned legs. About a month ago my gym pal, Jamie, invited me to join her for dinner at a club.

We had a fun time and I met a handsome man who asked me out for the following week. I was so excited to go on a date. Unfortunately looking back on that date it was the start of my growing obsession for my son.

I went shopping for a new dress as most of mine were casual at best. I found a cute little black dress that fit me like a glove. As Thursday approached I became nervous. I hadn't been on a date since Ben was born and I started to doubt whether this was a good idea. Much to my surprise Ben sensed my anxiety and did his best to reassure me.

Thursday I took a long bath before getting dressed. I hadn't worn a dress in such a long time let alone heels. I looked at myself in the mirror and thought, not bad girl!

When I walked into the kitchen I saw Ben head down, busy with his iPhone. I said, "Honey I'm going to leave now. I won't be late. There are some leftovers in the fridge."

He looked like he had seen a ghost. I said, "Ben are you okay?"

"Wow mom! You look amazing."

I smiled and said, "Thank you honey. I feel amazing."

"No mom! You look really hot and sexy!" His words stirred an unease within me.

"Ben you shouldn't be looking at me that way. I'm your mother for heaven's sake."

"Mom I can't help it. I've never seen you all dolled up. If you weren't my mom I would ask you out myself."

I cringed and said, "Not only am I your mother I'm twice your age."

He responded, "You don't look twice my age! Wait a second you aren't getting picked up?"

I smiled and said, "I felt uncomfortable telling him where I live. Need to get to know him first. That's why I suggested we meet at the restaurant."

Ben smirked, "That seems odd. Have fun mom. You deserve it."

As I left I couldn't help but think about what Ben said. A strange but rather nice unease spread through me. Unfortunately the date did not go as I had hoped. All he did was talk about himself, never once did he ask anything about me. It was a miserable time. I kept thinking that if is this is what dating is all about then I'm done.

I came home to what looked like an empty house. Before I could change into something more comfortable I heard Ben come out of his room asking, "Why are you home so early?"

He walked into the kitchen wearing only a pair of gym shorts. I quickly admired his well toned upper body before saying, "The guy was a jerk. He was only into himself. This dating game sucks."

Ben approached and wrapped his arms around me. He said, "Mom how could anyone not be into you? You are so beautiful." My heart raced hearing his words.

His arms caressed my back as held me tight. It felt wonderful to be held. My body tingled with happiness as he whispered, "You need to find someone like me."

He reached down and gently kissed my lips. The kiss didn't last long but it didn't feel like a motherly kiss either. I of course didn't help matters as I didn't pull back from his kiss. Our kiss continued, definitely got caught up in the moment before I

pulled back and said, "I'm sorry Ben. I shouldn't have kissed you. I'm your mother. It's not right."

He pulled my head into his chest. As he caressed the side of my head he whispered, "It's okay mom. I love you. I'll always be here for you. No apologies needed. Our kiss was wonderful. Did you not like it?"

I whimpered into his chest, "That's the problem. I loved your kiss. I want to find someone that makes me feel as wonderful as you do."

He lifted my head and kissed me again, softly and lovingly. It felt wonderful but I knew it was wrong. He broke the kiss and said, "I will always make you feel special. I love you mom."

My body erupted with sensations that I've never felt. The illicit nature of the kiss added fire to my taboo desire for my son. I had to be strong. As wonderful as the kisses were they were wrong. It was all I could do to break away from his seductive embrace.

I said, "Ben this is wrong I'm going to bed. Thank you honey. I love you."

I went into my room, closed the door, and plopped onto my bed. My head was spinning with a wide range of emotions. The overriding emotion was desire. Desire to be held. Desire to be intimate. Desire for my son. I couldn't believe how quickly my desire for my son had escalated.

I didn't sleep well so I got up, put on a t shirt and went to make coffee. It was only 6:00 am so I headed out to the lanai and reflected on my feelings from last night.

