Waiting. That was the worst part. After Mondayâthe night I sucked my brother's cock and asked him to fuck meâI left while he went to take a shower. I had class the next morning and I still needed to take care of my homework. My head was reeling, spinning and my body was still shaking. The taste of his cum was in my mouth and I thought again and again about it filling my throat and mouth as he moaned. I wanted more. He took control of me, that much I knew for sure. When he pushed me against the wallâI was his. It felt strange to drive away and even stranger look over my school work and to try to think about going to class.
We did not discuss it, but in my head I assumed I would see him the following evening. When I arrived at school I was dismayed to find out it I was supposed to leave for my senior trip after school. We were going to the mountains and I was one of the organizers so I needed to go early. How could I have forgotten all about this? I listened to the announcements and frowned. The earliest I would be home was Saturday night and that was four whole days away.
I did my best to keep a good attitude and by the time the morning was over, I fell back into my role of spunky high school girl. My friends asked me where I was last night and why I missed drama. I didn't know what to say so I lied. I told them I had to help my mom do something and I was so pissed I forgot to call. It was a bad lie, but it seemed to go over fine.
During lunch time my cell phone rang and I saw it was Brian. My heart skipped a beat, I snatched up the phone and darted out of earshot to answer it.
"Hello?"
"Hey Michelle," Brian said. I could tell he was smiling too. "So I managed to catch you during lunch?"
"Yes you did, good timing," I replied.
"So...I was wondering if you could come by tonight. I...um...well I want to help you with what you asked me to do last night," I knew his friends were around. It was so cute.
My knees shook. "Yeah...I really want to. But I forgot I have this school trip to go on," he was quiet on the other end. "Like...I really want to...so much that I totally forgot about this trip."
"When do you get back?" He asked.
"Saturday," I answered and then an idea hit me. "Why don't I ask mom if we could use the time share...I will already be in the mountains, I could just meet you there."
"Yeah...that's a good idea." He said in an excited voice. "So...let me know what mom says ok?"
"Yeah I will."
"Um...Michelle?" his voice grew quiet.
"What is it?" I felt a little tense.
"I love you," he said.
I melted. "I...I love you too Brian. I'll call you soon." With that I hung up.
The rest of the day was a blur. I managed to ask my mom about the time share and she said of course. I called Brian back, but he was in class so I left a message. It was all set. Saturday night would be the night.
I went through the motions at school and paid little attention to any of the details. I tuned out so much that when Kevin Charles asked me out I just looked at him blankly. Two weeks ago I would died of happiness if Kevin even looked my way, but now I didn't care. I shook my head after he asked me again and checked my phone to listen to Brian's excited message.
That night I packed my things carefully. I decided I would need two bags, one for the trip and one for the weekend with my brother. I threw in random things to the first bag. I really just needed to have enough to wear. Then I sat in front of the other bag for a long time. What would I wear for him? What would he like?
I looked in my closet anxiously. I pulled out what lingerie I hadâI mean I was only 18, how much could I own? I had fun black lacey thong and a matching bra. I found my silk night gown and a tight tank top and really short shorts. But it just didn't seem like enough or the right thing. The thong was fun...but...I just didn't know. So I sent Brian a text: I am packing now...any requests?
A few minutes later he sent me: just underwear.
I smiled. He was so sweet and simple.
I took out my best thongs and bras and put them in and giggled with excitement.
That night I left for the trip and I felt myself feeling nervous. We had a series of activities planned, and all I could do was hope for them to end so I could go to bed and it would be one day closer to Saturday. Each thing seemed to drag on and on. My friends noticed I wasn't as thrilled as they expected and I told them I was feeling sick. They were sympathetic, but only until the boy they liked took them for a walk or smiled at them. I spent those times looking at my phone and wondering if I should text Brian or call him.
On Friday night I took a shower and after looking in the mirror I realized that he had never seen me nakedâat least not since I had gone through puberty. I looked over my body and wondered what he would think. I carefully shaved my pubic hair down so there was only a strip left. I didn't like to be bald down there and I wanted him to see I was a woman and not a girl. My tummy was flat and my boobs were still perky. They were so tense and sensitiveâespecially when I thought about Brian. I knew I was prettyâprettier than most. But I still wondered if I was what he wanted. After all these years, I was just his sister.