The Thorns in Our Hearts

The Thorns In Our Hearts

A Tragic Romance, Part II

December 23rd, 1984

I sat back on the couch in shock. My sweetest Leigh's arms still protectively around me, absolutely stunned by the announcement my Ex-Girlfriend Melissa had just made.

"You're what??" I said in disbelief.

"You heard me, I'm pregnant Karl, and you're the father." Melissa's sharp eyes pinned me from across the room. "It was the night you took me to the Marriott, I'm sure of it." She started to quietly cry.

I didn't know what to do, I was a perfect roil of emotions. Happiness and love for Leigh surged through me. Shock and confusion about the pregnancy. And my heart was torn out for Melissa. She was so sweet, kind, and full of love, she deserved none of what I had given her. I felt low, vile.

I Spoke, unsure of what to say. "But Melissa, Melissa, I never..." my voice trailed off I couldn't say it.

"Came inside me?" Melissa's voice held bitter irony. "Oh Karl you don't have to. There are other ways."

Laura began to speak but I quickly said "No baby let Melissa say her peace, she's earned it. You two are first cousins, you love each other and I am not letting that get ruined because of me.

Leigh sat back on the couch. And I realized Melissa could be right. I had loads of pre cum when I got excited and I'd heard under certain circumstances it was possible that could get a girl pregnant. "Oh my god." I said softly, as the full import sank in.

Slowly a bigger and bigger smile spread over my face. "Oh my God! OH MY GOD, I"M GONNA BE A FATHER!!" I jumped up, picked up Leigh and swung her in a circle before putting her back on the couch, shocked.

"Melissa I am so sorry but WOW!!!! You want to keep it right??"

She looked up at me, those hurt eyes.

"Of course Karl, but I am just, just hurt right now. I should have known. It's obvious how much you've always loved each other, I saw it. I should never have said yes."

"No Melissa." I said "Please. The fault is all mine, all mine." At this Laugh Leigh sat up and spoke forcefully. "No! Both of you, this is my fault. I've loved Karl since the day I laid eyes on him. I" Her voice softened "I can't imagine wanting anything more."

Melissa and I both opened our mouths but Leigh held out her hand "Please, let me finish. Then they forced us apart. I never felt such pain, so deep in my heart. My love never went away, and every day I saw the two of you happy, kissing, it tore at my heart. Oh Melissa I couldn't stand it anymore. So last night, I did what I did. I am so sorry Melly, so sorry." Laigh used the diminutive she'd called Melissa as a child.

"Oh Laura, of course I forgive you. The heart wants what it wants and both of us want this wonderful, awful man. But he's all yours, I can't hurt like this again."

"Mellisa I" I began

"Save it Karl, I know why you did what you did this time and at least it was for true love. I can understand that, cause I feel it for you. But I have to rid myself of it. You can be a part of our child's life if you want but for now, I have to get out of here."

And with this she stood up, strode past us to the door, got in her car and drove away.

Leigh and I looked at each other in shock, but in love. She put her fingertips gently on my face. "Baby, we have to go tell them."

"But first," she stood up slowly pulling the T-Shirt over her head, revealing her magnificent body to me in full daylight. She let it drop as my eyes took in every inch of her. Shae made a come hither motion at me and "Come with me, to the shower." She said with a grin, before pirouetting to give me a perfect view of her back and walking slowly past the kitchen and down the hall.

I fumbled to get my jeans off, sprang up and nearly ran down the hall. Leigh was already under the stream of the water. She looked like a goddess to me with the water running down her perfect, lithe body in sheets. I was hopelessly in love.

I stepped into the shower with my lover, I pulled her dripping wet body against mine. My hands traced the curves of her back down and down until I cupped the cheeks of her perfect ass. I raised one hand until my fingers slid through her wet, matted hair as I stopped to pull her into my kiss.

Leigh's hands, so wet, slid up the hardened curves of my abs and over my chest as we passionately kissed. I sucked greedily at her tongue, I wanted her to know just how I felt about her.I raised my other hand, and cupped her face. I broke our sweet kiss, only for a moment. "Oh Leigh, I love you so much" I never said it to anyone else. Only her.

I reached down to grab Leigh's waist. I stuck one knee in between her thighs, then the other, sinking down and pushing them apart. Then I used my powerful thighs and hands to grip her and push her up the shower wall. Leigh gasped, and again, as I entered her.