This morning I was much more level headed than last night. I knew that what I was feeling was wrong and probably based on a void in my life that needed to be filled. I have been so consumed with raising my son that I was oblivious to my loneliness. I vowed to not act on the desires percolating within. Maybe when Ben gets back from school I'll sit him down and have a heart to heart conversation about what happened last night.

I went inside and started to clean the dishes in the sink. Standing in front of the sink I took in the view of our spectacular backyard. The pool, the spa, the privacy. I am so thankful for the generosity of my parents.

Lost in my thoughts Ben came up from behind. My body trembled as I felt his arms wrap around me, his lips nibbled my neck as he said, "Good morning gorgeous."

My body betrayed me as the warmth of his lips created a swarm of sensations within. I closed my eyes momentarily to savor the feel of a man's desire then quickly snapped out of my lustful stupor and said, "Ben this is wrong. We need to talk."

Much to my surprise he broke the embrace and said, "Yes mom. Let's talk."

He took my hand, led me to the kitchen table, sat down, and pulled me onto his lap. I tried to resist but his hold was strong. He said, "Okay mom let's talk. What do you want to talk about?"

My brain was conflicted. His touch was electric, soft, and tempting. I tried to focus but knowing his hand on my thigh was so close to my panties made it difficult. I said, "Ben, what's gotten into you? I'm your mother. We can't be doing this."

Ben's arm pulled me closer into his body as his hand continued it's caress of my thigh. He said, "My question is what has gotten into you? I can be there for you mom. I love you. You can't tell me that you didn't enjoy my kisses last night? Can you?"

My resolve quickly weakened. All I could do was muster, "But it's wrong Ben."

Ben turned my face and kissed me. My lustful desires won out and I returned his kisses. I have never been kissed with such love. The feelings were indescribable. His hand left my thigh and softly cupped my face. I was on fire relishing the moment.

What on earth am I doing? I'm making out with my son before he goes to school but I couldn't resist the temptation. It felt so wonderful. I had to be strong. This is wrong no matter how desired he made me feel. I wrestled myself out of his grip and stood up. "Ben today is your last day of school. Go to school!"

He stood up and pulled me into his arms. He said, "Okay mommy. I'll go but all we are doing is kissing. I love you mom. You're beautiful and all I want to do is to make you feel loved."

He leaned in and kissed me. I did not stop him rather I savored the softness of his lips. I was drunk with desire and it felt great. Why does something that is so wrong feel so amazing?

He gave me one last kiss and said, "I can't wait to see you. I love the tenderness of your kisses."

I rushed into my bedroom cursing myself for succumbing to his touch. I laid in bed and let my hands float to my breasts. My god, I have never been with a man. I got pregnant as a teenager, my boyfriend had no desire to be a father and left. Since then I've been alone, except for Ben. Ben has always been there for me, even as a little boy.

My hands found my breasts as I closed my eyes. Tweaking and pulling my nipples I felt my pussy swell with emotion. I reached down to my pussy and was shocked at how wet I was. My finger teased my clit as I cupped my tit. Tremors started to rip through my body. I pinched and pulled on my already erect nipples. I groaned with a forbidden lust.

My finger slid alongside my slit. I could already feel the intensity welling up within my pussy. I pushed a finger into my wet pussy then a second one. I groaned as my hips pushed up to meet my thrusts. I felt little wisps start to cascade within me. I knew it was going to be a powerful orgasm.

My other hand left my tit and dropped onto my clit. My body shuddered at its touch. Wave after wave of electric jolts shot through me. My legs started to thrash wildly, my body convulsed at the thought of fucking my son.

I came for what seemed to be an eternity. I don't know if I had multiple orgasms or just one long powerful one. All I know is that I had never felt this much pleasure course through my body.

I left my fingers inside me. My pussy tightened around them as I rode my pleasure train. I lay there basking in the afterglow of my orgasm. Eventually I mustered up enough energy to take a shower. As I got dressed I noticed how different I looked today from last night. I admonished myself to take the time needed to make myself look good rather than just rush out the door.

