I crept down the hall after hearing a noise.
Earlier that evening my Dad had discovered I was a porn model. He had come for a visit and was staying in a spare room in my apartment. I had thought I could keep my modeling a secret from him, but things didn't work out. After discovering a magazine with my picture on the cover my Dad had gone to bed. The hurt look on his face had haunted me through the night until the noise woke me. I was afraid Dad might be leaving without saying goodbye, so I got up to confront him. What I saw when I looked into the living room was Dad sitting on the sofa, wearing boxers, opening the magazine. I must have made a noise because he looked up and saw me.
"Sunny. I'm did I wake you? I'm sorry," he said.
I walked closer to him. "I'm sorry Daddy. I should have told you about all of this. Can you forgive me?"
"I'm the one who needs to apologize, Sunny," Dad said. "I guess I was just shocked seeing you, this way. Maybe I still think of you as my little girl, but obviously you have grown up. I've always supported you and you've always had good judgment and I should have supported you from the start. I'm sorry I didn't, but I promise you I will from now on. Can you forgive me?"
"OH DADDY!" I cried and ran to him, giving him a hug. "I love you. There's nothing to forgive."
"Sunny, about a month ago I realized we hadn't seen each other in over a year and it scared me to death that we were growing apart from each other. I don't want that to happen. I want to be involved with your life."
I sat next to him on the couch and we started to talk about my time in LA. I told him everything about Tricks and how I had been doing at Angels. He was very interested in all of the aspects of the business and I told him all about Jackie. I could tell he was impressed by the manner Jackie was running things. He was also impressed that I had been writing scripts and was going to direct.
It was after 2:00 AM and I realized we had been talking for over an hour. Standing, I asked Dad if he wanted a drink.
"Are you going to have one? I don't want to keep you up too late."
"I think I will," I said, "and this isn't too late. When I am dancing at Tricks I don't get in until much later than this. What'll you have?"
"Just make two of whatever you are having," he replied.
As I left the room, I saw him opening up the magazine. I returned a minute later with two glasses of wine. Dad was still on the couch and he had the magazine opened on his lap. He was looking at a picture of me with a guy named Paul. I was dressed in my Angel outfit, a sheer lacy white robe and a halo. The robe was translucent so that my nipples were clearly visible. I was giving Paul and hug and he had a hand up under the robe.
"Dad," I said handing him his glass of wine, "You shouldn't be looking at that."
"Why, are you ashamed? You shouldn't be. You look beautiful"
"I'm not ashamed, but you still shouldn't be looking at this, after all you are my Dad," I said.
"I told you I want to be involved. You aren't going to make me go out and buy a copy, are you," he asked smiling.
He turned the page as I sat down again. The next page showed Paul pushing the robe open and exposing my breasts. One nipple was exposed, Paul was sucking the other one, and his hand was still up my robe.
"You have a beautiful body, Sunny."
"Thanks Dad," I said and took a big gulp of my wine.
The next picture had the robe open. My breasts were still exposed, but now my pussy was exposed too. I have been shaving my pussy since a boyfriend in high school told me he preferred eating girls who shave. In the pic, Paul had inserted the tip of a finger into me. This was starting to go too far.
Reaching for the magazine, I said, "Come on Dad, this isn't right."
"Sunny, I'm going to look at this. You look great. Really, I'm ok with this."
Dad turned the page. In the next picture I was on my back with my legs spread wide. Paul was using his fingers to spread my pussy open. The next pic still had me on my back with my legs spread, but this one was an extreme close up of that area and in this one Paul was licking my slit.
Dad smiled as he pointed to the pic. "This guy gets paid to do this? He has the best job in the world."
I blushed scarlet, lifted my wineglass, downed what was left, then got up for a refill.
When I came back, Dad had turned the page again. In the magic of porn pictorials, one turn of the page and all of Paul's clothes were gone. Now I was kneeling before him and licking the tip of his cock. I was suddenly conscience of how hard my nipples had become.
I handed Dad his drink and when he reached for it, I grabbed for the magazine, but he was too quick for me and I missed. I sat down on the couch again feeling a bit ashamed.
"Does this really bother you, Sunny?" he asked.
"Yeah, it does Dad. I guess I'm not as well adjusted to this stuff as I thought. I can't believe this isn't bothering you."
Dad shut the magazine on his lap. "Sunny, maybe I need to tell you something. Remember earlier how I told you how proud your mom would be of you if she knew how well you are doing? If she knew all of this, she would be even prouder. I've never told you about how I met your Mom."
"Wasn't it in college, at a party or something?" I asked.
"Well, yes but that isn't really the story. I was in my second year of college and living in a frat house. One of the recent grads was getting married and we were throwing a bachelor party for him. I had been at work. Those days I had a job at a local restaurant. It wasn't much money, but it was enough for some spending money."
Dad continued, "In the frat the bachelor parties used to get pretty wild. We would invite some of the sluttier sorority girls, but we would also hire some prostitutes. Anyway, when I got back to the house, the party was already in full gear. I went downstairs to the bar and saw a circle of guys. In the circle were two guys fucking the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. It was your Mom. I got a beer and sat down in a chair and watched. After a while she noticed me and smiled. Over the next few hours she must have got ten guys off and all the while, she kept glancing at me and smiling. It's probably hard to understand, but toward the end, even though she was with another guy, it was almost as if we were the only two people there. After some time the party ended and one of the regular prostitutes named Lynn came looking for her. While your Mom was finishing up with one of the guys, I had a chance to talk to Lynn. Lynn told me your Mom's name and that she was a prostitute and not a sorority girl. Your Mom finished up with the guy she was with and then walked over to us. She gave me a dazzling smile and asked if she could spend the night. I agreed of course so your Mom told Lynn that she was staying with me, then we went up to my room. She showered and we went to bed. I really wanted to fuck her, but I also wanted our first time to be special, so I held her next to me and we slept together through the night. In the morning we woke up we had sex. Later she told me that at the frat house she had been fucked a lot, but only I had made love to her. The next morning, we got up and went downstairs to the kitchen. One of the frat guys saw her and made a rude comment. I walked over and broke the bastards nose. Your Mom told me that was the instant she fell in love with me."
"Dad," I said, "I had no idea."
"We were married three months later, Dad continued. "Your Mom kept working and I finished school. We used to have some wild parties. We were especially close to Lynn and when she moved to LA to do porn we were just starting to consider following her when your Mom got pregnant with you. I got a job back in Indiana and we moved there and became a typical middle class family. We kind of shut off that part of our lives when you were born. Two years later your brother came and we never looked back."
"That's kind of sad," I said.
"Do you think so?" Dad responded. "I don't know. You kids turned out great and your Mom and I were happy. I have no regrets other than we lost touch with Lynn."
"That's not what I meant, Dad. I had a great childhood. You and Mom were the best. I just hate thinking about the life you sacrificed for us."
"We both loved the wild life, but the time we had as a family was the most precious time of my life."
"Thanks Dad, God I miss Mom," I said.
"Me too dear," he said.
I noticed his eyes tearing up. He looked a little embarrassed. My Dad has never been one to cry openly. Except for the time my Mom died, I don't remember ever seeing him cry. I stood up and took our glasses into the kitchen for another refill.