I looked out of the terminal window last year on October 30th at LAX as my Dad’s plane taxied up to the terminal gate. It had been almost a year and a half since I had seen anyone from the family. On the day after I graduated from high school I had left the little blue collar Indiana steel mill town I had grow up in and moved to LA. I had everything planned. First I would become a super model, then move into acting. I was sure Hollywood was just waiting to embrace me.
Of course I was wrong.
After one month my money was gone, but I managed to get a job dancing in a topless club called Tricks. At first I was a little shy on stage, but a girl named Stacey took me under her wing and soon I was having a blast. I’ve had always considered myself kind of wild. I lost my virginity at 15 and had many sex partners through high school, but the girls at Tricks were at a whole higher level of sluttiness.
Soon I was making enough money at the club to get my own apartment.
The apartment complex I moved into was a great arrangement in that besides old Mr. Johnson in 2A and Kate and Karen Olsen, the old widows in 3B, girls who worked the club took all the other ten apartments. The pool was hidden away from the street and no one cared if we sunbathed nude. The widows kind of mothered us. They had both been actresses in their early days and often reminisced on old stars they had fucked. Mr. Johnson watched us all from his room with binoculars. I guess he thought no one knew he was spying, but of course we all did.
Last September, about a month after moving into the apartment one really hot afternoon I was sunbathing by the pool when a girl named Gina came up to me.
“Sunny” she said, “That fucking bitch Carol stood me up for a photo shoot and I really need this job. Would you be interested?”
“I don’t think so, Gina,” I replied. I knew most of the girls were also doing porn, but I wasn’t too interested. I couldn’t imagine someone in my family seeing me like that.
“Come on, Sunny, I really really really need you.”
“Isn’t there anyone else?” I asked.
“Just Kate Olsen, but I don’t think Pete will fuck her.”
“Pete?” I asked. I had met Pete at a party the last Friday night and thought he was really hot, but before I could make a move on him, another girl, Jenna had taken him back to her place. This could be my chance. “What kind of a shoot is it?”
“Stills for a magazine,” Gina replied. “It’s a girl boy girl shoot. Come on, it will be fun. Pete is a great fuck and I've always wanted to try you out,” she said smiling, “but we’re late so move your ass.”
I got up and put on my bikini. “Fast enough for you?” I asked. “Guess there isn’t much reason in getting on too many clothes, just more to take off when we get to the studio.”
I went up and grabbed my purse and then we jumped into Gina’s car. She had been dancing and doing porn for a little over a year and she was driving a new Porsche. Most of the girls drove beautiful cars. From chatting with them I had learned after working in the industry for five years or so, most were pretty much set. It was not uncommon for them to have a few million dollars in the bank and retire. Many ended up marrying young, rich good looking men and switching from porn goddess to Soccer Mom. As we drove to the studio I knew in my heart that my time had come.
We pulled up to the studio. I suppose I was expecting a big old time movie studio like the one I had toured when I had first come to town. Instead I saw a large warehouse with one door. Gina walked to the door and held it open for me. On the door I saw a small inscription that read: A. Productions. I walked in.
And saw a big man wearing a security uniform watching the door. He said hello to Gina but was looking at me.
Gina introduced us. “Joe, this is Sunny, we are working together today. Has Pete shown up yet?”
“Yeah he got here a while ago. Sunny, you have to go see Jackie.”
“OK, is she in her office?” Gina asked.
“She might be in the editing room,” Joe replied.
We walked down the hall. It might have been any office building until the naked man walked past. We turned and saw a young pretty girl at a desk.
“Hi Terri, is Jackie in her office?” Gina asked.
“Yeah go ahead in,” Terri replied as she smiled at me. We walked past her and through the open door.
Sitting at a large desk was a pretty lady who looked to be in her late thirties. She looked up as we walked in. She looked from Gina to me and then back to Gina. “Carol a no show again?” she asked Gina.
“She’s sick,” Gina said.
“Bull,” Jackie said, “Tell her that’s two. One more no-show and she’s out.”
Jackie looked at me. “Who’s your friend?” she asked Gina while looking me over.
“Sunny. I thought she could fill in for Carol.”
Jackie stood and came out from behind the desk and led Gina to the door. “OK, let me talk to her. Go to testing, makeup, and wardrobe and we’ll catch up to you.”
Jackie shut the door behind Gina and turned to me. “Sunny, are you a slut?”
I didn’t know how to answer.
After a moment, Jackie continued. “Do you know what a male slut is? A playboy. A playboy is a guy who knows what he wants sexually and goes after it. A girl who knows what she wants and goes after it gets labeled too. Bitch, ball breaker, there are lots of names, but when it comes to sex, the name is slut. I’m a slut and all of the girls who work here are sluts, most just didn’t realize it before they started here. Society first gave us the label, then turned it into a negative, but when you stop and think about it, the label should be a compliment. Isn’t a girl who goes after what she wants better off than a girl who suppresses her spirit, settles for some guy and gets fucked every Saturday and maybe gets her pussy eaten on her birthday and Christmas? So tell me, are you a slut?”
“I am,” I answered. I’ve often thought about what she had just told me and I am convinced that she was absolutely, completely correct. I am a slut. I hope my daughters will be. I hate that part of our culture that has made this a bad thing.
“Good,” Jackie smiled, “first you can’t work today. Gina must have forgotten all of the stuff that needs to be done before you work for me.” She pressed a button on the phone on her desk. “Terri can you step in here?”
The door opened and the receptionist walked in. “Terri go tell Steve that instead of a three way, that he will just be shooting Gina and Pete.”
Terri smiled and walked out.
“Hope you are not too disappointed,” she said to me, “but I have certain rules that I don’t break.”
“Ok,” she said getting out some papers, “I need to ask you some questions.”
“Name?”
“Sunny Clark”
“Age?”
“18”
“Height?”