I put on a cute pair of red shorts and a sleeveless buttoned blouse. I smiled as the difference was very noticeable. It made me feel good about myself. Three hours later my body was still tingling from my orgasm as I ran errands.

Back home I began to get dinner ready all the while obsessing on how time seemed to drag on. I found myself constantly checking the clock to see how much longer before Ben got home. As the time drew near I found myself uncommonly excited.

I heard Ben say, "Mom I'm home."

Nervously I turned to see him walk towards me, arms outstretched with a big smile. My legs became rubbery in anticipation. He hugged me tight before he pulled my head back and kissed me as a son shouldn't do. My pussy flooded with desire as I kissed my son like a mother shouldn't.

He broke the kiss and said, "Mom I've been thinking about this kiss all day. I couldn't wait to see you."

I smiled and whimpered, "Ben I was excited to see you." He smiled and said, "Mom I love the new you. You look amazing."

He leaned in and kissed me again. My body responded to his touch. My desires controlled my thought process. If I wasn't careful I could find myself in bed with my son. I pulled back and said, "Ben let's sit down."

He sat down and once again pulled me onto his lap although this time I didn't offer any resistance. He looked into my eyes and said, "Mom you are so beautiful. I love you so much." My resolve was gone. He makes me feel so desired. Damn him!

In an effort to try to calm things down I said, "Ben we can only kiss. I'm not comfortable doing anything else. I'm your mother and I feel like this not a good idea."

He kissed my neck, softly nibbling on it before swirling his tongue in my ear. He whispered, "Just kisses mom."

Just kisses? Yeah right who am I kidding? I lost track of time as our kisses continued. His hand caressed my thigh as I felt myself losing control. He inundated me with loving comments, while his kisses had my panties soaking wet.

I pulled back and said, "Ben you are such a nice young man. I don't want to hurt you."

"Mom you aren't going to hurt me. We are going to have so much fun this summer."

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him tight. I whispered, "Just kisses."

In all honesty I could have stayed on his lap all night but I needed to get dinner ready.

"Let me up I need to start dinner. What are your plans tonight? Any graduation parties?"

"Mom I'm all yours. I have no plans. Maybe we can watch a movie on Netflix?"

We ate, talked, and yes kissed. I have to admit I really did like the attention Ben was giving me. As I was rinsing the dishes, Ben pressed in behind me and nibbled on my ear. I savored his touch. I can't believe how wanton I've become. I kept trying to rationalize my desires by telling myself we are just kissing.

I turned and kissed him, my hands cupping his face I said, "Thank you for making me feel beautiful. I really am enjoying the time we are spending together. I'm going to change into something more mom like. Why don't you see what we can watch on Netflix."

His hands dropped dangerously close to my butt as he pulled me into him, his lips caressing my neck. I held him close not wanting the moment to end.

The rest of the evening was more of the same. More kisses, more suppressing my unmotherly desires before we eventually called it a night and went to sleep.

I woke up and went to make coffee only to see Ben standing with a freshly brewed cup. I smiled at his thoughtfulness and wrapped my arms around his neck as he lowered his mouth onto mine. This kiss seemed to have more passion than the previous ones. My body responded to his kiss as I returned his passion.

His hands dropped onto my butt and gently squeezed it. I moaned into his mouth as my pussy reacted to his touch. I reached behind and pulled his arms off my butt and admonished, "Just kisses."

I thought it's just kisses but these kisses are more than that. I broke off, fanned my face and said, "Wow. Thank you for my coffee. What are you going to do today?"

Ben said, "I'm going to the park to play basketball with my friends then we're going to the beach. I'll be home for dinner if you want to hang out. What are you doing?"

"I'm going to a yoga class, look for a dress for your graduation ceremony and then I thought I would lay out by the pool."

"Why don't you buy a sexy bikini? I would love to see you in it."

