I always knew what I wanted to do with my life, I wanted to start as a secretary, and progress to become a personal assistant to a high flyer. Already a proficient typist when it came to using computer keyboards and computers in general, I left high school and attended secretarial college. At college I developed further skills, shorthand, taking dictation, using typewriters and general secretarial responsibilities. A company offered me work experience during the summer vacations, and then offered me a permanent position after I graduated. I always considered myself as pretty, with a nice figure, as did the men, but it was made perfectly clear that I had no interest in them whatsoever, and therefore labeled a lesbian. However, when some of the women started chatting me up they found out that I wasn't interested in them either.
After being with the company nine months, the chairman's secretary handed in her notice, with her position advertised both within and external of the company, for which I submitted an application. There was a major problem, a black mark against my name. When I first joined the company as a permanent employee I made two calamitous basic mistakes, and was referred to after, as that dumb blond. Blond certainly, dumb I don't think so. Anyway, an interview was granted at which I presented my qualifications and asked if I was willing to take a test, basically typing and shorthand. It was also necessary to spend a day acting as the chairman's secretary, overseen by the woman whose position I was hoping to fill. Mr. Preston, who like to be called just Preston, nobody seemed to know his first name, offered me the position, of course everybody said that I only got the job because of my sex appeal.
Preston was a good boss and I liked him, and over the first few months I began to find out about his life and surprised when told he owned the company. Preston had been married, his wife died at an early age and he just immersed himself in the company working all hours. One day when I was pottering around his office filing documents, for the first time he began to talk to me on a personal level rather than a business level.
"Susan, what would you like out of life?"
"I would like a nice house, to be financially comfortable and secure, and have a family. I don't want to end up like my parents who have been struggling all their life."
Preston said, "It's unlikely that someone of your own age could give you that, only a more mature man could provide you with your dream. What about children don't you want them?"
"Yes I want children and marrying an older man is certainly an option I would enjoy, especially if he's kind to me."
"What do you mean by kind, give you lots of money; buy expensive presents and jewelry, fur coats that sort of thing?"
"No of course not, obviously I would like nice clothes but then again he would want me to look nice for him, but I mean kind in life and certainly kind and active in the bedroom. I would want us to be lovers but as the jewelry thing goes, I would like a nice engagement ring."
That's pretty well where the conversation ended, only the next day Preston called me into his office asked me to close the door and sit down pointing to the chair in front of his desk. He phoned reception and asked them to hold all his and my calls, and not put anybody through until he phoned them back. I thought that perhaps I had done something wrong, but no, he started to talk about the conversation we had the previous day.
"Susan, I thought about yesterday's conversation and what you want out of life, and your attitude towards older men. You know that I own the company, live in a nice house, albeit a large house, and that I'm wealthy, I have no children and I don't think I'm too old, therefore, hypothetically would you consider marrying me?"
"Preston is that an actual proposal? I know you don't love me any more than I love you, but with time who knows what will happen. If we were to marry, would you want me as your wife to stay at home and have your children; how would you guarantee I would be financially comfortable and secure?"
"Yes it is a proposal, I would like to marry you and have you raise our children, and to show you how committed to you I am, whether you stay at home or come to work is entirely up to you. I already have a house keeper and we could hire a nanny if you wish. As for the financial side, the day we marry I will give you a lump sum of $5 million dollars and $1million for every year we are together and put your name on the deeds of the house so we own half each. From that money you will purchase your clothes and anything you need that is personal to you, everything to do with our life together or the house I will pay for. However in the bedroom, as in our life together, there is to be no holding back you will have to be fully committed to me. That's the deal not very romantic is it?"
"Perhaps Preston, romance will come later, and yes I will marry you, but can we just have a quiet wedding? I don't want it spread around the company, but that's your decision."
We had quiet civil wedding, my parents were there; my father was concerned because I was marrying a much older man, someone more of his age, having previously asked if I knew what I was doing. Preston's attorneys were there, because of our marriage they had work to do on Preston's will and estate. There were also a few close friends. We honeymooned in Hawaii for two weeks which was when I became pregnant, resulting in me packing up work shortly after so that I could stay home and plan for our family. Preston was over the moon and I was happy to be having a child within the first year, and so the dumb blond became the boss's wife. Before the baby was born, my staying at home all day with very little to do became a bit of a drag, my cooking skills left a lot to be desired, so I spoke with Preston and asked if he would mind me attending the local culinary college. He thought it a great idea; normally he entertained clients by taking them out to dinner and now that we were married I would go with him, but his thinking was we could entertain at home with me cooking some delightful concoctions.
Preston was a hard worker staying late at the office, I begged him to cut his hours because he suffered from stress and anxiety, but he never did. Our marriage lasted fourteen years, he was 65 when he died I was 35. He left me everything but I certainly didn't want the responsibility of the company so I decided to sell it. The lawyers thought they were going to have a field day, as did the people who wanted to buy it. They started to mess me around trying to convince me it wasn't worth what I knew it was worth, so I deliberately began to miss appointments and when I did attend meetings I would hem and haw, procrastination in its most extreme. Eventually they got the point and I did very well with the sale more than anyone expected.
It was the day of Brett, my son's nineteenth birthday. Early in the afternoon as with most afternoons found me sitting on the sofa enjoying some solitary quality time, as usual scantily dressed wearing a boob tube, tennis skirt and panties which just about covered my modesty. I always changed into more appropriate attire before my son arrived home from college. You can imagine my surprise when Brett walked in, home early from college, apparently the students having been sent home early due to some incident. He stood in the doorway going on about not having any lunch and getting a snack. I just sat there looking at him thinking what a good looking boy, 6 foot 2 inches, broad shouldered and one of the stars of his college swimming team. Having a financially healthy mother who doted on her son, denying him nothing was an added incentive. Girls seemed to like him, attracting them like a moth around a flame. He had quite a few, albeit short relationships, his girlfriend's lasting a month or two.
Each time a relationship broke down I would wonder if there was something about him that once the girls got to know him, didn't like. Or perhaps it was after a girl had surrendered her body that he lost all interest. Obviously I had been daydreaming, fantasizing, wondering what it would be like to be his girlfriend, curious about how he treats them, whether he has sex or not, and to what extent he is prepared to go to pleasure a girl. At night in the dark I would create scenarios where Brett would creep into my bed kiss and fondle me providing me with unbridled pleasure, only to finally pleasure myself. Sometimes I would lift a breast up to my mouth and suck my nipple, making believe it was my son forcing himself on me. Often I wondered what my reaction would be if he did creep into my bed and begin to fondle me, would I resist or would I willingly submit to his attentions.