As I fucked her against the shower wall I knew I'd never love, or desire, andyone more. Our kisses were electric, fireworks in my head. My hands gripped the slippery wet skin over her hipbones, Leigh broke the kiss to whisper in my ear. "Oh Karl, I'm yours, forever, I love you, I'm going to come for you."

And she did, as the sheets of water ran between us, down her small soft breasts and hard nipples, down her stomach to the place where our loves became one I felt her vaginal muscles twitch and jerk against my hard cock and felt a flood of wetness flowing from her onto me, that was far hotter than the shower. "Oh Ohhhhhhhh" Leigh cried her joy into my neck. Her legs held me in a momentary vice, and then let her down gently until her feet made contact with the shower's tile floor.

I Slide slowly down to my knees, using my hands to cup, and squeeze her breasts through the water's spray. I kissed down the slight curves of her abdomen slowly and looked up at her. Leigh's long chestnut hair was matted to her slim shoulders, prominent collarbones and chest. Parts of her beautiful breasts were visible through it and her gorgeous coral pink nipples poked out through its strands. Leigh's eyes were full of pure love and unbridled lust, before she tilted her head back and said "Oh baby yesssss."

I covered Leigh's pussy in soft kisses as she flexed her thighs apart for me. I used my fingers to pull her slippery-wet labia apart and began to push my tongue into the dripping wet honey I knew was mine.

I licked Leigh's pussy, and slow circles around her clit as she leaned bank naked against the shower wall, sheets of water running down her perfect body.

"Oh God Karl yes, show me how much you love me."

Leigh began to pant, and moan in a nearly whining tone as I sucked her clit and simultaneously used my tongue to lick it up and down.

Suddenly she looked down, put her hair in my hands and her moans sharply increased

"OH OHH AHHHH OH GOD KARL I'M GOING TO CUM FOR YOU." Leight cried out

AS I started licking her pussy up and down a flood of her vaginal fluids filled my mouth with indescribable sweetness.

Leigh shook a few times, her body trembling and then she relaxed.

I looked up at her and smiled "I love you Leigh."

After last night I didn't think she could cum so much, she surprised me, in the best possible way.

Then we kissed, touched, held each other, finished showering and put on our clothes.

Then we drove to Dad and Bernice's. Their Gold Blazer was in the carport, I knew they were home. With a sense of resolve I stepped from my camaro and locked it. Leigh and I walked, hand in hand to the house.

We went in and sat down. My Father was at the table, drinking coffee. Bernice was cooking breakfast. Leigh and I sat on the sofa. She sat down next to me. Put her arms around me and settled her head against my shoulder. I put my arm around her and waited.

MY dad looked at us quizzically but didn't speak. Bernice came out of the kitchen, she sat down the platter of bacon she'd cooked on the table, and saw us.

"That's too close, stop that right now!."

Leigh spoke before I could

"No Mother. It's not, I love him and I'm sick of hiding it. There's nothing wrong with us being together."

"How dare you Leigh, I am your Mother!" Bernice nearly spat out her words.

I spoke, in a raised clear voice I didn't know I had. "NO! HOW DARE YOU! HOW DARE BOTH OF YOU!? I said, and rose off the couch to my full six feet of height. Leigh's hands pulled at me. But it was a useless effort.

I paced into the middle of the living room."For a year and a half I've been madly, crazy in love with Leigh, and I had to hold it in, feeling my heart wither inside me, watching the woman I love suffer cause she couldn't express her pure love for me, NO! NO MORE! We are together and we're staying that way and if the two of you don't like it? Too goddamn bad." I sat back down and Leigh grasped tightly to me.

Bernice's face was as red as I've ever seen it. "You little insolent bastard, you'll not speak that way to me in my own home GET OUT!!"

At this Leigh shot up off the couch "NO MOTHER, THIS IS MY HOUSE TOO!! AND HIS!!"

Bedlam erupted with Mother and Daughter screaming furiously at each other, neither my Father nor I could get a word in until I said softly at first "You're going to be grandparents."

Then Louder again and again. The third time my Father said in his seldom used command voice

"STOP, WHAT??"

The women paused and I said clearly, "You're going to be grandparent's Melissa's pregnant."

Dad said "Wow" Bernice just sat down.

"Well, where is she?" Berice spoke after several seconds of silence

"I don't know," I responded, "We broke up."

Dad said, "As much as you philander I knew this would happen."

"Apple doesn't fall far from the tree eh?" I said with a wicked smile, causing Bernice to shoot daggers from her eyes, at dad this time.