My heart raced at the thought of wearing a skimpy outfit in front of Ben. I left for yoga but told myself to look for a new bathing suit as well as an outfit for tomorrow's graduation ceremony.

On the way home I stopped at a little boutique shop where I was able to find a sexy but not too risqué bikini as well as a cute little yellow sundress. I was pleased and hopeful that it would impress Ben.

The night was a repeat of yesterday although the intensity of my desires was growing rapidly. I found myself thirsting for his kiss, wanting to be in his arms, wanting to be touched. I tried to rationalize my feelings but it was to no avail. I knew that however wonderful I felt it was wrong to feel this way for my son.

I went for a run Sunday morning before Ben woke up. It was a good alone time. I wanted to grasp what had happened since Thursday. I needed to deal with the very real issue that Ben would be leaving for school in two months. Based on my current situation that day is going to be incredibly difficult for me. It saddened me but I was happy for Ben. He is entering a new phase in his life, an independent phase.

Ben sensed my anxiety and immediately asked, "Mom are you okay?" I shook my head no, my eyes teared up as I lost control of my emotions. Ben pulled me in tight to him, his hands caressed me as he whispered, "Tell me why you are so upset."

I blathered, "It's just that the enormity of today hit me while I was running."

"Enormity? Help me understand."

"In two months you will be leaving for college and I'll be alone for the first time in 19 years. It's always been you and I."

"Oh mom. I'll never leave you. You're all I have. You're all I want."

He lifted my head off his chest and gently wiped my tears away. He leaned in and kissed me, his hand cupped my face as I returned his loving tenderness. Damn it. I can't do this. It's wrong. Yet I savored the moment, wanting it to never end.

I said, "I need to take a nap before your grandparents get here."

Ben led me into my bedroom and said, "I'll stay with you until you fall asleep."

I got in bed and Ben spooned in behind me, his arm wrapped around my waist. I was too emotionally drained to push him away plus I was beginning to crave being in his arms.

I awoke to a wet feeling on my neck before I realized it was my son's lips. Inexplicably I reached back and cradled his head into my neck as I enjoyed the naughtiness of the moment. I don't know how I'm going to resist his advances much longer. My resolve is weakening.

His tongue worked its way into my ear sending little jolts of pleasure throughout me. He whispered, "Mom you feel so good in my arms. I love you."

I let out a soft moan as I finally realized how wonderful it felt to be in my son's arms. I turned my head slightly and said, "Kiss me Ben."

His hand caressed the side of my face as our kisses continued. I was in heaven. Over the last several days my son has made me feel loved, desired, and beautiful.

As much as I hated to stop I knew we needed to get ready before my parents before they arrived. I said, "Ben I need to get ready and so do you."

He kiddingly said, "Let's just stay in bed and not go."

I laughed and shooed him away before the naughtiness of his words hit me. I took a shower and put on my new sundress. I put my hair up in a bun so that my neck and shoulder were visible. I stepped into a pair of wedge sandals and walked out.

Ben's reaction upon seeing me sent chills down my spine. His mouth gaped as he said, "Wow mom you look so hot."

He took me in his arms and kissed me. I melted into his arms as I was definitely on sensory overload. What is he doing to me? I know what he is doing. He is seducing me and I'm letting him do so.

I pushed him away and admonished him, "Ben your grandparents will be here soon. Please behave yourself."

He grinned and said, "I'll behave until they leave. After that I can't promise anything."

I shivered at the thought.

My parents arrived and we went to the graduation ceremony. Afterwards my parents took us out to dinner. Ben was on his best behavior throughout dinner although the entire dinner I felt like he was undressing me with his eyes.

When we got home he quickly pulled me into him and kissed me, this time with more intensity, his tongue teased my lips as it tried to push into my mouth.

I broke the kiss, still in his embrace and said, "I'm not sure that kiss is such a good idea."

He cut me off with another kiss, my resistance rapidly fading I opened my mouth allowing his tongue inside to explore. I moaned, "Oh Benny. We shouldn't be doing this."