He kissed me last night. Just a chaste kiss, but for the moment it was enough. I know it's wrong to want him, but how can I resist? Society says I shouldn't feel like this about him, but to live with someone for so very long, surely these feelings must arise. Shouldn't they?
I see him each morning as he staggers down stairs, still half asleep, blinking in the harsh light that streams in though the large hall room window as he tries to enter the waking world and I begin to wonder: What did he dream about? Was it me? God, I hope so. Did he wish I was there with him as he slept? My body curled about him, my front against his back, my breasts pushing into him, arousing him, making him forget that I'm his . . . No, I don't want to say it even in my thoughts; society's condemnation creeps once more into my head.
How can I not want him? He is my flesh and blood after all. We share the same genes, the same wants and needs. If God didn't want me to feel like this why did he make him so beautiful?
Does he know? I've lost count on how many times I've asked myself. As he notices my eyes on him, does he realise how I yearn for him? His touch, his caress. The feel of his body as he breathes in the night, rising and falling in time with mine? I see him as he rises, his cock hard with an early morning erection; the knowing that's it's not for me, but the need to piss that makes him hard. It doesn't matter though.
I imagine that it's him that enters me, that first time, pushing though the barrier that signals the difference between girl and woman; but it's not to be. That happened a while ago, with a pimply faced youth, but I was imagining that it was him, even then.
I lay on my bed, listening to him shower, imagining him, naked, soaping down his body, allowing his hand to linger at his groin just a little longer than necessary. I could do that for him; gently massage the highly perfumed gel onto his chest, stretching up, ever so slightly, to reach his manly chest. Feel his nipples erect under my fingers and his cock swelling between us.
I would pull him tight against me; being almost a foot taller than me, his cock would linger just below my tits, but only for a few seconds. I'd bend my knees slightly until he nestled between my swellings. I'd squeeze my breasts together, trapping his manliness between them, then I'd rock. The soap would provide our lubrication as he tit fucked me.