âCome and look at this with us,â Leigh said.
I looked up from the book I was reading to see the twins standing by the door. Leigh was holding up a video tape and went on, âCome on mum, youâll enjoy this.â
It was odd in that neither of the boys had ever invited me to share the videos they watched. They were adult young men and I left them to get on with their lives as they wanted to, just so long as they didnât turn the house into a shambles.
Donât misunderstand me; they were two very loving sons who had been wonderful to me after Harvey left. I think they felt as betrayed as I had at that time, but they dealt with it in a manner different from me. Where they had cursed him for his infidelity and desertion, I had frozen inside. It was as if the body and mind had shut down, not allowing me to think and feel the pain that Harveyâs abandonment would otherwise have inflicted on me.
It was the very coolness and off-handedness with which he announced he was leaving me that was the most harrowing aspect.
âIâm leaving you, Danae,â he had said, almost casually. âItâs no use youâre making a fuss, Iâm going,â and that was it, he just left.
There was some legal fumbling during which it became clear that my small florist business had made a larger financial contribution than Harvey had made to the home and family, so in that respect I came out of the marriage quite well, but thereâs more to life than money.
It might have been better if, like the boys, I had ranted and raved a bit, but I didnât, I simply buried it all away somewhere inside. The trouble with that is, it doesnât go away, it just lurks there waiting to come thundering out the moment your guard is down.
So there I was, trying to read, when I got the boysâ invitation to join them in viewing the video.
âWhatâs it about?â I asked.
âCome and see then youâll find out,â said Neil with a grin.
I suspected they were up to something, but since I wasnât really enjoying my book, I decided to join them.
We went to the family room plumped ourselves down on the divan in front of the television, settling back in to the cushions, and Leigh set the video going.
I had no ideas what to expect, and was somewhat puzzled when the images started to appear. It was a crude amateurish film with no sound and initially there was only a woman who looked as if she was in her forties, sitting on a couch reading.
âJust like me,â I thought.
The image of the woman reading seemed to go on interminably with an occasional turning of a page. Then the camera swung to a door. It hovered there for a moment, then in walked two young men. The camera tracked them as they crossed the room to sit either side of the woman.
She looked at them smiling and they in turn kissed her. One of the young men placed his hand over her breast while the other began to stroke her thighs.
She leaned against the man fondling her breast, and he began to undo the buttons of the shirt or blouse she was wearing.
The other man fumbled at the waistband of her skirt and soon she was sitting there clad only in panties and bra.
At this point the young men took off their jeans and tops to stand there clad only in their underpants. If their intentions had not been clear before, they were now. Each had an erect penis pushing against the skimpy underpants.
The lady was soon divested of her remaining garments and now sat naked, and as if to keep her company the boys took off their underpants to reveal in all their fleshly glory their stiff sex organs.
They now stood in front of her and she took a penis in each hand, flicking their foreskins back and forth. One of the boys dropped to his knees in front of her and parting her legs began to give her oral sex, while the other made himself busy sucking her nipples.
There now ensued what I can only describe as a sexual melee ending with the boys taking turns to ejaculate into her, apparently to the great satisfaction of the women, who, although there was no sound, was clearly crying out in ecstasy with her legs wound round each partner in turn.
Crude though the work was, it had a dramatic effect on me. All the suppressed emotions, longings and desires came pouring out from where they had lain buried for so long.
It was as if they were not so much part of me as some force taking possession of me. I felt my vagina begin to swell and lubricate and my nipples hardened as I watched the two young men take the compliant woman.
Part of me wanted to get up and walk out of the room or tell the boys to stop the video, but the other half sat there fascinated by the sheer joy of those three on the screen. I wondered briefly if the camera operator was male or female, and if they got their turn when they had finished filming.
I was so agitated with my feelings of lust I could not keep still and the long months of my dammed up sexual frustration brought me to tears.
I wanted that, oh God how I wanted it. I wanted not only the sex, but love with it; to be cherished and desired; to open myself to the beloved one and feel love and desire enter me, and yes, fertilise me.
The video came to an end with the woman holding the two young men to her breasts as they suckled at her nipples. She had a seraphic smile of deep content on her face.
I sat on the edge of the divan steeped in my misery and at the same time beside myself with yearning for someone to reach out and touch me. At that very moment I heard Neil say, âIts okay, mum, we understand.â
As in the video his hand came over my breasts and began to fondle them. I saw Leigh kneeling in front of me, his hands caressing my thighs. âDonât worry mum,â he whispered, âweâll make you feel really good.â
The thought flashed through my head, âSo this is why they showed me the video, theyâre going to take me like those young men in the video. My own sons are going to do to me what we saw.â
Part of me wanted to protest, but Neil had his hand up inside my shirt, and having no bras on, he was fondling my naked breasts. Leigh had moved his hands up to my crotch and was stroking his finger over my vulva through the cloth of my panties.
There was a pause while the boys stripped, and I saw their hard upthrust penises, their urethras dripping clear viscous fluid.
All idea of protest vanished. I had been in a state of intense sexual excitement watching the video, now I was completely lost with no power or desire to resist my boys.
Neil was undoing my shirt buttons as Leigh began to draw down my jeans. Quickly I was naked but for my panties and Neil was raising one of my breasts to take the nipple into his mouth.
As Neil sucked and nibbled Leigh gently removed my panties and his fingers began to slide along the little valley of my outer lips.
âThatâs good, isnât it, mum?â He said as I watched him gradually penetrating me with his fingers to my soft inner lips.
Oh God it was beautiful. Had they been rough with me I might have fought them off, but they were so gentle, so tender I yielded completely to their loving handling of my body.
Neil carefully laid me back against the cushions of the divan and began deep kissing me with his hand still caressing my breast. I felt Leigh part my legs and his soft warm tongue began to lick and penetrate my vagina.
I reached out for Neilâs shaft and began to move its foreskin over the crown. I felt that it was hard and wet with precum, and I wondered who would be the first to penetrate my vagina.
It was Leigh who came over me and felt for my opening with the tip of his penis.
In that moment I suddenly had a horrifying thought; âNo, Leigh, you mustnâtâŠyou canât, darlingâŠplease donât.â
I was too late, he was already penetrating deep and my sudden resistance melted as I felt him sliding into me. Whatever the consequences, I wanted himâŠwanted him dearly and had no strength or will to stop him.
He came quickly gasping as the first spurt of his semen shot into me. I began to respond to his movements as he pulled back and then thrust in again to pump the next load of sperm into me.
The elation at feeling a man, even though my son, driving hot sperm into me after so long made me feel helpless, as if I was in his power. As he finished emptying himself in to me I wanted to beg him to stay with me, but he pulled away and was immediately replaced by Neil who, still cupping my breast with his hand, began his penetration.
He had scarcely begun to move in me when my orgasm struck with a breathtaking force such as I had never experienced before. Leigh added to my torment by breathing in my ear, âI love you, mother.â
The orgasmic spasms that overwhelmed me had me clinging to Leigh and tearing at his naked back with my nails, and wrapping my legs round him to force him deeper. As the turmoil of my convulsions shook me I wept and wailed like some hell bound being in torment.