She stood up "I'm going to bed, the whole lot of you get out" She said as she walked down the hallway.

My father sat back and said "While I am thrilled at the prospect of being a Grandfather, I don't understand why you're like this Karl."

I had had enough.

"Gee, DAD I don't know why I Am like this. Like what, exactly?"

My voice dripped with sarcasm

"Like...Heckll & Jekyll?"

"Like Burl Ives?"

"Like Soupy Sales?"

No, wait. Maye I AM JUST LIKE YOU!" I finished.

Dad started to protest but I just shook my hands at him Then sat back and put my arms around Leigh who settled comfortably tino my embrace.

"Doesn't matter" I said "I have who I want, finally, and I'm happy."

I looked right into Leigh's beautiful eyes. "My wandering days are over."

June through July 1985

On June 10th Melissa had our daughter Kassandra Diane. I fell hopelessly in love the moment I saw her. By this time Melissa had let bygones go by and we were all friends again. She willingly allowed Leigh and I to co-parent Kassandra.

As Spring turned to Summer and to Fall I was as happy as I'd ever been in my life, the girl of my dreams was mine. And we were raising my daughter. We lived as a family in Leigh's trailer. I bought an air conditioner for our room and for Kass's. I knew what I wanted to do with my life and never wanted things to change. Legh was wonderful, as kind, sweet, and loving as ever. We spent our nights happy in each other's arms. In the late week and weekends when Kassandra was with Melissa. We'd pour out our passion for each other and make love as only two people deeply in love with each other can.

September 1985

In September I got a call from Ron. He wanted me to come visit, he had an apartment and a girlfriend now. He also said Ness wanted to see me. She'd been hurt by the direction my life had taken away from her but still wanted to see me.I said okay, told Leigh I'd just be gone a couple weeks. I left, fully intending to be loyal to her.

So I went, hung out in Ronnie's new apartment. Met his girlfriend Tina. A dumpy and unremarkable black-haired girl that seemed nice enough. Though she told me her mother had been an actual street walking hooker and she'd raised her younger half-sister Dawna alone. I didn't pay much attention. I hadn't even seen Ness. She was off somewhere with her boyfriend apparently. I was secretly relieved about that.

A few days went by and I was starting to get anxious about returning to my family. I got up one morning and Tina said "Hey Karl, me and Ronnie have to go to work, but my sister is coming by. Can you take her out to lunch or something till we get home"?

I was like "Yeah sure, whatever."

So about noon, there's a knock on the door and I go answer, I figure she'll look like TIna. But she didn't. It was all I could do to keep my jaw off the floor the first time I saw Dawna. She walked past me into the room and said "Hi, I'm Dawna." In a soft, lilting very feminine voice. She was gorgeous. High cheekbones, straight nose, soft pink lips with an almost whimsical bow. I swelled flowery perfume and her scent as she walked past. I turned to look and her body was exquisite. She was wearing a shirt tied under the rounded swell of her generous breasts, She had a perfect hourglass curve and was wearing tight jeans that brought my attention to the nicest rounded ass I'd ever seen. I reminded myself loudly mentally that I was happily taken.

"And you must be Karl" She said with a stunning, gorgeous smile. The whole scene was so very reminiscent of how I met Leigh I was taken aback for a moment.

But I regained my composure and said "That I am, " as I sat in my chair. I was wearing jeans and no shirt and I immediately noticed how her gaze momentarily lingered on the sculpted muscle of my chest and abs, as her eyes went lower, she looked away. I knew I was reading the signals right, she liked me immediately. And I knew I had to stop.

So I decided I'd take her to lunch and that was it. I was however, into decent money by then, so I took her to Kingfish, a fancy seafood restaurant in L-ville, where we were.

As we sat and talked I learned about her life. She was 18, a year younger than me, and had been raised by her half-sister Tina. Her mom was the very definition of an absent parent. The more we talked, the more drawn to her I was. I started imagining kissing her, touching that perfect smooth skin. The more we talked, the more trouble I knew I was in. The main thing I read from Dawna was a deep loneliness. She told me she'd had guys trying to paw at her since she was a little girl. She looked across the table at me, those gorgeous dark eyes and said "I just wish I would find someone I can trust, that won't hurt me.' I loved Leigh and my daughter but, Dawna's words reached right into me.

I told her to hang on and I'd be right back. I called Ronnie and told him we'd be back sometime later. I walked back to the table and looked over at her and asked if she'd like to see something beautiful. She said yes and I took her to the lake a few miles away from my hometown. It's in the middle of an Appalachian National Forest. It's amazing. I took her to a spot I knew overlooking the lake and we sat there and talked some more.

