NOTE: THIS STORY IS BASED ON REAL HISTORICAL EVENTS. ANGLO-SAXON NAMES CAN BE CONFUSING TO THOSE UNFAMILIAR WITH THEM, SO FOR REFERENCE A 'DRAMATIS PERSONAE' HAS BEEN APPENDED.
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"And I grant to Bishop Æthelwold the estate at [unidentified] and pray him that he will always intercede for my mother and for me." Will of Ælfgifu.
Risborough, October 959
Æthelgifu stared at the raftered ceiling, unable to return to sleep; in her mind she turned over all that had passed since the fateful day of Edwig's coronation. Three and a half years, was that all it had been - to gain and lose so much? Many was the night she had woken early to lie awake in the long hours before the dawn, brooding upon what the weft and warp of fate yet held for her and for her children: one daughter abandoned, the other yet to be betrothed, her sons bound by oaths of loyalty to a falling star. But this morning her heart strained under a heightened foreboding, a premonition of a doom waiting to fall upon them all.
Ælfgifu, the elder of her daughters, lay snuggled against her mother, the touch of her warm flesh cloying and prickly beneath the covers, stray strands of auburn hair tickling the matron's cheek. Careful not to disturb the slumbering girl, Æthelgifu extricated herself, gently letting the younger woman's head drop against the sloping headboard. In the chink of light breaking through the thick embroidered bed hangings she watched her daughter's pert full breasts rise and fall with the rhythm of her breath. Tenderly she traced a finger round the aureole of the closest nipple, pink against the pale freckled flesh, raising the small bud. Ælfgifu moaned softly in her sleep, responding to the familiar touch.
Æthelgifu had done all a mother could to comfort the girl, distracting her with occupations suitable for a young lady of rank: engaging her in games such as nine men's morris and fox and geese, or in the embroidering of vestments for the church; while scops had been brought in to fill the lengthening evenings with ancient sagas and ingenious riddles. With maternal care she had soothed her daughter's troubled mind with readings from the Gospels, and satisfied the burning desires of her daughter's flesh with lips and tongue and fingers that penetrated and probed in all the her secret places, using the nubile body in the ways it craved to be used; slaking her own ravening lust on her daughter's need.
It was not enough. The touch for which Ælfgifu pined was that of her husband, the touch she would never be allowed to feel again, his cock never more to slide between the gratefully parted thighs and fill the welcoming cunt, where, by nature's law, if not God's, it belonged. And Æthelgifu? Well, if she did not hear from that bastard dishthegn soon she was going to hump a stablelad; or possibly one of his charges.
Letting her daughter sleep on, Æthelgifu parted the hangings and slid down off of the big wooden bed. Privacy was the preserve of privilege, the church frowned upon the opportunities it provided for the indulgence of sinful appetites. Æthelgifu, whose appetites were more powerful than most, had her bed behind a partition of stout Baltic planking. Answering a knock upon the door she undid the mortice lock, to let in a bleary eyed slavegirl bearing a ewer of steaming water. By the dim morning light filtering through the oiled vellum window, she washed her face and private parts, and, having towelled herself dry, dressed, selecting from an iron-banded chest a long blue linen tunic with tightly fitting sleeves. Over this went a broad sleeved scarlet gown in soft wool, embroidered upon the neckline and cuffs, and onto her feet she slipped shoes edged with red leather. Taking up the collection of tiny tools that hung from a ring at her belt, she plucked her eyebrows and nostril hairs, then scooped the wax out of her ears with a tiny spoon, before applying a little colour with a brush. Finally she donned a lace adorned wimple, straightening it in the lead-backed mirror so that the carefully crimped light brown curls artfully peaked out onto the forehead and temple.
She paused to admire herself. The broad brow was marred by a brace of narrow lines, and perpendicular to these, stern furrows had formed above the bridge of the chiselled nose, and, yes, the skin hung a little loosely from the high cheekbones, but the beauty that had caused Edric, ealdorman of Hampshire, to choose her yet remained. The once luscious mouth had grown thinner-lipped and downcurled at the corners, but she had kept the full set of even teeth, all tolerably white. The eyes had grown a little heavy lidded, but pearl grey irises continued to gleam brightly under curling lashes. The swanlike neck creased now when it turned, and creases too testified to the weight of the yet full but increasingly veined and pendulous breasts; a belly had gathered above the tapering waist and there was more meat upon the hips that had borne Edric four children. But for all the trials inflicted upon her, all the insults she had had to endure, and all the slanders, she still carried herself like the great lady she was, the granddaughter of an atheling, the widow of an ealdorman, the mother of a queen.
Wrapping herself in a marten-trimmed mantle, held together with the garnet broach Ælfheah had gifted her, she passed through the bower, where the palliases of her household retainers had been rolled away and the ashes of the fire in the central hearth were being raked; then stepped out into the passage that separated the bower from the great hall. The bond servants, who had slept on the benches that lined the walls of the hall, were already up and about their business in brewhouse or dairy, granary or buttery, the wholesome scent of bannocks baking on the griddle wafting from the kitchen.
Æthelgifu walked across the enclosure to the bellhouse and began to climb. From the top of the tower she could look down upon the roofs of the vill clustered around the ditched and pallisaded burh, the solid homes of churls and the humbler cottages of labourers, the manorial chapel and the mill. Her eyes swept further abroad across the stubbled fields and mown meadows, at first tracing the long western boundary of the strip of land that formed her estate, from the gore to the blackthorn hedge and along the foul brook up past the great ash and down the old dyke west of the herdsman's shacks; then looking north to the neighbouring manors of Waldridge and Kimble and beyond to the valley of the Wye, before turning her gaze east to the Icknield Way under the wooded slopes of the Chilterns, where the chalk scar of Whiteleaf caught a glimmer of morning sun; at the old heathen burial mound the ancient trackway met the King's Street which ran on up past Wayland's stump to thread through the gap in the hills. Two horsemen were galloping headlong down the road; though little more than distant specks as yet, Æthelgifu recognised them with a mother's eye.
Returning to the bower she was greeted by her younger daughter, Ælfwaru, her hair yet uncovered but the budding breasts obvious beneath the linen shift. Perhaps I should put her in Edgar's bed, she thought, as I did Ælfgifu in his brother's. But what was the point? The horny little toad had already bedded half the thegn's daughters in Mercia and, perhaps with more pleasure, their maidservants too. It was doubtful if there was anything even Æthelgifu could teach him.
"What did you see, mother?" the child asked, surprised to find her coming down from the bellhouse.
"Your brothers are here," Æthelgifu answered. Ælfwaru's exclamation of excitement died upon her lips as she took in the hard line of her mother's mouth. "You had best tell your sister."
The brothers rode under the great burh gate and swung down off of their shaggy ponies, throwing the reins to a groom. The younger boy, Ælfward, embraced his mother; Æthelgifu ran her finger through his copper hair as she looked questioningly to his brother. Æthelward's gangling frame had begun to fill out; last year he had taken a wife and he was become one the great men of the household, a royal dishthegn, like Ælfheah. Where, wondered Æthelgifu, was Ælfheah? Why did he not come?
Æthelward's gaze reluctantly turned from his mother to Ælfgifu his sister, as he cleared his throat to announce, "Edwig the All-fair is dead."
All colour drained from Ælfgifu's cheeks. Of course she had understood that she had lost him, that there was no way he would be allowed to take her back, but Æthelgifu knew a part of her had still hoped. Ælfgifu shook her head, "He can't be."
Of course he is, thought Æthelgifu. How, when they have taken so much else from him, the half of his kingdom, the wife he loved, would they let him keep his life?
Kingston, March 956