She said "We're in the middle of nowhere, you could do anything you want" Her voice trailed off as she looked at the lake. I took her chin in my hand, and looked at her beautiful face. The breeze ruffled her long blonde hair. "I won't hurt you Dawna, ever." I said. I looked into her eyes and pitched my voice low "I just want to make you happy."

She didn't say anything for a moment, she leaned back against me, looking out over the water. Then she looked up at me, looked me in the eyes and spoke

"Do you want to kiss me?"

"Yes"

"Then kiss me."

I reached behind Dawna's head with my right hand, I felt my fingers in her hair for the first time. It was soft and fine as strands of silk.I pulled her into our first kiss. Our lips brushed, so soft and her mouth opened to me. Dawn's tongue slid into my mouth, over my own. Our kiss was passionate, but unhurried. I knew I couldn't rush her, she was fragile, like china in my hands.

After a few moments she broke away and settled her head down onto my chest.

"I've never been with anyone that didn't just, take what they wanted and leave. I know there's someone else for you, Tina told me that. I've also been told you're very sweet and kind. So be sweet and kind to me, and I'll do anything for you, and if you leave...just come back, when you can."

I ran my fingers through her silky blonde hair. "I can do that."

Dawna looked up at me, a kind of desperate longing in her eyes. "Then make me your girl Karl"

I took Dawna's lovely face in my hands and kissed her again. More slowly burning passion. She started tugging at her clothing but I put my hands on hers, I whispered into her ear "Let me" As we continued to kiss I gently untied the ends of her shirt and let them fall. I reached inside and my fingers sank into the soft warmt of her breasts, they were full and heavy. She was wearing a tight, dark blue bra. I reached behind her to unsnap it as I sucked on her tongue. As I gently tugged the shirt and bra free over her head I had to momentarily break our kiss, before I had gotten her clothing to the ground her mouth pursued mine greedily, she sat forward so that our lips met in erotic dance again. She pulled down my vest and her fingertips traced the edges of my chest and abs, downwards towards my tight jeans.

Dawna reached back and began to unbutton her own jeans. Again I gently grabbed her wrists and pulled her hands away. I broke the kiss, sliding my mouth across her cheek, slowly, sensually and whispered "Let me baby." I gently, slowly kissed down her neck and across her left collarbone, an inch at a time. My hands sunk into the fullness of her breasts, As my fingertips closed around her hard nipples she uttered a long, soft sigh. I slid my hands down over her flat stomach and I kissed downwards to her full breasts.

I took Dawna's stiff, pink left nipple into my mouth and began licking it with my tongue as I sucked it with my lips

"Oh God" Dawna moaned out.

I used my fingers to gently unbutton, then unzip her tight jeans. Then I tucked my fingertips under the waistband of her jeans and panties, and tugged downwards. Dawna arched her back so I could pull her jeans and panties down. I got them down to her knees and went back to licking and sucking one of her nipples, I slid my hand up her thigh and gently brushed my fingertips over the inside of it, making her shiver. She meanwhile had begun fumbling with the button and zipper of my jeans. I sat up and back for a moment and just looked at her. Her beauty was exquisite. Her face was flushed and her eyes sparkled. Her long silvery blonde hair was spread out in the green grass. Her rounded breasts crowned with hard coral-pink nipples. Her skin, taut over her prominent hipbones was incredibly smooth under my hands. I unzipped my jeans for her and slid them down to my knees, I felt her eyes travel down my front. And felt her hands close around my hardness.

I spoke "No Dawns, I want to taste you first." And I slid my knees backwards, feeling her hands fall away with regret. Regret that faded as I kissed her abdomen, looking up at her eyes. I kissed every inch of her hipbones and down her thighs to her knees, then back up the insides of her thighs, one side, then the next. She groaned aloud, started wiggling, trying to get her pussy under my mouth, but I was taking my time. I wanted to be vastly different. I wanted to show her what it was like to be loved, not used.

I teased her unmercifully, edging her, almost getting my mouth into her but not quite. I finally planted a kiss directly on the bud of her clit. She moaned loudly and dug her fingertips into the earth. I used my fingertips to gently part her dripping wet folds. I gently licked, tasting her for the first time. She was divine, sweet as honey. I licked her slowly, savoring the taste of her in my mouth. Circles around her clit without touching it.